It just hit me how fast time is going by.
It seems like it was only like yesterday when Haziqah was asking me to keep quiet about me going off and all, saying that there's still about 2 months.
& now?
I have less than 2 weeks, actually I only have about one week.
8 days to be exact.

Hanging out with Mitch a lot recently.
Caught up with my class people, juniors, and soon, seniors, tao nan people and all..

I was just thinking.
No, actually I feel that no one will actually care as much as I do now.
I mean, seriously.
I ain't going to elaborate, because I don't know what to say.

I'm trying to push my flight to a later flight.
Hopefully I can.
What difference will it make though?
I wonder.





<3

Getting back to the Lazy Caroline.
I'm too lazy to blog again.
Hahah.

I want I want I want....... (:

Leaving in 12 days.
Sigh.

Okay, bye!

Omg, I just drove around my house area.
Damn funny.
My driver and I were laughing thruout.
Hehehe.
Going to learn reversing and parking tomorrow.
Omg, help me.

Hahaha.
I lost weight I think.
Hehe.

Greetings from the land about 1hr and 10 mins away from Singapore.
Heheh, hello!
I'm in Indonesia now.
And the weather is bad.
It's so hot ):

Anyway, I just had dinner right, we had like what, 7 main courses and all.
Only adding up to like 100 bucks?
HAHA. I love it here.

Omg, I'm so contradicting....
Okay, anyhow, I already made plans with one of my cousin to go shopping tomorrow.
She'll meet me after school which ends at about 2pm.
Then on Tuesday, I'm meeting my uncle I think.
He wants to meet me. Hahah.
After that, no plans yet though.
Hahahah. I bet it'll be mostly shopping though.
Oh yes, and driving. (:

Mom: You want to lose weight right?
Me: Yah.
Mom: Okay, help me take my specs in my room.
(My parents' room are like 1.5 floors up from the first level)
Me: Huh...
Mom: Help laaaaa.

Hahah. Whenever I'm in Indo, it means I'll exercise.
Because I have to go up and down the stairs.
Hahaha. I suppose that is a good thing!
Anyway, I'm so tired now.
I think I'll sleep early tonight.
Need to bathe after this, and maybe come online again for a bit.
And maybe run the treadmill or hula a little.
Then go to sleep.
Ah, I even have to exercise to go to bed.
My room's the attic!
Any oh how. I'll go bathe now!

Will update when I'm here (:

Ah, leaving for Indonesia tomorrow.
I'll be back on the 16th.
Don't worry! (:

But.. I'll be leaving on the 3rd of July again.

I need to plan all of my dates ASAP.
Cause I think when I'm back from the Indonesia, I'll have my cousins with me.
And, I might be going to M'sia for a shopping trip with Tracy and Jere, maybe?
And I haven't meet up with so many people.
My class people, be it Tao Nan's 1A, 2A, 3A, 4A, 5B, 6B or Manjusri's 1G, 2G, 3E1, 4E1.
Oh! My choir people too! Be it seniors, my batch people or juniors.
And people like, Lizhen, Pearlin, Silas etc.
I miss you guys..

I'll try to plan soon because I'm so lazy to do so.
I've so many things on my hands now.
I haven't finish doing one thing, and I haven't even pack my luggage for tomorrow.
And and, I haven't take all the passports and all.
(I've to babysit my brother and my cousin. Gosh.)
And my mom have some stuff for me to do, like the GST refund thing.
So I don't know.
It's very confusing.

I was supposed to go out with Tracy and Jere today.
But Tracy overslept...
Since she overslept and won't wake up with a million calls from Jere and I.
I continued sleeping.
And and, I woke up at 5pm...
Hahaha, so late right. I know!
But I was super worn out yesterday.
I only had a few hours of sleep the day before, and I slept at 5+am yesterday.
Means.. I had 12 hours of sleep!
Imagine how much calories I lost. Hahaha.

Okay, I've stopped myself from shopping on clothes yesterday.
But I bought like CDs and drama series.
Awesome. Hahaha.

