oh no.

i'm sorry that i didn't blog a long one today.

this is what happens when we have direct tv to record all of your shows.

and i'll be missing from my lovely space until the 2nd.

going to vegas tomorrow until the 1st.

new year's eve is tomorrow.

wow, i can't believe 2010 passed by so quickly.

2011 will be a better year for all of us, including you and myself.

i wanted to type something.

but i forgot 10 seconds after i had that thought.

wow, that's how bad my short term memory is.

oh oh, i remember now.

i wanted to say i've to wake up early morning tomorrow because...

i haven't pack my luggage.

and i'm leaving in max. 8 hours.

and i'm still waiting for my laundry to get done.

this is going to be a long yet short night for both my sister and myself.

shall continue watching my criminal minds.

fold the laundry when it's all done.

go to sleep.

wake up at 9am latest.

bathe and pack and off to vegas we all go.

hooray.

it's going to be an awesome new year's eve and new year.

surrounded with family (my sister) and friends.

awesomecakes.

can't wait.

it reminds me of new year's eve two years ago though.

spent it in vegas with my darling family.

i miss them so much.

i'll blog again in Jan 2, 2011.

see you all again lovelies.

have a blessed, crazy, fun, enjoyable new years eve and new year alright.

love ya'll.

xoxo.

clearing thoughts out of my head

goodnight lovelies.

i have a feeling i'll blog a long post or something tomorrow.

just to make up for the few days i was mia-ing.

xoxo.

我的嘴巴說不，可是我的心偷偷在笑著。

我告訴自己不，可是我的心在喊著是。

我讓自己想著不，可是我的心要的是相反的。

我告訴自己你不重要，可是我知道那是一個謊言。

我告訴自己我可以完成的某某事的，可是我知道那是一個謊言。

如果我真的是在說不，如果你真的不重要，

也許，

昨天在那一個時刻，今天在這一個時刻，

我不會感到很興奮，對吧？

我現在要帶著我開心的心情睡覺囉！

晚安！

preparing to spend bomb in the next couple of days.

a couple of hundred bucks on knives.

a couple of hundred bucks on cooking sets.

and probably some extra tools or gadget that i'll decide to get when i actually purchase the first two most important items..

oh oh.

did i tell you what i got for christmas from my sister?

a freaking red kitchenaid stand mixer with two other attachments for it.

it's so damn awesome.

i love you jie!

:O

that was a shocking thing to discover..

since christmas is over..

ive enjoyed the snow.

a late white christmas i guess.

snowboarded today.

only played thrice (not the bunny slope!) because my thighs were crying in pain.

well, it's 220am now so im going to wash up and sleep.

oh, also..

since christmas is over..

dieting time is here.

&

vegas, here i come (with a crowd) for new years eve!

So, the post that I thought was published is gone.

That sucks.

It was pretty long -___-

its so ironic how i always complain im fat but im always consuming something.

be it something healthy or even something that is not.

i just came back an hour or so ago from supper.

yes, supper.

that sucks.

12/23/10 - Christmas Celebration with some of the Church people at Pastor Ray's house.

12/24/10 - Christmas Dinner with Valen, Valine, Saiko, JessLo, Bella and my sister at Animal :)

12/25/10 - Christmas Dinner (Potluck!) at my place with Citra, Wilson, Julian, Alfred and my sister.

So exciting.

But this washes my dieting plan down the drain... Or not.

Gymming session needs to start again.......

(abrupt end)

Xoxo.

:(

i really am glad that i chose to enter le cordon bleu.

but is it something that i should have waited after i completed a bachelor for business?

dont get me wrong, i am not regretting my decision.

just thinking of the alternate outcome.

however i wouldnt want to waste years of my life doing something i hate.

thinking about it, i will be taking bachelors for hospitality and restaurant management after i complete my culinary or patisserie program.

and if i need to get a bachelor for business, then i would do it i guess.

since i would have an aa for business.

oh well, there you go olin, no time in your life to worry about things that shouldnt even be concerning you right now.

okie dokie.

toodles.

xoxo.

xoxo

No desserts and snacks for me from now until my birthday!!

