1 August - 15 August = Singapore

1 Aug - Ramen (Tracy, Janet, Mitch)

2 Aug - Kbox, Inception (Aaron, Mitch)

3 Aug - Kaylie

4 Aug - Kbox (Shuhui, Jared)

5 Aug - MJR with Jia

6 Aug - Cooking, dinner and sleepover (Aaron, Mitch)

7 Aug - Haziqah, Verna

8 Aug - Class gathering?

9 Aug - Jia

10 Aug - Shuhui

11 Aug - Picnic (Aly, Mualz, Bing and friends) & Dinner (Aly, Mualz and Va)

12 Aug -

13 Aug -

14 Aug - Haziqah, Verna

8 days left!

I still have to meet up with Sujia, my two coolios, go to Universals, go around to hunt pretty places, spend time with my family too!

I think I'll spare 2-3 days to spend with my family.

So technically, I've 5 days left only.

:/

Damn.

2 weeks in Singapore is certainly too short.

15 August - 17 August = Bali

15 Aug - Fly to Bali

16 Aug - Bali

17 Aug - Fly to Jakarta

17 August - 24 August = Jakarta

17 August -

18 August -

19 August -

20 August -

21 August -

22 August -

23 August -

24 August -

Have to meet my gramps, visit my relatives, meet up with Jenny and gang in Indo, Halam, Eva&Nova!

25 August = Singapore

(Shall not go out on this day, I need to spend time with my family :D)

26 August = Back to LA

(Early morning flight.. Boohoo..)

This holiday is too short :(

I'm back in the sunny, hot and humid Singapore!!

No jetlag so I'm happy :D

Lunch with Mitch Tracy and Janet later.

Yay xoxo.

Just cooked fried rice :)

I mean, 30 minutes ago.

I'm done eating.

Bathed and packed my whole lot of toiletries and dumped them in my luggages.

I'm almost done.

Left with my iPod, headphone and laptop and laptop charger to pack in my onboard luggage.

Woopee :D

Okiedokie, I've got to go to get Mommy's vitamins in 30 minutes.

So, I'll see you guys in Singapore!

Time pass too quickly!!

Hehe, yay.

Byebyebye.

Oh hello!

Let me start by blogging on my entire day.

Woke up at 1030am.

Jumped out of bed, thinking that I was late for school.

Then I went to the restroom, looked at my phone..

And I saw that my alarm was set for 1050am.

Then I realized that I wasn't late because my class only starts at 1230pm.

For a moment my head was processing that I had to wake up at 950am instead of 1050am.

Hahaha, I'm a goof at times.

So, Chuang didn't wake up to send me to school.

So I drove to school.

Had to park where they had the parking meter as I didn't have the decal.

And I took about 5 minutes to find a parking spot.

Test was easy because I had past paper anyway.

I took like 20 minutes to complete the 50 MCQ questions.

Then I drove back home.

My sister was shocked to see me back home.

She was like where did you go?

And was shocked when I said I went to school because I was only gone for less than an hour!

Hehehe.

Then I was hungry and Aly was craving for crepes..

So we went to KC Boba.

YAY, boba cravings satisfied :)

I was telling her that I have to drink a cup of boba before I leave tomorrow :)

I still feel like drinking the one from Cha House though.

Yummeh.

Went home to pack my luggages.

Yes, luggages.

I am bring back 2 huge ass luggages when I'm only going back for like 25 days-ish.

1 and a half of these 2 luggages are not my stuff, believe it or not.

I have a million and one things to bring back for people.

And it sucks.

But oh well, I'll be nice and bring them back for them :)

Packed all of my stuff except my toiletries.

And vitamins that my mom wants because we have to buy them tomorrow morning.

My sister forgot about them earlier today.

I'm damn f fat now.

I ate dinner with jie.

We went to Ralphs to get instant food (for herself) and toiletries.

She decided to get a pack of Rotisserie Chicken for dinner.

We did, and I ate.

I ATE DINNER.

Omgosh, I haven't had dinner for so long.

I feel so bad eating :(

I'm not even kidding.

I'm f obese now.

I went to bathe after eating and brushed my teeth.

I drank 1.5L of my laxative tea again.

It's my daily routine.

Speaking about that, I have to remember to place my Lax tea in my luggage.

:D

Anyway, Aly is leaving in 3 hours :(

Boohoo.

I can't wait to leave in like 15 hours and 45 minutes.

I WANNA BE BACK IN SINGAPORE.

I can't wait to go Bali.

AND Jakarta!!

So excited.

I'll miss LA though.