I can't wait to go back Indonesia, but yet I don't want to go.
I can shop until I drop, literally, and not spending as much as I've spent here I guess.
But I'm losing like 9 days of chances to hang out with my friends.
Ah, oh wells.
I need to ask Mommy if we're going Bali.
Because if we are, I need to pack some Bali clothes.
I don't know what's the difference but hahaha.
I want to go Bali!
Let's see. 9 days in Indonesia, if I go Bali for 3 days, I'll have 6 days to..
1) Learn driving,
2) Shopping!!
3) Learn cooking?
and the most important of all, 4) Spend time with my relatives before I leave in July.

Ah, time is so precious to me now.
But yet I just slept 12 hours away of it.
When I could have met up with Haziqah and Verna and a few more people..
Sorry ):
My plan was last minute cancelled and I fainted on my bed.
I couldn't bring myself to wake up.
Sorrrrrrry. I'll hang out with you guys after I come back.
And we better camwhore! I want more pretty pictures to bring over. (:

你会不会帮我那一个小忙呢？你会帮我实现我的心愿吗？
我好希望你可以做得到。我会一直等，等到我收到你的回应为止。
我好希望我的梦能成真。不只是那一个梦，是每一个都有你在里面的梦。
因为每一个关于你的梦，都是件好事。每一次梦到你的时候，我会感到很快乐。

I miss you, you and you.
I'm just wondering, if you feel the same way.
I feel like a fool, if I'm the only one who will miss you guys.

Bye!

I've been shopping A LOT.
I bought my Zara heels (:
Thank you Mommy for getting it for me.
Only one heels is left from Topshop.
The other 2 are like no more!
And so is the Miss Selfridge heels.
Oh, I bought my Nike bag too!
But it's in purple, not in yellow.
Yay (:

And I bought a lot a lot of pretty clothes.
I'm a happy girl. Hahah.
But I feel so guilty for spending so much ):

Hahaha, Alyssa hates me for turning the 2 offers Mommy offered me.
It's damn funny. Hahah.

My retainers flew away.

I saw it on a table.
My brother and cousin didn't touch anything from that table.
And when my maid cleaned the place up, she didn't see my retainers on the table.

How amazing.
What a pretty cool retainers I have.

Grr.
$450 you know.
It's like, I can buy 2 heels I like.
Hahahaha.

I want I want I want it to come back to me.
Where is it?!
):

Oh did I tell you I lost my EZ Link Card yesterday too?
I swear I'm on a losing streak recently.
Damn everything.

I'm still thinking about the heels.
Should I get them?

1 pair of Zara heels.
1 pair of Miss Selfridge heels.
3 pairs of Topshop heels.

Total price = insane.
A couple of weeks since I first saw the Zara heels.
And I'm still thinking whether I should get it now.

Wow.

So, I shopped today!
Finally.
After 5 months.
Wanted to go out to buy heels, but I ended up not buying them.
But I bought a blazer, 2 dresses, 2 tank tops and 2 scarfs.
:D

Happy!

But still want to shop!
Not satisfied.
I love the Zara heels.
Seriously.
I love the pink ones, and today I saw a blue one..
I love both!
And I saw a purple heels from Miss Selfridge, discounted from $99 to $59.
Should I get them? Hehehe.

I'm feeling super excited now.
Talking to Tracy about shopping.
Okay, it's mainly me talking..

I want to ask Mommy if my cousins and I can go Thailand for the weekend.
Just to shop (:
I need a new wardrobe for the US!
Hahah, hm.
Plus my Indonesia trip this 7 June to 16 June..
Yeap, decided to stay there until 16 June.
Going to skip one of my dance lessons..
Sorry Lizhen!
I'm going to learn driving too!

So, Mommy's plan is on the 17th of June,
Claudia & Andrew, my cousins, will come over to Singapore.
Followed by Vina on the 20th.
(She's going to skip 4 days of school just to spend time with me!)
Then I can bring them around or something.
But if Mommy, no actually, if my Daddy allows, I shall go Thailand with Claudia and Vina!
We can shop til we drop.
Literally.

I'm already thinking of what things I want to get before I leave for the US.
I think I'll bring like 3 huge luggages along with me.
I'm going to bring one over to Indonesia like, on 7th June already.
Oh well..

