I hate how I'm starting to have irrelevant and unnecessary thoughts in my head. I know it's the words of the Devil. I'm trying to block them out, but I'm afraid I don't have the power and strength to do so.

I'm going to pray immediately after I get into my PJs.

It's time to shake things off.

And to see things in a different perspective.

Goodnight.

Xoxo.

A complex post, or rather a post that will really make you think if you understand certain things and stuff like that, was supposed to be posted tonight.

But it's not completed and it's already 137am.

I've to bathe and head to bed because I've an 815am class tomorrow, or rather later.

Goodnight lovelies.

Xoxo.

Church today.

I finally met up with so many people that I haven't seen for months...

1) Alyssa Victoria Adisasmita,

2) Kartika Tantra,

3) Steven Chuang.

And also the three people who I met at Mitsuwa,

4) Grace,

5) Mikka,

6) Mingming.

How long have I not seen them and how much I missed them.

Especially Kartika Tantra!!

I haven't seen her since just forever.

And even because of the long separation, we are still as lame and retarded as ever :p

After lunch, all of us, which is like more than 10 of us, decided to come to Hebron's and Elius's place to study and do homework.

I completed my Chemistry homework in the first 30 minutes of being at their place.

And I did 2 questions of Math before I decided to stop doing because I'm just too tired...

Or rather too lazy.

Going for dinner later and I am dreading for school to start tomorrow.

:(

We're chilling at Hebron's and Elius's place now.

It's so boring.

And eating popcorn and snacks is just making my throat condition.

:/

Thinking of what to engrave for the iPod I'm going to get.

Decided to put a Bible verse on it.

I think I want something about either...

Love, faith, friendship/relationship and trust.

Either one of that would be good.

I can't wait for tomorrow.

Church, lunch, chilling and going to Malibu to take pictures of the sunset.

How awesome is that?

My camera will finally be used after a long time.

Time to put out my charger and charge my battery.

And after that, to put my battery and memory card in my camera.

& to place my camera, lens and stuff in my bag.

Woopeedoo :)

I Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I just killed a moth.

And I'm feeling so guilty over it.

I'm sorry for killing you.

Forgive me ):

I'm sleepy, tired and just want to sleep right now.

But I'm going to take some time to blog about what I had in my mind earlier on.

When Bryan said that he couldn't do a single pull up last time, I thought about myself too.

And I had the same experience.

Back in April, I was the type of person who always said to myself that I couldn't do this and that and I will never be able to do whatever that thing was.

It started to change.

It being my mindset.

When I just entered Taekwondo, the master wanted to see our flexibility and strength.

One of the required things that he wanted us to do was to do a certain number of push up.

The moment he said that, without thinking it through, I blurted "I don't want to. I can't do a single push up. I have never did a proper push up and I just can't."

When my master heard that, he told me straight that I can't because I have had that mindset in my mind all along.

And he made me do the number of push ups he wanted.

I did.

Now, I can do more than 30 easily.

I know that they are not perfect but hey, from zero to a few tens?

That's an achievement.

And I'm proud of myself.

& I want to thank my master for changing my mindset and the way I look at a challenge in front of me.

From that moment onwards, I looked at things and life differently.

Maybe we just need to see every thing in different views/perspectives.

Also, we have to start from deep within us.

Our subconscious, our mind, our thoughts, and our hearts.

If you feel that you are not capable of doing something.

There is no chance that you will succeed in it.

Even if you could, you wouldn't.

If you start thinking..

"Hey, it's not that hard.",

"It's worth a try.",

"Maybe I'll achieve something.",

"Who knows that I can do it?",

"How would I know if I can or can't do something without trying it out?"

"No pain, no gain right?"

If you can have these little questions and encouragement for yourself, you would see how great you are at things that you are new to.

We are growing every day, every hour, every minute and second.

Discovering our talents within us is not a surprise.

But before actually realizing what we have in us, we need to take that first step.

The truth is that people are just afraid to do things that they are unfamiliar with.

I don't lie, I am like that too.

Everyone of us are.

But sometimes we just need to get out of that shell and try something new.

By doing so, we would receive something so special inside that nothing can describe it.

Like Jenny said..

If he/she can do so, I can do so too.

Just want to share 2 verses that I really liked from today's session.

Job 3:25 For what I fear comes upon me, and what I dread befalls me.

Maybe we shouldn't fear for every little thing that comes our way.

Maybe we should be strong and face it and deal with it.

Also,

Matthew 6:22-23 The eye is the lamp of the body; so then if your eye is clear, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light that is in you is darkness, how great is the darkness.

Just wanted to share a little something.

And this is it.

I don't know if it makes sense to you, you or you.

I sincerely hope that it does, but if it doesn't..

I'll be glad to explain what I mean.

Have a blessed day everyone.

Goodnight and don't forget to pray.

God bless.

Xoxo.

Start your day with a smile and a heart filled with nothing but positive thoughts, love and warmth.

You'll find that you'll be happier and enjoying your day much much more.

Don't get off your bed with the wrong foot, wrong mindset, or negative thoughts in your head.

You wouldn't want to be sad, annoyed, pissed or anything throughout the day, do you?

I'm sure you don't want that.

These two days started just incredibly.

And I hope your day starts just as awesome as mine did.

For all you people out there who are already having a great day, good job to you.

But for the others, don't worry.

Try to make tomorrow a better day.

It will be a better day.

Have a wonderful and blessed day ahead of you lovelies.

Xoxo.

Hebron Pribadi....

HELLO!!

HAHAHA.

Goodnight.

:p

STEPHANIE TANUBRATAAAAAA.

Hello :)

Goodnight babe.

Hahahahahahahahaha.

A super duper quick post.

School, lunch, school, dinner, music practice.

5 items to summarize my day.