I'll miss my jie :(

But I'll meet my other jie and my brother in Singapore.

And I can't wait to meet my Mommy and Daddy!!

Also, my cousin who will be in Singapore the entire time I'm back too :)

I miss everyone so so much.

Sigh.

I'll blog again later or tomorrow before I leave.

I need to repack my luggage, just because I've OCD in this case.

I have a case of OCD when it comes to packing and eating.

Aly will agree with me.

And I need to weigh them to make sure that they are not over 23kg.

Byebyebye.

Lovelove.

:)

HELLO, I'm almost done with my essay.

Kinda :/

I am on a love/hate relationship with my laxative tea.

It just made me poop the 3rd time in uh, 8 hours?

I think less than that.

Okiedokie, back to Criminal Minds and essay.

Shall sleep by 2am!

Lol.

And wake up by 11am.

Hey, that's 9 hours of sleep.

That's not that bad :D

Right...

So my midnight bedtime plan won't happen.

It's 10pm and I'm only halfway through my assignment.

There's 2 essays to be done.

One's down.

But the other one is such a pain in the ass.

I've to read a 10-20 pages of excerpt before writing it.

And my brain is so dead right now that I take forever to process a paragraph of words.

Geez.

On the bright side, I just realized I don't have to wake up at 9am tomorrow.

:)

On the dark side again, I am fucking nervous and worried about my Music 32 grade.

Fuck the 50 MCQ questions just now.

Gah.

I don't like doing the laundry because I have to be in contact with the detergent..

SPEAKING ABOUT THAT.

I just scolded myself in my head because I forgot to put my Taekwondo clothes in the washer.

Grrrr.

Guess I'll have to do it when I return from Singapore.

Going back to what I want to blog about..

Yes, doing laundry is damn easy.

Dump the clothes and everything else into the washer.

& transfer them to the dryer when it's done.

And just simply take them out.

Yeah, it's easy if you don't have sensitive skin.

(No, my skin is not super duper sensitive, but it kinda is at times.)

My hands tend to get really itchy after pouring the detergent into the washer.

Geez.

All the time..

Okay, change topic time.

Oh oh, I just consumed 1L of tea.

Yeap, and I just poured another 500ml of hot water into my bottle with my teabag in it.

I'm literally perspiring because of that.

This snack right here, is too addictive to be true.

I'm so full and bloated from munching on the Pita Chips and M&Ms and my tea.

They're my dinner by the way :)

And it's only 630pm.

I'm going to take a shower nowwww.

Then I'm going to finish my essay that's due tomorrow.

Can't believe that tomorrow's the last final day of school.

And that I'm leaving in 2 days!

Actually, 1 day and 20 hours :p

Speaking about that, I haven't pack my luggage yet.

So far, my luggage is half-filled with my clothes and Alyssa's shopping.

The things that I have to bring for people back to Singapore/Indonesia is still all over the dining area.

- A box of vitamins

- 3 Coach bags

- Tracy's Mac N Cheese, Brenda's earpiece

- Alyssa's heels

- Mom's Hermes box

- Grandma's bag,

and finally something that Hebron wants me to bring back.

I THINK that's it.

I'm not very sure.

The thing that I am sure is that I need to take another huge ass luggage from the storage room downstairs..

I feel like I'm packing for a long trip when I'm only going back for 3 weeks.

:/

I need my clothes to hurry up wash & dry themselves in the machines because I want to pack pack pack.

I'm going to wear clothes that I don't want to bring back tomorrow XD

Good plan eh?

Thank you thank you.

*takes a bow*

Okiedokie.

I'm going take a shower, do homework, pack a little, study a little and sleep by midnight today.

Lack of sleep yesterday got me feeling all cranky and feeling tired and exhausted all the time.

I want to go to a shooting range XD

I'm so fucking screwed for my Music 32 class.

50 questions MCQ - total failure.

16 questions for the listening test was awesome though.

I think I could score a hundred percent for that one.

And he gave us 2 extra credit questions too.

And I gave him extra credit work too, so hopefully it'll pull my grades up.

Sigh.

Fuck this shit.

Last lecture for Comm10 class now.

Finals tomorrow.

Not that crazy worried because I have past papers so it's good.

:)

I'm so sleepy that I can't even relate to whatever she's talking about and my eyes can't really open.

I need a nap once I get home.

Before I start on my essay.

Hm...

I shall stop now.

Ciao.

My brain needs to stop thinking about ridiculous things.