So, I was telling Tracy what are the items I want to get.
& I realised...
I want to get every single thing.
I'm not even kidding you!
Tracy even wanted to block me online because I was like, telling her item by item of what I want to get.
HAHAHA.
But I was helping her in a way!
Giving her more ideas of what to get when she leave for her shopping spree in Hong Kong!

Things to get:
1) Heels! Oh no, I really like this pink Zara heels.. But it's S$199! So expensive.
2) Dresses; sundresses, going-out dresses & so on.
3) Shorts - all colours please.
4) Sunglasses.
5) Belts.
6) Scarfs.
7) Tops, duh.
8) Oh! Flats, covered toes and otherwise.
9) Vests.
10) Blazers.
11) Boots! Flats, a little heels and maybe cute ones.
12) More heels!

& a lot more.
Depends on the current trend too, of course.
Like, in Taiwan, the trend now is those shiny things.
Cute.

Hehe, I'm changing.
Oh no.
I'll go back to Indonesia or try to ask Mommy whether I can go Thailand to shop.
So I won't have to spend so much.
I hate spending so much.
But I really want to shop now.
I haven't shop since Chinese New Year I think.
That's like, 4-5 months ago.
Not a record for me though.
It's not unusual for me to not shop for months.

I need to have new clothes.
Seriously.

Super hyped now.
Shop Shop Shop.

First thing first, lose weight.
After that, find a dress for Kor Willy's wedding.
Finally, my time to shop like crazy.

Steph told Mommy she's not coming back for the wedding anymore ):
Aw.
Stephie's leaving for the US tomorrow!
I'll miss you.
Ah, don't go!
But I'll see you when I get there and we'll be in the same school next year.
Hahaha, see you Stephie!

Okay, I I I don't know what to type anymore.
Hahaha.
Oh did I mention Bali this June?
Not confirmed yet though.
I'm not going to say anything is most probably going to happen or anything else anymore.
Heheh, I'm not going to make myself disappointed. (:

I miss so many people!
Sujia, Mui, Huihui, Zihong and those girls in 4E1.
Michelle Chang! Who's coming back 14th June.
Alyssa Wee, who's busy with JC stuff.
I miss you guys ):

I want to go shopping shopping shopping!
Now.

I'm still deciding..
I like the pink Zara heels I mentioned above.
& these 3 Topshop heels, S$159, S$159 and S$169.
Why are all the pretty things so expensive?
I really like the Zara one.
It caught my eyes once I saw it, seriously.

I'm thinking if I should go back to Indonesia, to see if they have any heels that look alike like the ones in Topshop before I decide to get them.
It might be cheaper, I guess, back in Indonesia.

Help me!

Strike all of my plans.
Nothing's left on my travel plans.
NOTHING.
Except Indonesia.
Wth?
Screw this.
I was so excited.
Now?
I'm bummed.

Firstly, I had to say goodbye to by JB trip.
Secondly, I gave up my KL trip.
Thirdly, H1N1 killed my Korea trip.
Lastly, a busy schedule caused my Thailand trip.
(I'm not blaming you Pearls, and I'm not blaming you too Mui.
I understand (: No worries okay. There's always another chance.)

Now I'm confused.
I'm supposed to go back to Indonesia from 7 June to 11 June.
Mommy wants me to skip my dance class on 11 June and stay in Indonesia until 16 June.
The good thing is I'll be able to learn driving and might even go Bali with relatives.
The bad thing is I'll skip my dance class.

My mind's a whirlpool now.
I can't make up my mind.
I'm having a headache.

I hate this.
I hate everything.
Why must it always be like this?
Get me all hyped about all my trips.
And only seeing all of them getting crashed and cancelled one by one.

Just kill me already.

Good news for you guys.
Bad news, kinda, for me.

I'm not going Korea anymore...
And.
I have decided to NOT go M'sia.

To spend more time in Singapore to have the time to actually go out with you guys.
If I don't go out, means I'll rot at home.
Which is the bad news for me.