I hope it'll go all right.

Except for Christmas dinners of course :)

What's a dinner without desserts right..

But oh well, time to be skinny for my birthday.

Though no plans on how I'll be celebrating it.

But being skinny is always something girls want to be right?

One of the delicious food in life,

one of those I-shouldn't-eat-it-but-it's-too-good-to-resist kind of food,

one of those it's-too-sinful-to-eat- kind of food,

one of those I'll-grow-fat-when-I-eat-it kind of food.

This is what I'm talking about.

Once you eat it, it's hard to stop once you eat one of it kind of food.

These food should be banished.

It's only job is to make all of us grow fatter.

Which is not good.

Okay.
I've decide that I'll start dieting after christmas!
Which will consist of:
1) no dessert after meal,
2) no rice, noodle, and bread after 6pm,
3) no snacking,

And I can't think of anymore :p

I just have to lose weight or rather diet until my birthday!
Oh, and when January comes, I'm going to start gymming at least twice a week.
At least.

Ok, even though I woke up late today, I'm already sleepy and I've to be up earlier than usual tomorrow because I need to:
1) buy my sister's christmas present,
2) buy flowers to give Pastor Ray,
3) collect photos from walgreens,
4) buy mba ya's christmas present,
5) collect the food for the dinner at Pastor Ray's,
6) buy gift for secret santa!

And the next day, I've to go out in the afternoon before dinner to get the ingredients for dinner on the 25th :)
It's so funny how people usually cook western food to celebrate Christmas but we're actually having Asian food!
I'm going to challenge myself to whip up hainanese chicken rice for the main course.
Hahahahahaha.

Okay, i'll blog more tomorrow.
Time to sleep after this show :)
Goodnight lovelies, xoxo.

Things to do:

1) Call LCB to change from Patisserie to Culinary instead,

2) Research on awesome brands of kitchenware for our new place in Indo,

3) Plan on how I want my room to be like,

4) Start exercising more,

5) Lose some freaking weight,

6) Start cooking and baking more and stuff people with those food so that they'll grow fat and I won't (HAHAHA).

And the list shall stop here because my brain just screamed for help.

It's shutting down!

Goodnight lovelies.

Xoxo.

So, my plan is to stop eating carbohydrates at night...

But how am I going to do so with dinner plans with my mom's friend tomorrow, Christmas dinner on the 23rd, 24th and the 25th?

This sucks -_-

Don't tell me I'm skinny now because I am so freaking obese ):

You want to see skinny?

This is skinny.

Ah.

Starving, dieting, exercising and everything until I'm skinny again ):

Last day of indulging shall be today.

Okiedokie, that's the plan.

Until my birthday.

With the exception of:

Christmas Eve, Christmas, New Years Eve and New Years.

Toodles.

Wilson Hasaaaaaan.

Hello!

*waves hand*

I need to be as skinny as my sister!

Not kidding.

Xoxo.

Need.

To.

Be.

As.

Skinny.

Pronto.

I am (_________________THIS_________________) fat.

I'm obsessed with my face being so screwed up..

I'm washing my face so many times a day.

I'm putting creams over creams.

And I always feel like putting masks on them.

Someone please kill me.

Since Aly said it's not worth killing over pimples..

Please kill me over pimples AND my obesity.

PS:

Laser my face means to get rid of my pimple scars Alybelly.

Hahaha.

Things I have already planned to do in Singapore the next time I go back:

1) Teeth whitening,

2) Get Invisalign,

3) Laser face and

4) Laser eye.

Teehee (:

Sudden break out of pimples all around my cheek area :(

I feel like killing myself right now.

Eek.

Skyped with Mommy for 2 hours.

It was so fun.

I really miss her ):

Back to black.

I will be officially free in 6 hours.

So, makeover #2 time is here.

1) Got a haircut last night.