1 August - 15 August = Singapore

1 Aug - Ramen (Tracy, Janet, Mitch)

2 Aug - Kbox, Inception (Aaron, Mitch)

3 Aug - Kaylie

4 Aug - Kbox (Shuhui, Jared)

5 Aug -

6 Aug - Cooking, dinner and sleepover (Aaron, Mitch)

7 Aug - Haziqah, Verna

8 Aug -

9 Aug -

10 Aug - Shuhui

11 Aug - Picnic (Aly, Mualz, Bing and friends) & Dinner (Aly, Mualz and Va)

12 Aug -

13 Aug -

14 Aug - Haziqah, Verna

8 days left!

I still have to meet up with Sujia, my two coolios, go to Universals, go around to hunt pretty places, spend time with my family too!

I think I'll spare 2-3 days to spend with my family.

So technically, I've 5 days left only.

:/

Damn.

2 weeks in Singapore is certainly too short.

15 August - 17 August = Bali

15 Aug - Fly to Bali

16 Aug - Bali

17 Aug - Fly to Jakarta

17 August - 24 August = Jakarta

17 August -

18 August -

19 August -

20 August -

21 August -

22 August -

23 August -

24 August -

Have to meet my gramps, visit my relatives, meet up with Jenny and gang in Indo, Halam, Eva&Nova!

25 August = Singapore

(Shall not go out on this day, I need to spend time with my family :D)

26 August = Back to LA

(Early morning flight.. Boohoo..)

This holiday is too short :(

So, after school and lunch at home.

I decided to run my errands after all.

Was contemplating on whether I should go today.

But I figured there's no other time for me to do so again.

Because tomorrow, I've to study for my Music 32 finals on Wednesday.

And on Wednesday, I've to finish up my essay and study for Comm 10's finals.

Went to Best Buy to buy Brenda's earphones.

But can't find the red color one.

So I only got her the purple one.

Headed off to Target to buy Tracy her Spongebob MacN'Cheese after that.

And now I'm back home!

:)

I think I'm going to bathe, do some school stuff, rot around the living room, and head to bed.

The story and life of a loner.

Byebyebye.

Fine dining on Saturday night.

The people who made my Saturday night to be a great one:

Xoxo.

Thinking about my future and I'm scared that I can't enter USC. Omg, I hate myself for not studying hard. If I can't go in USC, I'll commit suicide :< Other than USC, the only school that I can think of is LMU. Sigh. I'm dying just by thinking about this.

Unappreciated and used.

Feeling like this since the moment I stepped out of my restroom after my shower.

So bored.

I wanna die right now.

I wish to be out to just chill.

:(

Taekwondo Testing went finely.

Halfway during the testing, they actually asked me if I want to do a re-test because my left thigh was giving me problem that day.

But I told them that it was fine.

It was nothing wrong.

When I was doing the basic forms 1 and 2, I actually felt like falling whenever I turn because my thigh would hurt like crazy.

Geez.

I'm getting old.

Overall, it was fine.

They didn't do the oral testing though.

After the testing ended, well, we all changed and prepared to go Ktown to eat lunch.

Decided to carpool and was shocked that my instructor said they were going in my car.

I thought we were going in theirs.

Well, then I told him to drive because it will give me immense pressure driving them.

:/

Lunch was pretty good.

I really like the meat with soup thingy.

Much better for me, comparing to Kbbq.

No smell and stuff.

:)

And it was better for the current condition of my throat!

Went back to the Tkd place because my instructor and his fiance got to take his car.

Sent Mualz home after that.

Didn't do anything at home.

Spent quite some time preparing for dinner.

And didn't leave until they told me to, because they didn't want me to be early.

Hahah, which was good because if I left at the time I wanted to, I would definitely be there before them.

Dinner was really good.

Long waiting time because we didn't order appetizers, I really wanted to try them though.

Next time!

I ordered the duck and boy was it good.

Luvvvv it.

I had the chocolate ganache thing for dessert.

It was pretty decent but got quite sick of chocolate after that.

Wanted to go Urth Caffe after that but everyone was pretty full and hence cancelled that plan.

It was getting close to midnight anyway.

By the time we get there, they would be closed.

Oh well.

Aly asked me to go to Church today.

I woke up to bbm her that I was sleepy while my sister was taking her own sweet time in the restroom.

And I fell back asleep after that :/

Turns out she didn't go to Church as well. (Aly I mean)

I went to the living room to watch tv and play my laptop for a bit, and I decided to sleep on my sofa cause I was still pretty tired.

Slept for 2 hours-ish.

Aly called me a pig.

Thanks.

Now I've two nicknames from her.

Jerko and pig.

Hahahahaha.

