Ah, leaving for Indonesia tomorrow.
I'll be back on the 16th.
Don't worry! (:

But.. I'll be leaving on the 3rd of July again.

I need to plan all of my dates ASAP.
Cause I think when I'm back from the Indonesia, I'll have my cousins with me.
And, I might be going to M'sia for a shopping trip with Tracy and Jere, maybe?
And I haven't meet up with so many people.
My class people, be it Tao Nan's 1A, 2A, 3A, 4A, 5B, 6B or Manjusri's 1G, 2G, 3E1, 4E1.
Oh! My choir people too! Be it seniors, my batch people or juniors.
And people like, Lizhen, Pearlin, Silas etc.
I miss you guys..

I'll try to plan soon because I'm so lazy to do so.
I've so many things on my hands now.
I haven't finish doing one thing, and I haven't even pack my luggage for tomorrow.
And and, I haven't take all the passports and all.
(I've to babysit my brother and my cousin. Gosh.)
And my mom have some stuff for me to do, like the GST refund thing.
So I don't know.
It's very confusing.

I was supposed to go out with Tracy and Jere today.
But Tracy overslept...
Since she overslept and won't wake up with a million calls from Jere and I.
I continued sleeping.
And and, I woke up at 5pm...
Hahaha, so late right. I know!
But I was super worn out yesterday.
I only had a few hours of sleep the day before, and I slept at 5+am yesterday.
Means.. I had 12 hours of sleep!
Imagine how much calories I lost. Hahaha.

Okay, I've stopped myself from shopping on clothes yesterday.
But I bought like CDs and drama series.
Awesome. Hahaha.

I can't wait to go back Indonesia, but yet I don't want to go.
I can shop until I drop, literally, and not spending as much as I've spent here I guess.
But I'm losing like 9 days of chances to hang out with my friends.
Ah, oh wells.
I need to ask Mommy if we're going Bali.
Because if we are, I need to pack some Bali clothes.
I don't know what's the difference but hahaha.
I want to go Bali!
Let's see. 9 days in Indonesia, if I go Bali for 3 days, I'll have 6 days to..
1) Learn driving,
2) Shopping!!
3) Learn cooking?
and the most important of all, 4) Spend time with my relatives before I leave in July.

Ah, time is so precious to me now.
But yet I just slept 12 hours away of it.
When I could have met up with Haziqah and Verna and a few more people..
Sorry ):
My plan was last minute cancelled and I fainted on my bed.
I couldn't bring myself to wake up.
Sorrrrrrry. I'll hang out with you guys after I come back.
And we better camwhore! I want more pretty pictures to bring over. (:

你会不会帮我那一个小忙呢？你会帮我实现我的心愿吗？
我好希望你可以做得到。我会一直等，等到我收到你的回应为止。
我好希望我的梦能成真。不只是那一个梦，是每一个都有你在里面的梦。
因为每一个关于你的梦，都是件好事。每一次梦到你的时候，我会感到很快乐。

I miss you, you and you.
I'm just wondering, if you feel the same way.
I feel like a fool, if I'm the only one who will miss you guys.

Bye!

I've been shopping A LOT.
I bought my Zara heels (:
Thank you Mommy for getting it for me.
Only one heels is left from Topshop.
The other 2 are like no more!
And so is the Miss Selfridge heels.
Oh, I bought my Nike bag too!
But it's in purple, not in yellow.
Yay (:

And I bought a lot a lot of pretty clothes.
I'm a happy girl. Hahah.
But I feel so guilty for spending so much ):

Hahaha, Alyssa hates me for turning the 2 offers Mommy offered me.
It's damn funny. Hahah.

My retainers flew away.

I saw it on a table.
My brother and cousin didn't touch anything from that table.
And when my maid cleaned the place up, she didn't see my retainers on the table.

How amazing.
What a pretty cool retainers I have.

Grr.
$450 you know.
It's like, I can buy 2 heels I like.
Hahahaha.

I want I want I want it to come back to me.
Where is it?!
):

Oh did I tell you I lost my EZ Link Card yesterday too?
I swear I'm on a losing streak recently.
Damn everything.

I'm still thinking about the heels.
Should I get them?

1 pair of Zara heels.
1 pair of Miss Selfridge heels.
3 pairs of Topshop heels.

Total price = insane.
A couple of weeks since I first saw the Zara heels.
And I'm still thinking whether I should get it now.

Wow.

So, I shopped today!
Finally.
After 5 months.
Wanted to go out to buy heels, but I ended up not buying them.
But I bought a blazer, 2 dresses, 2 tank tops and 2 scarfs.
:D

Happy!

But still want to shop!
Not satisfied.
I love the Zara heels.
Seriously.
I love the pink ones, and today I saw a blue one..
I love both!
And I saw a purple heels from Miss Selfridge, discounted from $99 to $59.
Should I get them? Hehehe.

I'm feeling super excited now.
Talking to Tracy about shopping.
Okay, it's mainly me talking..

I want to ask Mommy if my cousins and I can go Thailand for the weekend.
Just to shop (:
I need a new wardrobe for the US!
Hahah, hm.
Plus my Indonesia trip this 7 June to 16 June..
Yeap, decided to stay there until 16 June.
Going to skip one of my dance lessons..
Sorry Lizhen!
I'm going to learn driving too!

So, Mommy's plan is on the 17th of June,
Claudia & Andrew, my cousins, will come over to Singapore.
Followed by Vina on the 20th.
(She's going to skip 4 days of school just to spend time with me!)
Then I can bring them around or something.
But if Mommy, no actually, if my Daddy allows, I shall go Thailand with Claudia and Vina!
We can shop til we drop.
Literally.

I'm already thinking of what things I want to get before I leave for the US.
I think I'll bring like 3 huge luggages along with me.
I'm going to bring one over to Indonesia like, on 7th June already.
Oh well..

So, I was telling Tracy what are the items I want to get.
& I realised...
I want to get every single thing.
I'm not even kidding you!
Tracy even wanted to block me online because I was like, telling her item by item of what I want to get.
HAHAHA.
But I was helping her in a way!
Giving her more ideas of what to get when she leave for her shopping spree in Hong Kong!

Things to get:
1) Heels! Oh no, I really like this pink Zara heels.. But it's S$199! So expensive.
2) Dresses; sundresses, going-out dresses & so on.
3) Shorts - all colours please.
4) Sunglasses.
5) Belts.
6) Scarfs.
7) Tops, duh.
8) Oh! Flats, covered toes and otherwise.
9) Vests.
10) Blazers.
11) Boots! Flats, a little heels and maybe cute ones.
12) More heels!

& a lot more.
Depends on the current trend too, of course.
Like, in Taiwan, the trend now is those shiny things.
Cute.

Hehe, I'm changing.
Oh no.
I'll go back to Indonesia or try to ask Mommy whether I can go Thailand to shop.
So I won't have to spend so much.
I hate spending so much.
But I really want to shop now.
I haven't shop since Chinese New Year I think.
That's like, 4-5 months ago.
Not a record for me though.
It's not unusual for me to not shop for months.

I need to have new clothes.
Seriously.

Super hyped now.
Shop Shop Shop.