Didn't really wanted to go for music practice because I'm pretty worn out..

Since I woke up at 6ish in the morning..

But I went anyway.

And I got home at 1plus am.

Dudes and dudettes, I've officially turned into a panda.

Pat said something during the music practice.

And it made me realize two things:

I find myself doubting myself even though people tell me good things about me.

I find myself telling others that they are wrong and that I'm just the complete opposite of what they say of me.

Oh well, long story.

I might tell you if you ask me.

But I'll just not say it otherwise.

:p

Okay, time to sleep.

2am now.

Goodnight lovelies!

Xoxo.

I know and I don't deny the fact that I'm not the same as before.

For you, you may think that I've become more religious.

To me, it's just that I'm getting realizing and appreciating my relationship with God.

Christianity is just not a religion.

To every single Christians out there, or whoever it may be who believes in God, it is a relationship with Him.

I said in my prayer at Wilson's the other day.

Praying that He would watch over Wilson and his new place, ensuring that Wilson is coming home to an actual home and not a "rented place" because we know that He is there, and for the fact that He is our Father, it IS home.

I just want to say that I think that applies to everyone of us.

It doesn't matter where we are, we are always home.

Because we know for sure that God is always in our mind, heart and thoughts, allowing every single place we go to to have that little sense of home.

I really am starting to get used to being in LA.

I know sometimes I will feel homesick.

Missing Daddy, Mommy and ahboy.

Missing my relatives and friends.

And soon enough, I'll have to add my two sisters in "the people I miss" list.

I just want to thank Him for allowing me to get to know such great friends here.

There's no doubt that He placed me in these groups of friends with a plan in mind.

There's always a reason for everything.

And I trust in Him.

I trust in You, Father.

Maybe my change this time is not a bad thing.

I know that you might say I'm distancing myself from you or from others.

We'll prevent that from happening.

Let's make the effort to meet up once in a while.

You know that I wouldn't want to lose you as my friend.

Don't worry so much okay.

xx

Watched "You Again" earlier in the evening.

I cried a total of 3 times watching it.

I feel like I'm getting back to the old "crybaby" me.

Hahaha, nah, I hope not..

Anyway, that show is really good.

Everyone should catch it.

Even the guys.

No matter how chick-flick you think the movie is, you still have to watch it either way.

I even got to learn some things from it.

:)

Going to shower and do a little work before entering my dreamland.

Goodnight in advanced, lovelies.

Xoxo.

I feel like I've just disappointed a million people, including myself with my previous posts.

I'm sorry.

I know these might be the words of the Devil.

I just can't help it but to feel this way...

I don't want to feel left out at that "event" because of the fact that I know that I am certainly the only one who do not know the exact contents of The Bible and that I am the only one who is a "new" believer. I am, truthfully, scared to go because of that very fact that I stated above. I don't know what to do now.

Dilemma.

HELLOOOOOO.

:p

Just got home from studying :/

I need to sleep.

It's 1am, well in 5 minutes.

xx

Thinking if I should go ahead and do it.

But I just feel like I'm not worthy enough.

:(

Shall sleep on it.

Goodnight lovelies.

Xoxo.

Yesterday.

Church, was early for it for the first time.

Hahaha.

Somehow, I was freezing cold after sermon ended.

It was so odd because it wasn't that cold inside.

Eek.

Just wanted to say..

I don't know what was it, but I felt something in me when the whole church, including myself, was singing "MengenalMu".

There was this thing that I sense.

And somehow, singing that song, made me tear.

I teared, in church.

Every single time I feel what I felt at that time, I would tear.

And it seems like it's been happening a lot.

& most, or rather all of the time, it's during the time where the church or care group is just singing, praising and worshipping God.

I believe that it's just not something in me that's setting that feeling off.

I trust that it's something more than that.

Don't you?

xx

Went to Ord after that, I know I shouldn't have ordered the Crispy Pork because of my throat, but too bad hahaha.

I had it in the end.

Was contemplating on whether I should go for badminton last night, and when Ame told me she was going, I was like, okay I've a friend so I went.

Turns out she decided not to go because it was too far.

But it was fine.

I was a great time last night.

FINALLY knowing how to serve correctly :p

I felt like a hindrance throughout the set because I had to be taught about the rules and the way to hold the racket and stuff along the way.

I'm sorry :/

After the set, Alfred made me do some training.

Seriously.

Running front, back, left and right.

It was tiring, and I felt dizzy for a while.

You know, the kind of feeling that you have before you actually blackout or faint.

Hahaha.

But, it was fun overall.

I'm glad I went for badminton :)

They decided to eat after that, oh defeating the purpose of exercising..

And so we went to Jazzcat.

First time there and it was just okay to me.

The popcorn chicken is good though.

Came home at like 1..

And I went to bathe even though it is so ridiculously late.

I actually hairdry-ed my hair yesterday.

10 minutes spent on doing so and I gave up.

So I slept with my hair a little wet :p

At least I didn't sleep with it dripping wet right?

:D

Today.

HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT.

That kinda summarizes how everyone in LA feels today.

It's 37C at my place.

And 45C at the East.

:/

This is worse than Indonesia and Singapore.

Plus it's not humid here.

Can you imagine?

I guess not.

I got reminded of something last night.

For this year's Christmas and New Year's Eve and New Year...

I'll be all alone here.

:(

Parents and siblings are not coming over because daddy has to work and ahboy has remedials.

How sucky would that be.

I'm going to shower and drown myself in songs.

Xoxo.

Another first-time that I can check off my list.

Face was as red as a tomato I bet with you.

But.. It was good :)

I just want to wash up and jump on my bed (not literally) and just sleep for the next 8 hours, 15 minutes before waking up for Church :)

Goodnight lovelies.

Xoxo.