5 more days until my flight.

Not prepared for my finals.

Not prepared for my flight.

Woohoo.

3 cheers for me.

I'm going to spend the rest of my day studying.

Or rather listening to my two CDs to memorize the songs for my class.

And start typing my essay.

I'll start packing on..... whenever I guess.

:)

My day started at 12pm when I woke up.

Where I went to the restroom..

Living room..

And slept again.

And now I'm in the restroom again.

I'm such a lazy person.

Okiedokie, shower and homework time.

OH.

I AM SO PISSED THAT TWO PIMPLES SUDDENLY APPEARED.

Fuck.

I want to laser my skin so badly.

And go for treatment.

Fuck this shit.

Byebye now :)

Xoxo.

You spin me right round, baby right round....

Yes, headache is back to haunt me.

8 hours of sleep left.

Gonna turn in soon.

Goodnight babehszx.

I really seriously shopped so much today.

Not even gonna say how much I spent :/

But it's good.

I haven't shop this much since... never actually.

Anyway, I was checking through my bank account and realize the restaurant that I ate yesterday actually charged me twice.

& the weird thing was that they charged me different prices.

My meal was $23 and they charged me an extra $40.

Just called my bank and they said one it's done processing, I should call them again and they're going to get the claim for me.

BOFA ftw!

Oh well.

Going to sleep soon because tomorrow morning is my Tkd testing.

PURPLE BELT HERE I COME.

Okiedokie, lunch with my masters and seniors after that.

Fine dining at night after that :)

Quite excited for all 3 events.

Woohoo.

This weekend is a good one.

Just wait until Sunday.

We'll all feel like shit because the next day is Monday.

Which means Finals week is here.

F OUR Life.

Goodnight in advanced :)

Good dinner with Halam.

Loved the company and time.

:)

Shopping and movies tomorrow.

Going to sleep soon, so goodnight lovelies.

I feel so fat that I want to stay at Tkd all day long and not go for dinner.

I guess I'll just go and eat little.

Then when I'm full I shall just pour water on my food.

So that I'll feel disgusted and not eat anything else anymore.

:/

Hopefully they won't put food on my plate.

I'm so full full full.

:(

I ate so little just now.

It was my breakfast+lunch.

Yay.

Keep this up Olin!

:D

DIANA IS HERE.

DIANA IS HERE.

DIANA IS HERE.

DIANA IS HERE.

DIANA IS HERE.

No..

It's not a girl that I know of who's called Diana who came to LA to look for me.

It's not a friend who I just made..

It's it's it's...

*DRUMROLLLLLL*

MY CAMERAAAAAAAAAAA:

It came within a week!

I was still nervous and worried that it wouldn't make it in time.

WOOHOO.

Now, I've my...

DSLR, Polaroid, Blackbird Fly and Diana.

Next up on my list is to get a smaller but good digital camera :)

I wanted to get fisheye but hey, I can just "borrow" my sister's.

XD

Okay, tkd soon!

Byebyebye.

Weekend Plan

Tonight:

Taekwondo session.

Dinner at Bossa Nova (Brazilian Cuisine) with Halam and gang.

Tomorrow:

Shopping with Aly at 3rd Street.

Watching 2 movies (Salt and Inception) with the rest of the gang.

Saturday:

Taekwondo Testing in the morning.

Lunch with the Taekwondo people and,

Dinner at Ortolan (French Cuisine) with Jenny and gang.

Geez.

Just got invited to two dinners within 10 minutes :)

One for tonight and one for Saturday night.

I'm already deciding on what to wear for Saturday's dinner because it's going to be fine dining :)

But it's French, so the food portions wouldn't be too huge.

Lax. tea is working.

I want to go home to poop my intestines out.

EW EW EW.

Gross.

I want to clear my bowels.

I think Aly is crazy.

She diet until she faint okay.

Not funny.

This is why people, I quit that stupid diet after the first day.

Class ending soon.

Yay.

Byebye.

Done with essays.

Almost 2am.

I wanted to write another essay for extra credit.

But sorry ya'll.

I'll have to do that during the weekend.

I'll have 2 days for Music 32 and 3 days for Comm 10 before Finals anyway.

I can't believe how fast time is passing by.

Knowing that I'm leaving in 8 days...

The feeling is so surreal.

Okay, I need to sleep now.

I'm suffering from a really REALLY bad headache.

Lack of sleep...

:(

Boohoo.

Goodnight.

Xoxo.

Maybe things are not as bad as I thought.

This applies to the front part of my ranting only though.

Everything before the skinny part.