First thing first, lose weight.
After that, find a dress for Kor Willy's wedding.
Finally, my time to shop like crazy.

Steph told Mommy she's not coming back for the wedding anymore ):
Aw.
Stephie's leaving for the US tomorrow!
I'll miss you.
Ah, don't go!
But I'll see you when I get there and we'll be in the same school next year.
Hahaha, see you Stephie!

Okay, I I I don't know what to type anymore.
Hahaha.
Oh did I mention Bali this June?
Not confirmed yet though.
I'm not going to say anything is most probably going to happen or anything else anymore.
Heheh, I'm not going to make myself disappointed. (:

I miss so many people!
Sujia, Mui, Huihui, Zihong and those girls in 4E1.
Michelle Chang! Who's coming back 14th June.
Alyssa Wee, who's busy with JC stuff.
I miss you guys ):

I want to go shopping shopping shopping!
Now.

I'm still deciding..
I like the pink Zara heels I mentioned above.
& these 3 Topshop heels, S$159, S$159 and S$169.
Why are all the pretty things so expensive?
I really like the Zara one.
It caught my eyes once I saw it, seriously.

I'm thinking if I should go back to Indonesia, to see if they have any heels that look alike like the ones in Topshop before I decide to get them.
It might be cheaper, I guess, back in Indonesia.

Help me!

Strike all of my plans.
Nothing's left on my travel plans.
NOTHING.
Except Indonesia.
Wth?
Screw this.
I was so excited.
Now?
I'm bummed.

Firstly, I had to say goodbye to by JB trip.
Secondly, I gave up my KL trip.
Thirdly, H1N1 killed my Korea trip.
Lastly, a busy schedule caused my Thailand trip.
(I'm not blaming you Pearls, and I'm not blaming you too Mui.
I understand (: No worries okay. There's always another chance.)

Now I'm confused.
I'm supposed to go back to Indonesia from 7 June to 11 June.
Mommy wants me to skip my dance class on 11 June and stay in Indonesia until 16 June.
The good thing is I'll be able to learn driving and might even go Bali with relatives.
The bad thing is I'll skip my dance class.

My mind's a whirlpool now.
I can't make up my mind.
I'm having a headache.

I hate this.
I hate everything.
Why must it always be like this?
Get me all hyped about all my trips.
And only seeing all of them getting crashed and cancelled one by one.

Just kill me already.

Good news for you guys.
Bad news, kinda, for me.

I'm not going Korea anymore...
And.
I have decided to NOT go M'sia.

To spend more time in Singapore to have the time to actually go out with you guys.
If I don't go out, means I'll rot at home.
Which is the bad news for me.

I have a statement that I'm sure a lot of people agree with me.
SWINE FLU IS TOTALLY ANNOYING.
I'm sorry but I just have to write that in caps.
& sorry too, but Singaporean parents are just too overly kiasu.

That caused me to cancel my trip to...
Taiwan and Korea!

Annoying.
& Pissed.

):

Cruise.
Let me summarise it with a few words.
1) Ate a lot.
2) Met a super weird guy who talked to my brother and I on the first night, and followed us until he finally said goodnight..
3) Talked a lot with brother, kinda.
4) Took a few pictures.
5) Two words to actually describe the whole 2-days plus trip: Super boring.

My brother and I totally spent the whole couple of days eating, and walking from one end to the other of the ship non stop.
That continues.
Until we go back to our room and slack..
Unless we decide to walk again.
Then we'll go up and down, front of the ship and the back of the ship.

Any oh how.
The first night there, we couldn't sleep so Mommy, my brother and I spent an hour like planning our June - September schedule.
Insanity.
People are only planning their June holiday schedule.
And ours..
Extended to September.

From today to July 3..
40 days.
& yes I'm going back to Indonesia July 3 instead of July 1.
I'm happy, pushed back by 2 days.
But, geez, stop changing the date already.

My schedule for the remaining May & June..
1) Mommy asked me to go Genting with her, Daddy and a few relatives and friends.
28 May to June 1. (5 days)
2) Go back to Indonesia, 7 June to 11 June. (5 days)
3) Thailand, not sure when, maybe 12/13 June to 17 June. (5/6 days)
4) Korea, not sure when yet, but it'll be a 8-days trip.

Ah, so many things, so little time..

I bet I gained weight on board.
So I'm going to start dieting again.
This time, all the way until I leave for Indonesia.
Plus exercise.
Yes, I already told myself to exercise.
Because I'm like super obese now.
Damn.

Bye!

I'm damn pissed.
Because of my parents' hectic June schedule.
They disallowed me to go M'sia.
!@#$
THERE GOES MY LAST CHANCE.
Don't talk to me.
Bye.

Had 2 dreams last night or rather morning.

I woke up from the 1st, remember myself repeating "No, I don't want!" over and over again.
& I was crying.
I don't remember what's it about anymore though.

2nd, dreamt about (:
It's a pretty nice dream.
Not going to elaborate on this one though.

It's only 6 weeks left to July 2nd.
I actually haven't decided on whether to leave July 1 or July 3.
Depends on my brother.
It doesn't matter actually.
I only have about 6 weeks, 42 days left in Singapore,
before I leave for Indonesia for either 4 days or 2 days,
before I officially leave S.E Asia for the US.
To the other side of the globe.

42 days.
Minus 3 days cruise.
Minus 2 days M'sia trip?
Minus 6 days Thailand trip?
Minus 8 days S. Korea trip?
Minus 6 days Indonesia trip?

I'm left with what?
17 days left in Singapore.
That is just not enough.
That's less than 3 weeks.
I still have to meet up with Mitch who'll be back in Mid June.
I still have to meet up a lot of people!

I hate schools.
If not, I'd have the chance to meet you guys every weekend.
Sucks.

Happy 22nd Anniversary Mommy & Daddy.
I love you two.
No one can ever replace you in my heart.
Thank you for bringing me up, and I'm sorry to repay you at times with my bad moods and all.
But deep inside, please know that I love you and that will never change.

&

Happy Birthday Stephanie Arifin.
Love you (:
You're old.
You're officially legal to do anything you want.
Go get married!

Two happy events on one day.
This is always the happiest day for my family.
Celebrating two things at the same time.
I can't wait for my parents' anniversary 3 years later.
Oh, and my grandparents' 50th anniversary next year!

Time flies.

Hahaha, I know I haven't been blogging as much as a few weeks back.
But at least it's not like the time back in January and February.
I wouldn't even post when I'm super bored.
Oh well.
To make it up, long wordy post ahead!

Anyway, I'm in such a dilemma now.
I don't know if I should cut my hair.

Short?
Bangs?
Trim?
Layer?

Stephie said I should just chop 2/3 of my hair.
Hahaha.

Daddy said okay when I asked him if I could go Thailand.
Mommy wants me to go back Indo, so maybe I will, for 6 days.
Every trip of mine will be only 6 days max.
Except for Korea I guess, 8 days.
Stupid hip-hop class.
Hahaha.
I want to go Bali too!
But I need to spend time here too.
I need to hang out with my friends before I leave.

June is their holiday, and I'll be flying around?
What the hell Caroline..

Okay, still thinking about cutting hair.
Okay, I've decided.
I'm not going to cut short.
Never in my life.
Okay, I don't know what other hairstyles are there.

