So, remember how everyone asked me why I didn't want to place a tagboard in my blog?
As you can see, reason number one is how annoying it is when people spam your blog.
Even if it's your own brother, in this case.
This just makes me feel all irritated and ultimately, too lazy to blog about anything.
So, bye!

I've no idea why is there a line across my new picture.
But who cares.
Hahahaha.

If I hardly blog anymore....
Blame Nurul Haziqah (:
Hehehehe.

Don't kill me Haziqahhhh.

Dreaming about _____ always make my day so much brighter.
I think I was smiling throughout my sleep..
It's just that no one saw it cause I was alone.

The dream made me realise one thing.
& I'm not going to say it out loud.
Hehe.

I miss _____.

Zhen, if you're reading this, you'll know who ;)
*crosses pinky with you, virtually, spiritually*
Pinky swear, secret between us!
Hahahahahaha.

Hiiii!
I'm blogging and I'm in school right now.
I'm waiting for my next class that starts in 20 minutes and I'm so bored right now.
Yay for the small laptop that I can bring around and yay for the school's wireless network!
I'm going to dye my hair back to brown black, my natural color... Soon.
No idea when but probably soon because my black roots are sooooooo obvious since it's been like 2-3 months since I dye-d it.
And I have to trim my hair a little bit.
It's getting messy.

So, I'm going to have to take the bus home later. HAHAHA.
Caroline taking the bus :D

So I was thinking about what am I going to do when I go back to Singapore & Indonesia.
I've a couple of things in mind of what I want to do in Singapore, or rather what I HAVE to do..
1) Dentist - to replace my retainers.
2) Skin Doctor.
3) Eye Doctor - Lasik!!
4) My Mission Impossible ;) - only Tracy will know what I mean.
5) Visit all the places that I haven't been before and take photos.
6) Look at the new shopping centres.
And to hang out with you guys of course...

& In Indonesia.. I don't really know yet.
But I'll probably hang out with my new made Indonesian friends :D
If they go back in the Summer too.
And like, visit the brand new shopping malls.
Eat my awesome maid's cooking.

That's about it for now.
So many things to do in 3 weeks.
Insane!
I've to squeeze so many things into one day.

Can't wait to go back.
But before my hectic Summer schedule begins.
I've a busy busy plan for December too.
Cousin & her family coming over to visit colleges and I'm her "tour guide".
Another cousin and her family coming over after my cousin's graduation.
And my brother's coming with the cousin that I first stated.
Yay! I miss him so much...... ):
Especially the quarelling part.

Okay, got to off the laptop now.
Stupid boring lessons #2 is going to start soon.
Byebyebye.
Xoxo.

I'm getting lazy.
It's Sunday.
I haven't study a single thing since Thursday.
& it's 8 minutes to 11pm now.
I"m going to start studying then..
Thank goodness for Afternoon class, 340pm.

So sleepy....
Help me ):

I had so much stuff that I wanted to blog about.
But now, I don't really have the mood to say anything.
It's 230am now.
Church's in 8.5 hours.

My mind just won't stop popping up things for me to think and fret about.
How awesome is my brain?
Be it good or bad things to think about.
Everyone, love my brain.

<3

I've been hearing so many people asking me about which major do I want to take.
Usually, I'd answer.. "Accounting? Or something related to Business."
But now, I find myself changing my answer to a simple "I don't know".
Why?
Because I know that I don't want to take anything to do with Business anymore.
I remember me telling myself that, I'd never want to do anything that has something to do with Math after Os.
And yet, I'm taking Accounting this semester.

Daddy and Mommy said in the car a few days ago, that most of the people who major-ed in Business, are jobless.
Yes, most of them.
So, I'm thinking, why should I take Business and be one of the jobless ones?
That will be so stupid of me.
And they said about my cousin, Linda, about being unique, because she's taking Mass Communication.
Hey, that's what I wanted to take.
Something to do with the media, entertainment industry.
I didn't open my mouth to actually tell them.
Because I was afraid of what my sister, who was in the car, would think of it.
She'll probably scold me for being stupid or something.
I don't know.
It just doesn't seem realistic for Indonesians to take Media-related majors.