I have a statement that I'm sure a lot of people agree with me.
SWINE FLU IS TOTALLY ANNOYING.
I'm sorry but I just have to write that in caps.
& sorry too, but Singaporean parents are just too overly kiasu.

That caused me to cancel my trip to...
Taiwan and Korea!

Annoying.
& Pissed.

):

Cruise.
Let me summarise it with a few words.
1) Ate a lot.
2) Met a super weird guy who talked to my brother and I on the first night, and followed us until he finally said goodnight..
3) Talked a lot with brother, kinda.
4) Took a few pictures.
5) Two words to actually describe the whole 2-days plus trip: Super boring.

My brother and I totally spent the whole couple of days eating, and walking from one end to the other of the ship non stop.
That continues.
Until we go back to our room and slack..
Unless we decide to walk again.
Then we'll go up and down, front of the ship and the back of the ship.

Any oh how.
The first night there, we couldn't sleep so Mommy, my brother and I spent an hour like planning our June - September schedule.
Insanity.
People are only planning their June holiday schedule.
And ours..
Extended to September.

From today to July 3..
40 days.
& yes I'm going back to Indonesia July 3 instead of July 1.
I'm happy, pushed back by 2 days.
But, geez, stop changing the date already.

My schedule for the remaining May & June..
1) Mommy asked me to go Genting with her, Daddy and a few relatives and friends.
28 May to June 1. (5 days)
2) Go back to Indonesia, 7 June to 11 June. (5 days)
3) Thailand, not sure when, maybe 12/13 June to 17 June. (5/6 days)
4) Korea, not sure when yet, but it'll be a 8-days trip.

Ah, so many things, so little time..

I bet I gained weight on board.
So I'm going to start dieting again.
This time, all the way until I leave for Indonesia.
Plus exercise.
Yes, I already told myself to exercise.
Because I'm like super obese now.
Damn.

Bye!

I'm damn pissed.
Because of my parents' hectic June schedule.
They disallowed me to go M'sia.
!@#$
THERE GOES MY LAST CHANCE.
Don't talk to me.
Bye.

Had 2 dreams last night or rather morning.

I woke up from the 1st, remember myself repeating "No, I don't want!" over and over again.
& I was crying.
I don't remember what's it about anymore though.

2nd, dreamt about (:
It's a pretty nice dream.
Not going to elaborate on this one though.

It's only 6 weeks left to July 2nd.
I actually haven't decided on whether to leave July 1 or July 3.
Depends on my brother.
It doesn't matter actually.
I only have about 6 weeks, 42 days left in Singapore,
before I leave for Indonesia for either 4 days or 2 days,
before I officially leave S.E Asia for the US.
To the other side of the globe.

42 days.
Minus 3 days cruise.
Minus 2 days M'sia trip?
Minus 6 days Thailand trip?
Minus 8 days S. Korea trip?
Minus 6 days Indonesia trip?

I'm left with what?
17 days left in Singapore.
That is just not enough.
That's less than 3 weeks.
I still have to meet up with Mitch who'll be back in Mid June.
I still have to meet up a lot of people!

I hate schools.
If not, I'd have the chance to meet you guys every weekend.
Sucks.

Happy 22nd Anniversary Mommy & Daddy.
I love you two.
No one can ever replace you in my heart.
Thank you for bringing me up, and I'm sorry to repay you at times with my bad moods and all.
But deep inside, please know that I love you and that will never change.

&

Happy Birthday Stephanie Arifin.
Love you (:
You're old.
You're officially legal to do anything you want.
Go get married!

Two happy events on one day.
This is always the happiest day for my family.
Celebrating two things at the same time.
I can't wait for my parents' anniversary 3 years later.
Oh, and my grandparents' 50th anniversary next year!

Time flies.

Hahaha, I know I haven't been blogging as much as a few weeks back.
But at least it's not like the time back in January and February.
I wouldn't even post when I'm super bored.
Oh well.
To make it up, long wordy post ahead!

Anyway, I'm in such a dilemma now.
I don't know if I should cut my hair.

Short?
Bangs?
Trim?
Layer?

Stephie said I should just chop 2/3 of my hair.
Hahaha.