Jerevien Poon!
We go try wigs okay.
Hahahaha.

I need to shop.
Badly.
I can't wait to go Thailand..
Shopping for a whole new collection of clothes for my new life in the US.
:D

Oh, Daddy only opened one room for cruise this Friday.
So I'll have my brother clinging onto me for the whole duration..
Oh well, it'll be fun.
I can hang out with my dearest brother, with him not being stuck to his stupid computer game all day long.
We can go eat non stop.

Oh, speaking of which.
I've decided to stop the 7 day diet thing.
It's a torture.
Okay, maybe for this week only.
I need a break.

Cruise.
I haven't been on board for like years.
We used to go every few months.
I think I haven't step my foot onto Superstar Virgo since 4 years ago.
What a miracle.
I bet all the crews we used to know are all not working there anymore.
How sad..
No more free food! Hahaha, kidding.
That was only this one time.
The chef gave my siblings and I complimentary French Fries.

Oh well..
I need a break from this super mundane life of mine.
I really need something to spice up my life.
Ah, when will it come?

Because of cruise, I can't meet up with Haziqah & Verna this Saturday.
Sorry guys.
Will catch up with you guys after that okay!
Because of cruise, Alyssa couldn't meet me up for a retail therapy.
Sorry Alyssa.
I'll see you soon!
You're my shopping consultant so no worries.
I'll definitely go shopping with you.

I'm still up at 441am.
I should be asleep.
I need my at-least-6-hours of beauty sleep.
I ate chicken rice like, 2 to 3 hours back.
I did hula a bit, then Mommy stopped me from continue-ing.
Because I hula-ed after I ate.

So, I've been chatting with Tracy a lot.
Crapping not chatting.
Hahaha.
We talked about height and weight the most.
Our two favourite topics.

It's so funny how girls are so mad over their appearance.
I'm not going to point my finger at anyone, because I'm one of them too.
If I were to talk about somebody on this topic, I'll talk about myself.
I'm crazy last week.
Eating nothing but fruits and vegetables most of the time.
Not consuming any carbohydrates for 7 days.
Can you imagine that?

Oh well, I still can't get myself off the couch to go to the gym.
I am a seriously hopeless lazy bum.
I need to shed off like tens of pounds off me.
Before all of my trips.

Help me.

I'm talking to James online.
Hahah, I know you're reading this, James.
We haven't skype for ages.
We stopped when... Your sister stayed at your place for a few days!
Hahah, yeap, that's when we stopped.

I was supposed to go back to Indo, 5 June to 11 June.
I told Patrick, because he was supposed to go back with me.
But he went "No, cannot, I've my primary school gathering."
So I dont know if I'm going back..

But it made me have the urge to call up all of my primary school friends.
I need to meet up with you guys.
Definitely.
And my secondary school friends too.
I'll never forget you guys.
And my seniors, like Shuhui who I'm going to meet soon.

I really can't bear to leave this place, my second home.
Even though I really can't stand the weather of this country.
Even though I'm really sick of the same shopping malls I can only go to over and over again.
Even though there's no theme parks to make me go wild for.
Even though some of the people here are really horrible.
Even though this place is not perfect,
this place is still the piece of land that I've been living for 10 years.

I'll definitely leave this place with buckets of tears.
I will not leave all of my memories here, even though I'm sure I'll leave those unnecessary ones behind.
I will bring the memories I spent with you where ever I go.
All of them are imprinted at the back of my mind.
I will remember you guys and have your pictures up on my wall in the US.

I just hope..
You guys will remember me, and miss me as much as I will be doing so.

I haven't do the diet thing for 2 days.
I've been eating a lot ):
Shucks.

Starting tomorrow again.
Hahah. I have to...

Bye!

Cruise this Friday :D
Stephie and Kristie is coming along.
Wipeedooooo.
Okay, bye!

Even though not as many people as we expected came for the party.
Ultimately, it was fun.
Met people who I haven't see for years.
Deborah, Rachel, Shuyi.
I was the "maid" for the night because I was afraid the security guard will kill me for making a mess out of the function room.
Oh well, after the party, Kenneth, Jerevien, Shereen and Tracy stayed until about 3am.
Played a few card games, loser had to drink a cup of mixed drinks.
Rules changed after that, loser had to eat a plate of food.
This was to make sure there isn't so much food left.
Overall, I'm sure all of us had fun.
Even the cake was commented to be nice (:

I didn't take photos.
Surprised?
I wasn't allowed to, because Jerevien's friend, Felicia wanted to be the photographer of the day.
And when we, Alyssa, Deborah, Rachel, Shuyi and myself camwhored at my place, we used Shuyi's camera.
So, hold on for the pictures.

Anyway, M'sia trip, only going for a day or two.
Korea trip, not planned yet.
Taiwan, should be impossible.
Because.. Mui asked me to go Thailand.
I'll ask Mommy tomorrow. I think she'll allow me to go Thailand rather than Taiwan.
Since I've Mui in Thailand!
Let's see how it goes.
I need to discuss about Korea trip with Pearls ASAP.
Mom's complaining, still, about me joining dance class because it's ruining her plans and mine.
She said I can't go back to Indonesia now because of that and stuff like, I've no time to learn driving..
Oh wells.
Plus, Jerevien and her classmates are thinking, not confirmed, to go to Bali.
And she wants me to go along, but I don't know if I can.
That just means I need to plan my June holiday like now!
How many places in a month will just kill me.
But at least I won't be bored!

On my diet, it was going well, lost like 2kg, until Tracy's birthday party.
Ate a lot compared to the previous diet week I survived.
I started the diet the day after her party, but not so strict.
As in, I've been eating one/two chocolates per day.
And I've been doing Hula.
I'm going to get off my lazy ass to skip.
Gymming the other day with Tracy before her party made my legs ache like mad.
I was doing Cardio for 50 mins straight without stopping.
Normally with my trainer, he'd ask me to do 30 mins and I'll stop countless number of times and whine nonstop.

I'm getting a number of mosquito bites I think.
Hahaha, random.

I'm still up at 321am, when I need to be up at about 9am tomorrow.
Going to my relative's place and stuff.
I need my at least 6 hours of sleep.
Any lesser than that = getting fatter easily.
Hahaha.

Oh, did I mention there's something wrong with my fridge?
It's not cold.
All the things inside are not cold.
That sucks.

Tracy just typed "blogged" as "voted" on MSN.
How retarded...
Hahaha, oh, you know she've like 3 Spongebob Squarepants as her birthday gifts?
And she was telling me how if she wants to hug one, she needs to hug all.
Only then will she be fair to all 3 of them.
Hahha, hilarious.

I really hate schools.
They're taking all of my friends away.
We hardly even meet up anymore.
During June holiday, we're so going to meet up okay.
The last few chances of us getting together before I leave for the US.
I miss you guys.
Tao Nan Knights and Manjusrians, all of you guys.
I'll try to not be lazy and plan outings since I'm the super free one.
Hahahah. I'll let you guys know again.