Skinny part, everything still holds.

Wishing that everything would be right once again.

I hope that I have no more school and that I can coop myself in my room with nothing but my laptop and blackberry. I need someone to assure me that things would be better than its current state. I need to know that it's not be being over-sensitive. I am trying my best. You know I am. I am just so overwhelmed with all that are going on and I don't know how to react in the proper way. I can't be myself at all, I feel so insecure. I am surrounded with people who I can call family and friends, but why do I feel so alone? I don't know how to be a person that everyone would like more. I am me and that's the fact that you can't change. I need a book to tell me how to be a perfect person. I don't have the ability to be a different person to each individual. I care too much for people, as some have told me before. I am afraid to lose people around me. I will just be so devastated if something like that happened. I need to be skinny. I am fat, obese and just fill this space with any other synonyms. I want to lose weight for many different reasons. I don't want to be looked by others to be someone who is not pretty. I don't wish to be seen differently by the people who I am close with. I don't want to hear people saying I am not skinny anymore. I am sick of hearing all of these things. I am a human being. I have feelings too. I am no longer the little innocent one year old girl who doesn't care about things that she hear from others. I have grown to be a little young adult and I will get hurt when I hear people saying I am heavy, fat and big-sized. I wish I was skinnier too. I don't want to hear from my relatives that I grew fatter, when I didn't. I don't wish to hear from them that I am fat. That is what hurt me the most. I just want to be seen as a normal-sized girl. I hate hearing that my clothes are big, so what if they are? I like big clothes because it covers my fats. I don't need to hear that from you. I don't need you to tell me that it is impossible for me to lose weight. I just don't really go on diet whenever I say I do. I can lose the weight that I want if I really want to do so. I lost weight since the first time I came here. I can lose any weight I want. I am here to tell you and to prove to you that I can do it. I am admitting that I cannot lose much from now until the day I return. I will, however, show you that I have lost some weight. I will show you again that I can definitely, undoubtedly do it the following time that I go back. I will keep my words and show you that I can do it. I am not afraid to publicly say that I will lose the weight that I am saying I will because that is how I work. I am sincere and truthful and I will not break any promises that I make - it doesn't matter if I'm making this promise to my own blog, to my readers, to my relatives, to my friends or to anyone for that matter of fact. I just wish to be me after that again.

This is the reason why I want to be anorexic so bad.

I hate the pressure that I am getting.

過度敏感

買一送一

我希望我將會跟某某人在一起。

不是你們想像中的那個人啦。

這是我每天向上天許願的事。

你們都不知道我在指誰，所以呢，你們不要亂講哦！

希望我有一天可以再遇見你，可以和你相遇，可以真正的認識你這個超神祕的人。

好了！

我也該洗澡了。

等一下我會回來的啦。

再見咯！

你知道嗎，其實我想瘦幾公斤的原因是因為你耶。

如果你不知道也沒關係啦。

我對你來說是不那麼的重要吧？

可是我就是傻傻的還繼續的喜歡你。

但是，你不用擔心，我告訴了自己，我會慢慢的忘記你。

因為這是對我們彼此最優的方法。

就這樣了，拜拜。

I wanna bake a cake that's designed to look like...

1) A Chanel bag,

2) A LV bag,

3) A Female/Girl cake,

4) Heels?

Omg I want to bake pretty things :(

Baby steps :)

People who seem pretty may not naturally look that way.

Evidence?

Here you go.

This is how I feel now.

Except that I don't have a burger and soda in my hands.

And that I'm hungry.

I just feel like I'm her size now :(

I still think I'm fat though :(

*inserts bad words*

Clueless on why I entered "Anorexia" in my search box.

And clicked the word 'Image' afterwards.

I regret doing so.

I really do.

I don't know why I said I want to be anorexic before.

It kills my heart seeing those anorexic photos.

Skinny = Pretty.

Sometimes that's the fact, it's not about showing others.

Sometimes it's just because you feel better about yourself being skinny.

But, it's not entirely true.

Don't get me wrong.

If skinny is pretty all the time, it means that a lot of people are ugly in this world.

And it's not the fact.

If you think skinny is pretty all the time, do what I did.

Search on people who are anorexic and look at them.

Then think about it again.

Do you really want to be like that?

People who are anorexic see themselves like this in the mirror:

And what they eat is:

I've got to hand it to them.

It takes a lot of will power to actually stay anorexic.

Imagine living without food.

I think I'll die.

Perhaps this is the reason why I can never be anorexic.

A part of me is actually glad that I can never be one.

I wouldn't want to.