I'm not saying that I'll have a job just because I don't take the Business major.
It's just that, since we know that there are so many people out there who are unable to find jobs.
Why line up in that ever so long, never ending queue to just have a slight opportunity of having a job?

I don't know what am I saying anymore.
I don't know if you get what am I saying over here.
Truthfully, I just wanted to rant, even though you guys may not understand what I am saying.
I just think that this is the place that I want to speak my mind at.

Okay, it's 3am.
I've to get ready by 11am tomorrow, since Dajie and Jane wants to get breakfast or something..
Which I doubt we will in the end.
& Erjie's going to fetch me at 1245pm tomorrow.
Church event, the Sports' Day, starts at 1pm tomorrow.

So, goodnight.

Suddenly, I'm not so sure about the thing I was so sure a month ago. I just want to be like one of actors in the movie. Going to the beach and just screaming my lungs out. I don't know who to turn to. I don't want to annoy those I always turn to, talking about this topic over and over again. Sometimes my brain just decides to turn against my made up mind and screw everyone all over again.

Why can't I just seem to make up my mind and make that the end of it. Seriously. Why?

I know how much you guys hate me for always posting super wordy posts.
Especially with no pictures in them.
Not even one.. Hahaha.
So this is for you guys.
I wanted to upload more.
But it's already 241am, and I'm exhausted.
& I got to wake up early tomorrow to study.
Study study study.
Hahaha, most of these pictures, actually, all except the first photo are from my sister's camera.
So I don't know if you guys have seen them in Facebook.
Here you go:

Verna Sukiat.
I heard you're not feeling well.
Take care of yourself yeah.
Don't do so much work, staying over in school to rush your projects, not sleeping until a couple of hours before sunrise!
It's no wonder you're sick.
Health comes first okay!

I can't really remember how we first got to know each other.
Hahah, obviously it's in Manjusri but, when?
I know we had our ups and downs.
And some major drama and all.
I don't know what to say really.
But I'm just glad that you're my friend.
No, one of my best friends.

I know there are times when you feel like some things inside you are killing you.
Like one of the drama that happened last time.
I know I'm not a really good advice-giver person.
But I hope that my pair of listening ear was of much help.

You know what, I can still totally remember how you'll say my name when I say/do something lame.
And I remember the time when you screamed "Olin!" from one end to another.
I remember our Choir days, and those days in Secondary 2 where I was being isolated that I quit Choir..
I remember the recesses that we had together with the gang, and you'll always get muah-chee and never finish it.
And how you don't remember your classes after recess that we've to remind you whether you've to go to your Malay class.

There are so many memories that are etched in my memory.
& I assure you that I'll never forget them.

Especially how you wanted your letter to be long.
The letter I gave the few of you on the day I left for the US.
I know it wasn't much.
But I hope you know what I'm trying to say.

Remember the stay over we had at your place!
Facial mask + cucumber on our eyes.
Those days seemed it was just a couple of months ago.
But it's more than a year ago.

Friends, Friendships are really important.
And I'm glad that I've a friend like you.
For those times where the "Operation to Isolate Caroline" took place, I mean, I still remember it, it obviously hurt a lot.
Like, a lot..
I just wanted to cry my heart out.
And to tell the truth, I really wanted to just transfer out of Manjusri.
I just wanted to get out and run out of the situation.
I'm not even kidding.
But, I forgive you guys.
Because I believe all that matters is the present.
And that we are friends now.

How I wish I'm there to celebrate Janet's birthday! ):
I miss you guys so much.
I'll see you in 10-11 months.
<3

Falling sick.
That says it all.
I'm falling sick.

Wednesday, on the way to school..
My first time ever, I experienced car-sickness.
I felt so sick.

Thursday, after waking up.
Flu.
At night, drank medicine.
Friday (today), woke up with a cough.

Ah, my body's being so annoying now.

On the bright side, kinda..
Happy Birthday Janet Lau Shan Xiu! <3
I miss you! And I'm sorry I'm not there for the 10th birthday we wished each other for.
10 years and counting.
How awesome is that?
I'll celebrate with you whenever I'm back during your birthday!
In.... 5 years? Hahaha, after I graduate.
See, that's the kinda not-so-bright-side of this.
Ah, see you soon.
Hope you've the most fantastic birthday okay (:

I'll blog another day.
Xoxo.