Okay, it's 327am now.
My mom just came out of the room to ask me to sleep...
But I'm not tired.
Because recently I've been a really huge pig, sleeping at least 9 hours.
I slept for 12 hours the other day.
4am to 4pm on the day of Tracy's party.
And yesterday, 7am to 4pm.
Okay, I better say my goodbye now!
Ciao.

10kg in 2 weeks is going to be extremely tough.
I've planned my daily exercise routine.
Hahahaha. Don't laugh.
Okay, go ahead and laugh.

Heheh, no matter what, I'll make sure I'm going to lose that 10kg!
I need to.

I need to get off my ass and start going to the gym.
I need to lose weight fast!

I just did 3000 plus hula turns just now.
Thanks to the Digital Hula thing, that's how I know many turns did I do.
I'm not so stupid to count one by one.
On the average, 1 minute = 90 hula turns.
Hahahaha.
Sweat like crazy just now.

I'm getting lazy to study Jap.
I'm getting lazy to do Jap homework.

Okay, I need to lose weight now now now.
Like 10 more kilograms by 2 weeks!
I need to gym everyday ):
I shall swim too.
Hahahaha.
I shall! Determination!

Okay, watching Bourne Ultimatum now.
It's my 3rd time watching I think.
Omg, I'm too bored.
Bye!

What did I eat today.
Hm.

Fruits, Corn, Grass Jelly, Milk and Milo packet.
Hahah, day #4 was supposed to be Banana and Milk day.
But I failed because I don't have any Bananas at home.
Bananas are fattening anyway, compared to the fruits I had today.
So I think it's good. (:

Okay, movie time with parents now.
Bye!

Today's Day #4 of the diet.
I think I lost about 1.5kg so far.
Can't wait until Day #7 is over.
After that is Tracy's birthday party.
Then we might be continue-ing this diet thing for another week.
Heheh, this is exciting.

Catching up with Pearls tomorrow!
We've been changing our date for like 2 times or so.
Once was because I'm sick.

I'm watching Hollow Man 2 now. Hahaha.

Today sucks because I don't know if I can do my diet thing today.
Since Daddy's coming back and he wants to have dinner.
To celebrate yesterday's Mother's Day.

Mother's Day.
I love you Mommy, you are always there for me regardless of the situation.
I'm not worried about having no one's support because I know you'll always support me.
Heheh, I know I'm always very moody.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I didn't get you anything too.
Its just that I didn't know what to get because you seem to have everything.
On Thursday night, you said you didn't want anything, you just wanted a hug and a kiss.
You never asked for anything from us, except good grades, being fillial and stuff like that.
I'm sorry to disappoint you with my O level result.
I know you expected better, because I said I could have gotten an A1 for both of my Maths and my Chemistry.
Who ever knew that Cambridge will moderate everything like crazy.
I'm sorry I did so badly for O level.
I should have studied harder.
I'm sorry I only started studying seriously like two weeks before the exams.
I'll excel in my schoolwork when I go over to the States.
I promise.
Anyway, Happy Mother's Day Mommy.
I'll always love you (:
~xoxo

Okay, I'm sweating.
I hate Singapore's weather.

Diet-ing is super difficult.
I swear.

Anyway, I found the video that I thought I lost last month.
Hahahaha.
I'm so happy (:

Okay, I'm going to watch my tv now.
Goodbye!

Lunch: 1/2 a Cucumber, Papaya, this other fruit and Milo packet.
In between: Oranges.
Dinner: 2 Corns and Milo packet.

Day 3 of the diet, done.

Today's lunch: Papaya, Vitagen + a packet of Milo.
Today's dinner: Watermelon and some other fuit.

And of course water throughout the day (:

I want to go travelling now!
Taiwan, Korea, Japan, Beijing (to visit my cousin), Indonesia & a lot more..

I shall visit every country next time.
Capture shots of every part of the world.
I will do this with my future husband/loved one. (:

Pearls: I'm already sick of slacking at home.
Me: I'm already dying of rotting.
Pearls: Same, I want to go on a holiday!
Me: Same! But now with the Swine Flu! Let's go somewhere!
Pearls: KOREA.

-Me telling Mommy about the conversation above-
Mommy: Go lah.

-Me telling Pearls about what Mommy said-
Pearls: HAHAH, I go ask my Mommy.

Hehehe.

Cold Storage today with Mommy and brother.
Spend like almost hundred bucks on fruits, vegetables and 2 bottles of milk.
The trolley was filled with fruits actually.
Hahahah.

Starting the diet thing tomorrow.
Started during dinner actually.
(As you can see from my previous post)

I did sit-ups, cruntches and these 2 other thingy that I don't know how to explain.
Hehehe.
Woo, dieting & exercising, here I come.

Want to know what's my dinner tonight?
Hahahah.

It is...

Hahaha.
Okay, add Papaya to that too (:
& a packet of Milo.

Bye!

When Marco Pierre White got his 3 Michelin Stars.
He's supposed to be the happiest guy on Earth at that very moment.
But he said he felt sad.
Because it's somehow the end.
There's no more Michelin Stars for him to achieve.

How true.
When we make our #1 dream come true, that will be the end.
We'll have nothing to look forward to.
Isn't that sad.
But to normal people like us, who are not Marco Pierre White, we will probably feel really super happy after achieving something we've been dreaming for years or so.

First thing first, will we have enough motivation and determination to ensure that we will actually achieve our dream, our goal?
As long as we've enough motivation and determination, even if we've no luck and the chance to make our dream come true, we'll achieve it in the end.

Let's all work towards our dream.
Motivate one another, push one another until we actually achieve it.
Good luck!

I just want to say how much I love my friends.
Especially my two Primary School Best Bitches, Alyssa Wee and Michelle Chang.
And those in Secondary School, Cheng Huihui, Jerevien Poon, Leonard Thio, Nurul Haziqah, Su Jialin, Supanan Mui, Verna Sukiat. (Alphabetical Order)
My 10 years friend, Janet Lau Shan Xiu!

You know what, those are just a few names.
I love every single one of you (:

I will never forget you guys when I go over to the US.
We better meet up more before I actually leave.
And take more photos.
I'll stick all of them on my wall when I'm there.
<3

I'm going to buy the Hula Hoop tomorrow.
It's a replacement for the other Hula Hoop.
I think Mommy want to start the diet tomorrow.
It's either tomorrow or Friday.

And I'm going to start exercising everyday.
I'll try to do so.
Instead of rotting every single day at home.
I'll go for Yoga at least 4 times a week.
And I'm going to skip! Grow taller... Kinda impossible, I know.

I'm going on a super diet thingy now.
Hehe. I'm doing cruntches before I sleep now.
It's torture! But I'll torture myself for 3 weeks now.

I can't believe Mommy allows me to go to M'sia! Hahaha.
I shall ask her about Taiwan tomorrow. (:
Bye!

I'm going to try this 7 Day Diet thing.
James's sister did the diet and lost 10 pounds in 1 week!
Hahahaha, woo!
My Mommy's with me on this. Hahaha.
Cool eh? :D





为你掉眼泪。

I'm eating healthily for dinner.
Yogurt + Cereal with Milk.
Plus 10 pieces of an unhealthy food, fries.
Just 10 though!

Mom just asked if I wanted anything from Newton.
So she's getting Duck Rice + Popiah + Watermelon Juice!
I'm going fatter by like 64982712Kg.