Not after seeing the pictures..

I'm definitely, undoubtedly scarred for life.

My classroom stinks. 3 people are eating different food now. Ew. My sensitive nose is dying.

EH done with news.

Ended so abruptly.

I'm watching America's Got Talent now because my sister is watching that.

My throat is itching like crazy.

Hence, I'm coughing non-stop.

So annoying.

But I'm eating Pi Pa Gao three times a day.

So I'm happy.

I love Pi Pa Gao.

It's like candy to me.

I think when I'm eating it, I forgot that it some medicine thingys inside it.

Whatever.

As long as the taste covers every bad flavor from the medicinal stuff, it's good.

I'm good.

I shall prepare myself to sleep now.

Takes me a long time.

You know why?

I'll rot a bit more and continue watching AGT.

And then I'll finally force my ass off the carpet and walk to the toilet.

Where I'll probably spend some time trying to shit -_-

Then I have to brush my teeth.

Remove my contacts.

Then I've my facial cream, eye cream and pimple cream.

And finally my body lotion.

:)

Okiedokie.

Goodnight ya'll.

I blogged too much today.

Xoxo.

Watching the news is such a torturous thing to do for me.

I'm dying.

I've been watching it for 30 minutes.

It's so boring but I just learnt about news that I never heard of.

Like like, oh well.

I'm too lazy to type now :)

Apparently February 6th is going to be California's new holiday.

Mark your calendars people.

Would it even make a difference?

Well, it would if you're taking Winter classes.

Otherwise, nah.

5 minutes until the end of this broadcast.

No more news for me please.

No thank you :)

Tomorrow night is essay writing since I got my points down now and I really want to sleep soon.

Goodnight in advanced :)

Xoxo.

Can you believe that Caroline Febrianty, yes me, is watching the news now?!

Stupid Essay -__-

Byebye!!

I want to visit Borobudur.

I shall do that the next time I go back to Indonesia.

Not this August though.

Need to visit the pretty places in my own country first :)

Yep, I'll definitely be at least 50kg before I go back.

Hey, not my planned/ideal weight.

But at least that's a step.

Baby steps :)

The next time I go back, no idea when.

Either December, which I doubt I will...

Or next July again...

I will be closer to my goal: 43kg.

You'll see.

Want to make these too:

Droooollllllszxszxs.

Hopefully the four or five of us will meet in Singapore :)

Like Aly, Chuang and I have planned!

And lunch or dinner will be cooked and prepared by yours truly.

Dessert shall be either this:

Molten Lava Cake which I made during CNY last year.

Or the Crepe Cake in the previous post :)

Yummy.

Going to make this one day.

Soon :)

Can't waitttttt.

I think I'm not going to continue this diet.

But resume my old one.

I'll eat one meal a day and drink my laxative tea.

That'll definitely work out better for me and my weak immune system & body.

:/

Taekwondo testing this Saturday!

Purple belt, here I come!

I'm not going to recycle the Purple one when we go up to Orange belt.

I'm sorry, but I'm in love with Purple.

:D

It's funny how I feel fatter and heavier and uglier while doing this diet.

Compared to last week when it was Subway diet.

:/

Which month were you born?

JANUARY=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them MFE.
FEBRUARY=THUG
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Resend this in 5 min. and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

MARCH=GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy!!. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others . Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt!and quiet the charmer. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of the other 11 months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.likes to keep theyre crushes kinda secret.pretty much flawless If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.
APRIL=SEXY
Suave and compromising.. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic.. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize at you are very much alike in the next 2 days.
MAY=LOVER
Hella sexy, loves sex n making luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!! Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. if you do not repost this in the next 5 mins. someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.
JUNE =FINEASS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 day
JULY=GANGSTA
You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with a JUNE brithday. It is also more likely than that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.
AUGUST=ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. self control. kind hearted. Self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious.. independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.
SEPTEMBER=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will kiss the one that you been wanting…
OCTOBER=HOTTIE
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.
NOVEMBER=SWEETIE
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck.. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.
DECEMBER=BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

500ml of water + salt = fucking salty and untasty drink.

Almost made me puke while driving.

I'm going to bathe no.

And I better blow-dry my hair tonight.

Don't need to fall even sicker.

:/

10 days til my flight!!!

Day 1 out of 10 of the MC diet.

Check.

Feeling sick - Check.

A really bad sore throat - Check.

Fever - Check.

Cough - Check.

Major headache - Check.

Feeling cold all the time - Check.

Cancel diet - Check.

Not going to risk myself falling sick just to lost weight prior to going back to Asia.