Daddy said okay when I asked him if I could go Thailand.
Mommy wants me to go back Indo, so maybe I will, for 6 days.
Every trip of mine will be only 6 days max.
Except for Korea I guess, 8 days.
Stupid hip-hop class.
Hahaha.
I want to go Bali too!
But I need to spend time here too.
I need to hang out with my friends before I leave.

June is their holiday, and I'll be flying around?
What the hell Caroline..

Okay, still thinking about cutting hair.
Okay, I've decided.
I'm not going to cut short.
Never in my life.
Okay, I don't know what other hairstyles are there.

Jerevien Poon!
We go try wigs okay.
Hahahaha.

I need to shop.
Badly.
I can't wait to go Thailand..
Shopping for a whole new collection of clothes for my new life in the US.
:D

Oh, Daddy only opened one room for cruise this Friday.
So I'll have my brother clinging onto me for the whole duration..
Oh well, it'll be fun.
I can hang out with my dearest brother, with him not being stuck to his stupid computer game all day long.
We can go eat non stop.

Oh, speaking of which.
I've decided to stop the 7 day diet thing.
It's a torture.
Okay, maybe for this week only.
I need a break.

Cruise.
I haven't been on board for like years.
We used to go every few months.
I think I haven't step my foot onto Superstar Virgo since 4 years ago.
What a miracle.
I bet all the crews we used to know are all not working there anymore.
How sad..
No more free food! Hahaha, kidding.
That was only this one time.
The chef gave my siblings and I complimentary French Fries.

Oh well..
I need a break from this super mundane life of mine.
I really need something to spice up my life.
Ah, when will it come?

Because of cruise, I can't meet up with Haziqah & Verna this Saturday.
Sorry guys.
Will catch up with you guys after that okay!
Because of cruise, Alyssa couldn't meet me up for a retail therapy.
Sorry Alyssa.
I'll see you soon!
You're my shopping consultant so no worries.
I'll definitely go shopping with you.

I'm still up at 441am.
I should be asleep.
I need my at-least-6-hours of beauty sleep.
I ate chicken rice like, 2 to 3 hours back.
I did hula a bit, then Mommy stopped me from continue-ing.
Because I hula-ed after I ate.

So, I've been chatting with Tracy a lot.
Crapping not chatting.
Hahaha.
We talked about height and weight the most.
Our two favourite topics.

It's so funny how girls are so mad over their appearance.
I'm not going to point my finger at anyone, because I'm one of them too.
If I were to talk about somebody on this topic, I'll talk about myself.
I'm crazy last week.
Eating nothing but fruits and vegetables most of the time.
Not consuming any carbohydrates for 7 days.
Can you imagine that?

Oh well, I still can't get myself off the couch to go to the gym.
I am a seriously hopeless lazy bum.
I need to shed off like tens of pounds off me.
Before all of my trips.

Help me.

I'm talking to James online.
Hahah, I know you're reading this, James.
We haven't skype for ages.
We stopped when... Your sister stayed at your place for a few days!
Hahah, yeap, that's when we stopped.

I was supposed to go back to Indo, 5 June to 11 June.
I told Patrick, because he was supposed to go back with me.
But he went "No, cannot, I've my primary school gathering."
So I dont know if I'm going back..

But it made me have the urge to call up all of my primary school friends.
I need to meet up with you guys.
Definitely.
And my secondary school friends too.
I'll never forget you guys.
And my seniors, like Shuhui who I'm going to meet soon.

I really can't bear to leave this place, my second home.
Even though I really can't stand the weather of this country.
Even though I'm really sick of the same shopping malls I can only go to over and over again.
Even though there's no theme parks to make me go wild for.
Even though some of the people here are really horrible.
Even though this place is not perfect,
this place is still the piece of land that I've been living for 10 years.

I'll definitely leave this place with buckets of tears.
I will not leave all of my memories here, even though I'm sure I'll leave those unnecessary ones behind.
I will bring the memories I spent with you where ever I go.
All of them are imprinted at the back of my mind.
I will remember you guys and have your pictures up on my wall in the US.

I just hope..
You guys will remember me, and miss me as much as I will be doing so.