I can't eat hard stuff right after I take my retainers off.
Hahahaha. Okay, CSI! Bye.

I'm going to PCC for only ONE semester, and I'm going to transfer to SMC.
And I'm going to PCC alone.
Yes, alone.
No more Steph, because for some reason her application to PCC is super complicated.
She need to take some test to prove that her O level is up to the high school standard there or something.
What rubbish is that?
I didn't have such problem.
That is unacceptable!
And since she's accepted in SMC, she'll just go there.
It sucks that Steph and her friend is accepted in SMC, when I am older than them by months.
Why is that so?
It's so unfair.
Now I've to go PCC alone for 3 months.
A totally new environment, alone.
And I'm shy, that sucks. I'll have no friends.
I'm going to stay alone for that 3 months too I think.
Ah, how troublesome is that.
So many chores to do and all, okay, I don't really mind.
But still..
Oh my God. Save me.

I'm going to leave on July 5, ALONE.
Mommy will only go to the US after I'm done with all of my Orientation thingy.
Then we'll find a place to rent or something.
And I'll rot for another 1.5 months there.
Now you know how bad is it to be me.
Thanks.

Oh, on the bright side.
I can see Mitch when she comes back next month, and after her family trip!
She'll be here like 2 weeks or lesser than that actually, before I leave for Indonesia.
Finally, after like, NINE months (for now), since last August!
By next month, it'll be like 10 months after I last see her when I get the chance to actually see her!
I miss you bitch. ):

The things I hate in life right now.
#1, how fat I am.
#2, how lazy I am to go to the gym.
#3, how it sucks to have ALL of your friends in school.
#4, how I have to stay home and rot with nothing to do.
#5, how boring my life is.

I need some excitements.
Something different.
I need a spark.
Something to make me occupied.
I need the luck and the chance.
That is what I'm lacking.
I need my luck and chance to come now.
Now.

See how time flies?
It's already May.
Two more months and it'll be July.
It seems like it was only yesterday that I'm in Las Vegas, getting ready for the countdown for the year 2009.
In a flash, it'll be the countdown for the year 2010.

Time should slow down.
It's moving too fast.

I saw Patricia Mok during dinner today.

I've been sweating a lot.
I dislike Singapore's weather.
I don't know how I could endure this for the past 10 years.
I'm shocked and proud of myself. Hahah.
Okay, it wasn't as bad last time.
Blame us.
Global warming.
The end of the world is nearing.
Say goodbye now.

Hahah, I'm not going to say goodbye until I fulfill my wishes and dreams.
Hehe, okay.
I'm going to take my medicine now.
I forgot about it.
And tomorrow will be the last day of taking medicines.
Means I can stop eating after tomorrow.
I feel so bad for eating these days because I've to take my medicines.
Hahaha, I shall go to the gym tomorrow afternoon before Piano.
Then I might go walk to Botanics in the evening, after Piano, with Mommy.
But it's not a confirmed thing, since Mommy's always being lazy to go.
Hahah, shall make her go by saying she's fat now.
But that's so mean.
Ah, okay, nevermind. To lose weight. Hahaha.

Piano Piano! Okay, bye!

Yes, I'm very sure.
I will make it happen.

My Mommy was telling me about how people who are suspected of having the Swine Flu are given this medicine called Tamiflu.
The doctor gave me Tamiflu as one of the 3 medicines he gave me the other day.
:/

Thank goodness I'm fine now.

I think I need to change my glasses soon.
Things seem a little blurry.
I can't wait until I'm 18.
Lasik!

Ah, I've so many things on my mind.
Ah, I need to lose weight. Hahaha.

I wanted to say something.
But I forgot..
Nevermind. Hahaha.
I'll most probably blog again anyway.
Okay, Ghost Whisperer's starting soon.
Bye!

Junlin actually knows how to type my Chinese name.
Hahah, that's surprising (:
I thought he'll type "Niao Niao" or something. Hahaha.

Okay, bye!

I'm fine now! I think.
I was like 36.3 in the afternoon.
My grandma said I'm having slight fever now though..

Haziqah and Verna surprised me at home, just to visit me.
Thank you so much hehe, love you guys (:

Ah, I don't want to leave ):
2 months. How quick will that day arrive?
In a blink of an eye? Or even faster?

Did I tell you I brushed my teeth like 5/6 times yesterday.
Hahaha. And like 3/4 times today?
Insanity.

I don't know if I can go Malaysia and Taiwan now.
Because of all the Swine Flu thing.
Ah, so sad ):
I want to go!
I hope Asia won't have any case of the Swine Flu thing.
Hope so..

My fever was as bad as 39.4 degrees.
I was okay at about midnight with only 37.5 degrees.
I went up at 6am until 38.5 degrees.
My grandparents compressed my forehead with ice.

Oh, when I was 39.4 degrees, it was like 830pm.
Clinics were closed.
So I went for the 24 hour clinic thing over at Gleneagles.
There were so many people in the clinic you know.
A lot of Indonesians :/

I've been resting so much, I feel like a pig.
Okay, bye!

Hello.
I was 37 degrees at 12pm plus or something, when I was sleeping.
(My brother took my temperature for me.)
And like half an hour ago, I felt myself burning up.
My temperature went up at 38.1 again.
Ah, but I didn't go to the doctor. I was sleeping.
I feel like a pig. Ate breakfast and medicine, called my Jap class to reschedule a make up lesson.
Then I went back to sleep.
Then I woke up for lunch and medicine.
But I haven't go back to sleep hehe.
I feel like a pig.

I haven't fall sick for damn long.
Like, Secondary 3 and 4, I never took an MC before.
And now, high fever. Tsktsk.

My Mommy must be having a headache right now.
Actually, my parents and grandparents should be having a headache right now.
Both my brother and I are sick.
Steph was like asking me to be careful because of the Swine Flu thing going on now.
So many people are falling sick! I know of 5 or something who are down with fever, cough and headache right now.

This is bad.

Okay, ciao!

Remember the other day, I was like.
I rather it be me who's sick.

Wish granted.

My brother's getting better, only down with cough now.
Temperature of 36 point something.

But.

I woke up at 7, freezing, normally I'll be sweating because grandma opens the door in the morning.
I wore socks. I was dizzy.
I went to take my temperature. 37.6, slight fever.
I went back to sleep, still freezing.
Woke up at 9 with a worse headache.
Went to take my temperature again, 38.6. High fever.

I'm going to the doctor if I'm not better by 2pm.

Okay, just took medicine.
Bye.

My teeth hurts. My upper set of teeth.
It hurts when I eat SUSHI.
Hahaha, must be because of the retainers.
My dentist made the upper one really tight.
Ha, okay.

Since 11+am, I've only had Tori Q at like 6pm.
Until now, sushi and pineapple.
Hahaha, okay.
Bye!

Say hello to my retainers! Hehehe.
I'm a happy girl.
And I'm already lazy to take it out since the dentist just now.
If I want to put it back after eating, I've to brush my teeth first.
So lazy okay. Hahaha.

Ah, guilty for spending almost a thousand on classes, doctors, brother's medication stuff and two hundred for the booking of the pool area thing.
At least it's not for shopping. Hahaha.