I was motivated, not as crazy as Aly though.

But now, I'm sorry.

I just can't do it.

As much as I would like to.

I told Aly I was going to start this when I feel better.

But I still tried to chug a whole mug of my Laxative tea down my throat.

Bad decision.

Almost puked.

Literally.

I banged my cup against my table and had to cover my mouth because I almost gagged and spit the whole tea that I had in my mouth.

I actually find the tea okay.

But now, I can't even stand the smell of it.

I'm really dying.

I'm going to sleep soon.

At 11pm.

I need to sleep.

I need more blankie.

I'm freezing.

I rather not diet, eat a little and still lose a lil weight rather than going ahead with this diet and fall really sick.

I need to be healthy before I go back.

Which is in 11 days.

Yay.

Goodnight.

I'm coughing so badly :(

My throat's so dry and painful.

Xoxo.

SWF... Starting in 2 minutes.

I need to sleep soon.

I'm dying of tiredness.

Shall sleep by 11pm tonight :)

Just made a bottle of the mixture.

2 cups worth.

Need to finish it in 1 hour and 15 minutes :)

Another 3 cups after Taekwondo..

Also, SWF!

The things we do to diet, Aly...

First cup of my tastes-super-awful diet drink.

I'm dead.

Just bought my Diana camera :)

While I'm in class.

HAHA.

I rock way more than you.

Diana with Flash and 10 rolls of films for about a hundred bucks.

Quite worth it I believe :)

Now, I've 4 cameras with me.

Can't wait to add more to my collection.

I will so have a big bag with me every time I go out now.

Heh.

Bali bali bali!

Hahaha, damn fun.

Aly was slacking and bumming out at Chuang's.

And I went over too.

(Mind you, I stay 4 miles away!!)

Then after we slacked a bit, Chuang was about to leave for dinner.

Then he asked if we wanted food.

Then I'm like, might as well we go with you since we're doing nothing!

So we went.

And that was 9pm.

HAHAHA.

Last day of consuming food for the three of us!

:)

Hehe.

Okay, then we went to Ralphs to get the ingredients for our diet.

It's 1220am now.

I need to change and sleep.

Goodnight!!

Xoxoxo.

I think I just found a brand of sunglasses that I really love.

Marc by Marc Jacobs

♥

I AM IN LOVE.

Someone get it for me please? :(

It's Marc by Marc Jacobs and costs US$98.

I shall ask Mommy..

I've never loved a sunglasses like I love this one before.

Aw mannnnn..

Woohoo, today was fun.

Random "let's go hunt the Grilled Cheese Truck day".

But I took a long time to prepare because I had to change, wear my contacts, apply sunblock of my face and body...

Put on my basic make up - concealor, powder and blush.

So by the time we found the truck (we couldn't find it and search for it for 5 minutes), it was closed...

I'm so sorry!

:/

We had In N Out in the end, slacked and ate it at my house.

Because I don't like sitting at In N Out to eat.

You'll become smelly..

We watched Spongebob while eating.

And the episode that we started watching at first was pretty gross..

Hahaha.

Then Hannah came.

She lost her way at my complex.

She couldn't figure out which condo was mine.

My complex have four condos by the way.

We went up to my house and chilled for 10 minutes.

Then we left.

Caught up with Hannah :)

We went to Cenci, and I shopped at Zara.

Haven't entered Zara since forever.

And I'm not even exaggerating on that.

Then.. I went to change my underwears at Victoria's Secret.

I'm glad they allowed me to exchange even though I lost my receipt :/

After that, we walked around and we left after realizing that we have walked around the whole Cenci.

We went to Beverly Center..

Went to Bath & Body Works.

And we realized...

Shops were closing.

ALL of them.

And it was only 8pm!

:O

I hate Saturdays and Sundays here.

Malls close really early.

Then we went to buy McDonalds because Hannah was hungry and the rest were late for dinner.

We went for drive-thru and went to Archstone to slack at Chuang's house where Aly and him were playing games and watching tv.

Then then, we left for Furaibo.

I'm so fat.

Today's diet faillllleddd.

Then they decided to go play billiard.

They taught me how to hold the stick.

But I didn't really want to play cause I didn't want to embarrass myself.

Hahaha.

Next time.

Okay, now I'm home, ready to sleep soon!

I'm summarizing my last part of the day really quickly because I'm really tired.

But I thought that I should blog a little :)

Okiedokie, tomorrow..

I'm not going to Church because it's already 230am.

And I just got home.

And I've to wake up at 10am in order to go to Church.

& I've 2 essays to complete tomorrow.