I haven't do the diet thing for 2 days.
I've been eating a lot ):
Shucks.

Starting tomorrow again.
Hahah. I have to...

Bye!

Cruise this Friday :D
Stephie and Kristie is coming along.
Wipeedooooo.
Okay, bye!

Even though not as many people as we expected came for the party.
Ultimately, it was fun.
Met people who I haven't see for years.
Deborah, Rachel, Shuyi.
I was the "maid" for the night because I was afraid the security guard will kill me for making a mess out of the function room.
Oh well, after the party, Kenneth, Jerevien, Shereen and Tracy stayed until about 3am.
Played a few card games, loser had to drink a cup of mixed drinks.
Rules changed after that, loser had to eat a plate of food.
This was to make sure there isn't so much food left.
Overall, I'm sure all of us had fun.
Even the cake was commented to be nice (:

I didn't take photos.
Surprised?
I wasn't allowed to, because Jerevien's friend, Felicia wanted to be the photographer of the day.
And when we, Alyssa, Deborah, Rachel, Shuyi and myself camwhored at my place, we used Shuyi's camera.
So, hold on for the pictures.

Anyway, M'sia trip, only going for a day or two.
Korea trip, not planned yet.
Taiwan, should be impossible.
Because.. Mui asked me to go Thailand.
I'll ask Mommy tomorrow. I think she'll allow me to go Thailand rather than Taiwan.
Since I've Mui in Thailand!
Let's see how it goes.
I need to discuss about Korea trip with Pearls ASAP.
Mom's complaining, still, about me joining dance class because it's ruining her plans and mine.
She said I can't go back to Indonesia now because of that and stuff like, I've no time to learn driving..
Oh wells.
Plus, Jerevien and her classmates are thinking, not confirmed, to go to Bali.
And she wants me to go along, but I don't know if I can.
That just means I need to plan my June holiday like now!
How many places in a month will just kill me.
But at least I won't be bored!

On my diet, it was going well, lost like 2kg, until Tracy's birthday party.
Ate a lot compared to the previous diet week I survived.
I started the diet the day after her party, but not so strict.
As in, I've been eating one/two chocolates per day.
And I've been doing Hula.
I'm going to get off my lazy ass to skip.
Gymming the other day with Tracy before her party made my legs ache like mad.
I was doing Cardio for 50 mins straight without stopping.
Normally with my trainer, he'd ask me to do 30 mins and I'll stop countless number of times and whine nonstop.

I'm getting a number of mosquito bites I think.
Hahaha, random.

I'm still up at 321am, when I need to be up at about 9am tomorrow.
Going to my relative's place and stuff.
I need my at least 6 hours of sleep.
Any lesser than that = getting fatter easily.
Hahaha.

Oh, did I mention there's something wrong with my fridge?
It's not cold.
All the things inside are not cold.
That sucks.

Tracy just typed "blogged" as "voted" on MSN.
How retarded...
Hahaha, oh, you know she've like 3 Spongebob Squarepants as her birthday gifts?
And she was telling me how if she wants to hug one, she needs to hug all.
Only then will she be fair to all 3 of them.
Hahha, hilarious.

I really hate schools.
They're taking all of my friends away.
We hardly even meet up anymore.
During June holiday, we're so going to meet up okay.
The last few chances of us getting together before I leave for the US.
I miss you guys.
Tao Nan Knights and Manjusrians, all of you guys.
I'll try to not be lazy and plan outings since I'm the super free one.
Hahahah. I'll let you guys know again.

Okay, it's 327am now.
My mom just came out of the room to ask me to sleep...
But I'm not tired.
Because recently I've been a really huge pig, sleeping at least 9 hours.
I slept for 12 hours the other day.
4am to 4pm on the day of Tracy's party.
And yesterday, 7am to 4pm.
Okay, I better say my goodbye now!
Ciao.

10kg in 2 weeks is going to be extremely tough.
I've planned my daily exercise routine.
Hahahaha. Don't laugh.
Okay, go ahead and laugh.

Heheh, no matter what, I'll make sure I'm going to lose that 10kg!
I need to.