Okay, two classes of Yoga later.
Exciting.
I'm kinda busy today, hehe.
About 2 hours spent in Gleneagles.
Then an hour spent in Dentist.
Piano for a bit just now. Played it until my brother scolded me because he's watching Naruto on tv and it's annoying him.
Hahaha.
Going to continue later.

Ah, I'm going to change to shorts now because it's so hot.
I can't belive I'm wearing jeans.
I wore jeans twice in this week now.
Surprise Surprise!

Hahaha, Okay, I need to make new specs soon.
Scratches appeared out of the blue.
Oh, my eye's okay now. Hehehe. Still a little red but it's fine.

I feel like munching on snacks.
But retainers are stopping me from doing so.
This is good. Hahahaha.
Bye.

Brother's down with cough and fever.
It was really high.
Then it was better with a temperature of 38.
Now, it's back to high fever.

I rather it being me who's sick right now.
He's having his Mid Year Examinations soon.
How can he concentrate like that?
I mean, I've no school and examinations.
I can just lie down on the bed whole day being sick.
I want him to do well for his examinations.
It's his streaming year.
I worry for him.

I'm scared that it's dengue.
Those flies have been spotted around my condo area.
Going to the hospital tomorrow.
I don't trust clinics.

Signed up for Hip Hop classes already.
Started my Piano today. It was fun.
I think I play really badly on the Piano though.
I'll work hard, and continue when I go over to the US.
I'll go for those with grades examinations when I'm there.
I shall work hard. I will.

I just realised once again the importance of money.
And how fast do I spend the money that my Daddy have to work so hard for.
Today, I withdrew $500 at first. Almost all are spent on the two classes.
Piano and Hip Hop.
Then I remembered I've to book the Pool Area.
But I withdrew a $100, which was not enough. I'm so blur.
So, I have to wait until tomorrow.
I feel really bad for spending so much.
And still wanting to join so many classes..
But joining classes and spending the money in this sense is better than spending on clothes right? I feel so so so so so bad for spending this amount of money.
Even though Mommy allowed me to attend as many classes as I want.
But never have the price really crossed my mind.
I'm such a bad daughter.
I shouldn't spend so much money. I'm only 17 for God's sake.

I mean, what's the point on shopping everyday and spending money on clothes that you will not wear after some time?
Ah, I'm starting to resent shopping.
I haven't shop in weeks, or rather months.. I think. I can't remember the last time I shopped.
But but, I've to shop at Marina Square or Wisma Atria before I leave.
I have vouchers that I haven't spend at all.
Who's willing to be my shopping partner?
(This is your cue Alyssa!)

Back to topic.

Cheryl, Junlin and Weixing came over to my place.
Talked a lot. Missed them.
Laughed a lot too.
Played the piano, and sang a few Choir pieces too.
Gave them a lot of things for them to revise for the big Os.
They left at about 9+.
You're welcome for everything by the way guys.
It was not a problem. Hehe.
You guys should come more often.. Before I leave for the US.

I'm going to sleep early tonight.
To wake up early to go along with my gramps to bring my brother to Gleneagles.
I've to go back at 2pm again for my eye checkup.
Then I signed up for Bollywood Fusion and Hot Hour tomorrow.
I need to go Yoga more oftenly.
I'm still thinking of what other classes to join.

Retainers are not done yet.
But the receptionist said it'll be done by this week.
So I'm looking forward to that.

Oh, I've to go down to the US Embassy one day too.
To make my student Visa.
I kinda have a lot of things to decide on and to do this week.
This is exciting.
I want to have things to do everyday.
I don't even mind sacrificing my sleep.

I don't want to leave Singapore in less than 10 weeks time.
That's just too fast.
It'll zoom past us in a blink of an eye.
Time passes so quickly that it seemed like only yesterday when we were all like saying how far away is Poly and stuff like that.
Now? One week of Poly have started.
The second work have begun.
The clock is ticking away and the date of me leaving for the US is nearing.

I can't bear to leave on July 1st, the day I go back to Indonesia.
Knowing that, that will be the day that you guys are going to send me off.
I'll be flying straight to the US from Indonesia, only transit-ing for less than 2 hours?
The feeling sucks.
I'm getting a headache right now.
My hair's dripping water onto my legs.
I'm sitting on the floor with my laptop on the bed.
I don't know why I'm in this position.

I feel super duper extremely overly obese recently.
I've been snacking, which is bad.
I'm going to not eat from tomorrow onwards.
Just fruits or vege.
That's it.
I'm not going to buy anymore snacks, since the trio who came today helped me finish most of the snack at home.
I'm happy.
I'm sad.
I want to lose weight.
Everyone's saying I'm fatter.
But no one believes I'm __kg.
Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
I don't know. But I'm going to lose until I'm happy with my weight.
I'm going to lose until I see a __kg on the weighing scale.
I will.
By June, latest July.

I have edit-ted this post, thrice now.
Oh wells. Goodnight.

Joining one class after another.
Finally came to a decision on when I'm leaving for Indonesia.

I asked Mommy if I was left with Reversing and Parking thing to learn.
And she said that I've to learn everything.
So I asked her, how long will it take?
She said it'll take very fast.
So I asked her again, how fast is very fast? One week? One day? Hahah.
And she went...

One hour. You are a fast learner, one hour is enough.

Aw, look at how sweet is Mommy. Hehe.
So I'm going back to Indonesia on July 1st.
I'm only going back for 4 days.
1 July, 2 July, 3 July, 4 July.
And morning flight on 5th July.

Oh, I'm wondering if I should have a farewell party thing.
It'll be so sad ):
But that'll be when I can actually meet up with all of my friends again, before I leave.
Hm, should I? Hehe. Comments please. Thank you very much.
Speaking of party, Tracy's going to hold her birthday party at my place on 15th May!
On the other hand, farewell party means all of my friends will be there.
And it'll be hard to communicate with all of them.
Should I just have small meet ups with different groups?
So, farewell party or group meet ups?
Which is better?
Help me out! Hehe.

Busy busy busy. Busy me.

Sigh, you guys won't be able to send me off on July 5th.
If I'm really taking that flight on July 5th..

Jakarta (CGK) 06:15 to Singapore (SIN) 08:50
Singapore(SIN) 09:40 to Tokyo (NRT) 17:35
Tokyo(NRT) 18:45 to Los Angeles (LAX) 13:00

If that's really the case. I need to transit straight away.
You guys can only send me off on the day I'm leaving to Indonesia.
Sigh, I'm still leaving to another island that doesn't have my friends for 4 days, before actually leaving to the piece of land that is a total stranger to me.

I can't bear to leave all of you. Really.

I find myself repeating what I've posted again and again and again.
Oh wells.

Checking in with school on the day I arrive itself, or on July 6, the day after I arrive.
I need to have all the registering things, placement tests, and everything going on.
They stated that every student must have like 2 hours talk or something with the counsellor, in order for us to go along with the teacher that we are most suited with?
Then I must choose my classes.
Then Orientation's starting on July 10.

After that, I'll have like 1.5 months of break.
School only starts on 31 August.