2) Touching up my eyelashes later this evening.

3) Doing my eyebrows tomorrow morning.

4) Maybe I'll be dye-ing my hair tomorrow evening.

And maybe I'll get a mani-pedi tonight.

Ah, this is going to be fun :)

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即使倒帶時間也沒有甚麼意義了吧。

如果愛只是一種感覺，我要如何知道我愛你。
愛上一個人，心裡是鬱悶的。
愛上一個人，心裡也是甜蜜。
說不去的愛情。。。

This totally sucks.
I'm sick.
):

I need to crank up my brain no matter what for the upcoming finals!
Sigh.
Holiday, which is in 5 days, please come as soon as possible.

Til' then, I'm going to start resting more :(
Goodbye, xoxo.

Hello!!
Busy busy time.
Goodbyebyebye.

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support my lovelies okay lovelies :)

xoxo

there isn't much to say.

Maybe.
Just maybe.

It's true.

不知道我們幾時說了再見。

Sorry lovelies.

Internet is still not working.

Will blog once it's up and running.

Til' then, xoxo.

I didn't go to Church today ):

I woke up a couple of times before actually getting up.

And all of those times I woke up, whenever I turned my body, the whole room spun really badly.

I don't want to fall sick ):

And my whole body is aching from snowboarding.

Gah.

Something's wrong with my weibo ):

It's Aaron's birthday today!!

Or rather yesterday Asia time.

Happy Birthday!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Sorry, haven't touch my laptop for a couple of days now.

And I'm not going to for another couple of days.

Going to Big Bear in a couple of hours to snowboard :)

Oh, went to Lifehouse's concert yesterday.

It was awesome.

Except for the fact that I was feeling really sick.

I think I feel better now, yay.

Til then, goodbye!

Xoxo.

the best things about crying in the shower:

no one can hear you cry,

no one can see those tears rolling down your cheeks,

no one will ask questions,

you can just cry your heart out with all that you've got within you.

and you can actually spend some time under the running water sorting out your thoughts.

nothing is going right.

Okay, it's REALLY time to sleep.

5 hours of sleep left.

By the way, this is my 10th post for the day.

Yes, 10.

Some shouldn't be counted because it's only a sentence long or so.

But counting the number of post and not by it's length, it's ten.

I'm kinda obsessed with blogging today.

Hm, oh well.

Goodnight lovelies.

Xoxo.

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain, But Lust's effect is tempest after sun; Love's gentle spring doth always fresh remain Lust's winter comes ere summer half be done; Love surfeits not, Lust like a glutton dies, Love is all truth, Lust full of forged lies.

WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

What is Love?

Our favorite description of love is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

Okay, 3 weeks will end on the 29th of November.

I think I'll allow 30th November to be a day for me to indulge in all the food I feel like eating on that day.

And it'll be the start of dieting on the 1st of December.

Until Christmas Eve!

21 days of Fasting.

25 days of Dieting.

xx

I will try to ensure that it is a routine for me to read these following books everyday.

1) Worship book by Charlina,

2) Battlefield of The Mind by Jtiff, and last but not least,

3) The Bible.

Goodnight in advanced.

Last post for the night.

I think this is my 7th or 8th post for the day.

Goodnight lovelies.

Xoxo.

有可能嗎？

也許吧。。

Okay, it's after midnight.

I'm going to fast on:

1) Meat,

2) Rice, Noodle, Bread and,

3) Dairy.

That brings me to being able to eat only vegetables, fruits, fish and stuff like that.

No more Jasmine Milk Green Tea until 3 weeks pass by.

I believe that I can do this.

Will be praying for God to give me strength and will to overcome these 3 weeks.

Doing this for Thanksgiving and just wanting to have a closer, personal, intimate relationship with Him.

I honestly can't wait for Thanksgiving Retreat.

I just wonder what are the Pastors going to give us, in terms of God's Words.

It's going to be awesome.

You and I know that is the truth.

Would you entrust me with your heart?

(responding to my new picture)