But I feel really bad.

So I'll try my best to go to Church.

Okiedokie.

Goodnight.

Xoxo.

A short post for today.

Went for Boba and sat at Cha House for 3plus hours.

Drink, eat and play cards.

Our lives are getting so boring -__-

After that, we wanted to catch the midnight show for Inception.

But it was full.

So we were looking at all of the other movies.

Wanted Eclipse but I haven't watch New Moon yet..

So they're waiting for me to watch NM then we'll watch E.

We caught Knight and Day instead.

It's quite retarded.

But very entertaining since it keeps making us laugh.

Okay, I'm going to sleep soon.

I'm going to change and surf the net a little.

Xoxo.

14th July 2010.

The day Caroline Febrianty died within her.

Guilt eating every tiny piece of her.

What's left of her is just waiting to decompose fully.

Fuck.

I need to bathe and prepare and leave the house in.... 25 minutes.

Byebyebyebyebye.

I'm damn fat.

But I'm hungry -_-

The things that I consumed today are...

Granola, a few raisins and almonds.

I rock.

Yet I suck too.

Okay, I'll be late if I don't bathe now.

Ciao!

Xoxo.

不可能有人不把他當成偶像吧！

那麼有帥氣耶！

不管你喜不喜歡他，我是會永遠的喜歡他，也會永遠的支持他！

炎亞綸，不管你遇到甚麼困難，你一定要堅持下去！

別因為它而倒哦！

：）

想念

愛

希望

夢

願望

你們都看不懂我在寫甚麼吧。

這是我小小的秘密。

：）

For a moment, I forgot tomorrow's Friday.

TGIF.

Weekend's here.

Dinner tonight, movie tomorrow night.

I'm quite excited.

Especially for Inception.

The rating is just woah.

9.5/10!?

That's one of the best movies ever.

No one should miss this one!

Tweeted about this last night.

So, my sister was hungry in the middle of the night.

And she decided to make herself some MacNCheese.

The easy, and ready in a couple of minutes one of course.

Anyway, I found some pictures online for you.

Now you HAVE to agree with me that it's so cute!

Looks like any other Mac N Cheese, doesn't it?

Wrong!

Let me tell you what's the shape of the pasta...

Wait for it...

Wait for it...

Wait for it...

TADAH!

If you can't tell...

It's obviously Spongebob, Squidward, Gary and Patrick!

HOW ADORABLE IS THAT.

A close up of my two favorite characters (who are the main people anyway) :)

Spongebob and Patrick!

& lastly, the main character in the show that I still love to watch...

Spongebob Squarepants!

Hehe.

So, since 630am, I think I woke up 3-4 times.

And I gave up and got up at 850am.

I'm so tired yet my body kept telling me to wake up.

Man, I lack of sleep and my body don't allow me to sleep in just for another 10 minutes or something.

-_-

Prepare for school nownownow.

Goodbye.

Xoxo.

I SHALL BE VEGETARIAN UNTIL I GO BACK HAHAHAHAHA.

Let's see if this works out :)

Starting on Friday!!

HAHAHAHAHA.

DONE WITH ESSAY AND LETTER.

I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW.

HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay, time to sleep soon..

Lack of sleep recently -__-

Goodnight in advanced lovelies.

Xoxo!

Can you believe I took such a long time to write a less-than-one-page letter?!

You would if I told you who I was writing it to...

I was writing a passionate letter to a guy that I have never met.

That I have never talked to.

That I have just heard of..

Hahahahahaha.

No it's not some random dude that I saw in school, along the street, by the beach or something like that.

It's for a 19th-century composer.

Wtf right?

HAHAHAHA.

My extra credit for my Music 32 class.

It can't get any more retarded than that.

Because of that and my other essay that I needed to complete...

I COULD NOT GO TO THE GYM.

I'm not even done with them yet and it's almost 11.

I was already in my gymming attire so that sucks..

Tomorrow :)

Before Taekwondo I'll go..

Since there's no school the following day.

Yay.

And I'll stay in there for at least an hour, regardless of how my body starts telling me to stop.

I shall not care about my right leg that hurts a bit right now.

I need to lose weight.

Okay, bathing time.

Then continue with essay time..

Xoxo.

Can't wait to go Bali.

Can't wait to go Bali.

Can't wait to go Bali.

Can't wait to go Bali.

Can't wait to go Bali.

Apparently this Chapel that I've seen a million times is at the Conrad!

Where we would be staying, most probably.

YES!

I can finally see this Chapel.

HOW CAN I NOT BE EXCITED?!