1.5 months. What am I going to do during that time.
Learn driving. Take the driving test.
Look for a place to rent?
And after that, I've nothing to do!
I rather rot in Singapore than in the US.
At least I've friends here who I can meet time to time with.

Oh wells.
I'm having flu.
My brother's having a fever and a cough.
We fell sick on the same day.
He's not going to school tomorrow.
I've no school tomorrow.
Hahaha.

Going to register for classes tomorrow.
And starting my piano lessons tomorrow.

Going back to the eye doctor on Tuesday.
Oh, I think I'll call up my dentist and go back on Tuesday if possible.
I can't wait for my retainers to get here.

Japanese lessons on Wednesday.
Meeting Pearls on Thursday.

I can't believe I actually planned everything out. Hahaha.
Okay, I actually changed to be those "I must plan beforehand" type of person already.
June holidays are not properly planned yet though.
Which sucks badly.

Okay, bye!

My heart is filled with hope, pain and sadness.
My heart is tearing into millions of pieces.
It's tearing in its own sweet pace.
My whole body, every part of it, is filled with so much pain.
The pain is so strong that my tears are flowing with no restrictions.
I try to hold it back, but it's too over powering and I can't control it any long.
My eyes are now running taps. I can't seem to off it.
I feel like I'm going to drown in my own tears.

I'm not love sick, or torn over someone.
I'm like this because of a drama.
I'm insane, thanks.
It's just too sweet and I can't help it.

Sigh, wouldn't it be filled with excitement, if our lives are like those in dramas?
It'll be filled with romance, laughter, excitement.
But what are laughter without anything to compare?
How do you know if you're happy if you don't experience sadness?
It's the same logic as how you differentiate good and bad people.
How do you know who are nice if there's no bad guys to compare with?

I'll stop this.
Drama awaits. Just another last two discs to the end of this drama.

I'll never stop give up on my dream.
别怕白日梦，对吗？
I will work towards it.

Exactly 10 more weeks to July 5.
The description above, I believe, will not even be a bit close to how I will feel on that day itself.
I can't bear to leave you guys here.
How can I leave my family? Especially my brother?
We've been together, fighting everyday over the little-est things ever.
It's weird to not even quarrel with you in a day.
My best friends, Alyssa Wee, Jerevien Poon, Nurul Haziqah, Verna Sukiat.
My good friends, everyone who have always been beside me, being there when I need someone.
I'm not going to list everyone.
I love every one of you and I mean that.
I'll leave Singapore with my heart not being in a whole.

Bye.

What's worse than leaving your friends behind in Singapore and going to a new unfamiliar place?
What's worse than having to go to a completely new environment, meeting people who can be awesomely nice, strange or just creepy.

My friends won't be able to send me off on the actual day of me leaving.
I'll be flying straight from Indo.
(Most probably..)

Waiting for Mommy to confirm with me.
If not, it'll be a morning flight from Indonesia to Singapore.
Then Singapore to Tokyo.
Then Tokyo to Los Angeles.

Sucks to be me.

Me: "How long will it take to learn driving?"
Mommy: "Depends on you. I think you can already, tinggal latihan aja."

Yay, Mommy believe in me. (:

Me: "Cause I want to join this Hip Hop class. But the class starts 12 May, ends on 30 June."
Mommy: "Now you have Japanese and Yoga, so how?"
Me: "I go back for one week before 12 May? In between my Jap class?"

Mommy says she can't make it because she's going to Macau and grandparents are going back to Indonesia.
Saying that I've to take care of my brother.. Again.

Me: "Then how?"
Mommy: "Don't know leh."
Me: "Mommy, if I want to join classes I just join ah, hehehe. I very bored at home. I go learn dance and stuff."
Mommy: "Ya sdh, you join aja. Soal driving nanti Mommy ajarin di LA jg bisa."

This conversation just showed that I don't have to go back to Indonesia until the end of June.
Which means I can stay in Singapore longer!
Or rather one choice being crossed out.
But I've other choices and I haven't make my plans yet!
Horrible.

Oh, there's some racing thing going on outside now.
I think it's either the Lamborghini club people, or the Ferrari club people.
So noisy.

Okay, back to topic.
I'm going to join a lot of classes to kill time.
I just called up my Piano teacher, lessons resume this Monday.
After a year plus. Finally.
I'm thinking of joining 3 dance classes.
In addition of my Piano, and I'm thinking of joining Guitar or Violin or Flute or Drums? Hahah.
Oh, and Tennis!

Which should I join?

Oh, the room just started to spin.
Bye.

Bollywood Fusion!
The instructor really knows me already.
Hahaha. Made 3 new friends today.
Saw one of them in a previous class before.
Two of them are adults, one of them is a student.
Hahah, exchanged numbers with the student.
Planning to attend more classes together.
Hehe.

I'm going to ask Mommy if I can join dance classes.
Bye.

The thing that I'm really scared of, is when there's something wrong with my eyes.
I was really scared that my current condition is really serious.

Thankfully the doctor said it's nothing serious.
Two eyedrops and some cream.

Back from the doctor in an hour's time.
Going out in another hour's time.
Bollywood Fusion.

xoxo.

My eye is still red.
My eye is hurting bad.
I'm scared something happened to it.
Hopefully the doctor will say nothing's wrong with it, and just give me a couple of medicine to make it feel better.
I don't mind not wearing contacts for good.
I can go for Lasik after next February, after I turn 18.

I won't be able to go to the doctor tomorrow.
They only open from 9am to 12noon.
They don't open on Sunday too.
I think I'll have to go on Monday instead. Sucks.
Unless I try to go tomorrow morning.

I don't even know when is my visit to the dentist again.

I shall control and stop myself from going to the supermarket to shop for snacks.
Bad for both my teeth, and my weight.
After the batch of snacks from my house is in whoever's stomach, and are gone from the food drawer, which is always beside me, I shall not get anymore snacks.

Ah, my eye really hurts.
I think it's because of the other day when I was putting on the facial mask.
Something went in my eyes.
I washed them straight, duh.
But the thing is my left one doesn't hurt a bit now. Only my right hurts.
When I took out my contacts just now, my left one was clear, my right one was a bit milky.
I'm super scared right now.
I am.
I'm having thoughts of what happened to my eye.
):

Oh, the food on the cooking show I'm watching now is really looking good.
But so fattening.
But so pretty.

I'm scared.

My right eye's giving me a lot of trouble.
It's always going red.
I need to have another visit to the doctor again.

School Anniversary.
It was okay, same as the past 4 years.
Most of the 4E1 went up stage today. Hehe.
Saw a lot of classmates, ex-classmates actually and juniors.
Missed them.
Didn't talk a lot of photos though.
Said "hello" to a handful of teachers. Mrs Kong came back!
She told Mrs Yong something. Mrs Yong told it to me when she came to me.
"Mrs Kong said you grew fatter." Then I was like, "Yeah, I know, nothing to do."
Hahah, we laughed over me going fatter because I've no school now.
And there's nothing for me to do.
But she said I'll lose weight when I go overseas, due to being miserable.
She's so cute. Hahah.

Had Prata after that, talked quite a bit with Haziqah & Verna. (:
Went home after that.

My eye's so red.
I better call up my doctor tomorrow morning and hopefully I can get a slot to visit him in the afternoon or evening.
He's a busy doctor. Busy busy busy.

Okay, bye!

I feel like blogging suddenly.

I feel like a super boring person.
A person with no life.
A mundane life.
With the same routine of waking up, doing nothing, killing the time by watching dramas and using the computer.
That's it.

I want an exciting life.
Every single time I see stars on televisions, I always wonder how is it to have a life like them.
Sure it has pros and cons.
Everything has their pros and cons.
Wouldn't it be exciting if I could have such an exciting life?

I wouldn't have to wake up and do nothing everyday.
I would wake up, with a packed schedule for the day.
Doing things that will take a lot of work, but that will be a lot of fun as well.
Making new friends and all.

Seriously, if I were a celebrity, wouldn't it be really cool?
How I wish I could have the chance to try to be one.

Acting, my interest ever since young. Hence my CCA to be English Drama in Tao Nan.
I don't know why it's been my interest since young.
It just is.
And I really hope to be an actress one day.
I wanted to take Theatre arts or something as a major, but Daddy doesn't allow.
I don't want my dream of becoming an actress to disappear like that.
I'll try my very best to make it come true.

Singing, Choir as CCA in MJR.
In Primary School, I remember my Mommy was on the phone with her friend.
And I was singing in the background.
And the next thing I heard was my Mommy saying that her friend is saying that my singing is not good.
Since then, my self-confidence crashed.
I never dared to sing in front of anyone ever again.
The irony of joining Choir in Secondary School.

In Lower Secondary, I know I was a super low-self esteemed girl.
I cry just by being asked to stand in front of the class to say some lines.
I agree I was a coward then.

I was scared of teachers, except for Mrs Tan-Sia.
(I'm sorry for the times we ignored your teachings and continued playing in the class ignoring your warnings. I didn't know how to respect you, until the end of Secondary 2, when I realised that it wasn't you who were losing out, it was me, myself who was losing out because it's my future that I was throwing aside. I'm sorry and thank you for teaching me for two years.)
I remember how scared of Mdm Tay I was.
I studied Chemistry really hard, and topped the class.
Chemistry was the only section of Science that I loved.
And have ever loved. At the end of Secondary 3 & early Secondary 4, I know I crashed.
I didn't study for a few important chapters. And my result dropped from an average of B to a F9.
See the difference in my result?

Wait, why am I talking about my results?
Let me get back to my story.

I was a coward, really. I was.
But in Secondary 3, I was slightly better.
Doing short skits before the class was alright.
It was fun actually.
Being in Choir also helped.
Fashion Parade for two years also helped.
I find myself singing in random places.
I even sit in Newton MRT Station and pretend to get bullied and whined super loudly.

Isn't that a sign of my self-confidence being better than before?

Okay, main point of my post is that I want a more fun and exciting life.
Actress is my main priority now.

Go ahead and laugh.

I need to sleep now. It's almost 330am.
I've Bollywood Fusion class at 11am.
That is 7.5 hours later.
Goodnight.

Had lunch with my Mommy, my Grandparents and my aunt (not related).
I feel so bad for eating so much.
Like, a small bowl of Fried Rice, two small bowls of Fried Fish Bee Hoon thingy (Mommy filled my bowl up after I finished my first bowl), a few mouthful of Hor Fun and my favourite, vegetable!
Drank a lot of tea. Good for digestion.
Oh, and I couldn't breathe again.
My breathing problem's back..

Mommy dropped me off at Eunos MRT Station, and went off to fetch brother.
After which, she went off to the Airport.
She's in Indonesia now.

Finally met up with dearest Haziqah and Verna!
Even though Verna left early for her class, but still..
At least we met up for a bit!
Missed you guys.

We met at Tampines.
So far from home. Tsk.

Walked around with Haziqah after Verna left.
She wanted to watch 17 Again, but the show was from 435 to 620.
And I had my Japanese lesson at 630.
So decided to walk around instead.
She was really happy because she bought her Jesse McCartney CD.
Then we went to Toys R Us. Memories...
Even though the things that we did wasn't at this particular Toys R Us.

Walked to Tampines 1, and combed the whole place.
She didn't know there's a new mall there. Hahaha.
Drank Bubble Tea, had Frozen Yogurt and the thing that I loved the most about today.
I had Lemper after so long! Delicious.
Haziqah wants me to work at that shop because she can visit me everyday after school.
But the main reason is not that. She only want the cream puff from that shop.
Hahah, I'm right right, Haziqah? (:

Talked a lot. Missed that.
Catch up with you two soon okay.
We shall meet up during the weekend of something.
More time to hang out.
Seeing you guys on Friday anyway. Hahah.

Japanese class was okay today.
I realised the working adults in the class are very noisy.
They think that whatever they say are funny, when it's not.
My brother commented this. "I think we're the matured ones."
Had Honey Stars during our break.
I love Honey Stars.

Okay, going for another session of Bollywood Fusion tomorrow.
Love that class.
I shall go for Yoga more regularly now.
Okay, bye!

I feel fat because my mouth had the sudden urge to eat something just now.
And because I ate almost all the fruits in my fridge.
I ended up eating Honey Stars, Chips and the Seaweed thing.
The amount of calories = The amount I lost during Yoga today.

Gah, I need to go for more Yoga classes.
Went for 2 classes today. Bollywood Fusion then Hot Hour.
BF was fun, HH was really tiring.
And my left knee hurts really bad.

I shall go for two classes whenever there are BF.
Hahah, or maybe I should go try Indian Dance.
I'm going to be a Indian dancer! Hahaha.

Oh, you know what I had today? Super little things consumed.
Like, 2 pieces of bread + Nutella + a packet of Milo for lunch.
After BF, ate the coffee bread thing + milk.
Then went for HH. Then came home, ate like a small amount of yogurt.
Drank Yakult and Milo.
Then my snacks I mentioned above.
Hehe, no actual meal. But I feel like I ate so much today.
I'm getting anorexic. Hahaha.
That's good. Just for the time being. After I finally am my desired weight,
I'll maintain but I won't eat so much like before.
Hehehe.

Ah, I need my retainers as soon as possible!
Oh and go to the gym too!
I'm crazy hehe.
I usually hate visiting dentists, because of the equipment they use and all.
How they will clean your teeth and all.
& make your gum bleed. Ah, I feel a pain in my gum as I'm typing this.
Reminds me of the other day, was it yesterday? I think so.
Ah, my memory's getting bad. This is what happens when you stay out of touch with books and all.
Without studying for like, 5 months so far.
And another 4.5 months. Save me.
Okay, getting back to my dentist story.
I can't believe I'm excited to go to the dentist next week.
Even though I know he might do up all the cleaning thing again.
Doing up my cavity thing up for my upper set of teeth thing.
Ah, what makes me excited is my retainers will be here!
How exciting is that? Super right? I know!
Hahaha.

I haven't decide on my June schedule yet!
Annoying.
I hate last minute decisions.

Was doing up the things for my Student Visa just now.
I feel so sad.
I'm going to leave soon.
I don't want to go.
I haven't meet up and spend time with friends.
School started, there's no time left!
& I want to go Taiwan for (heheh, Lizhen you know this too!).
Decisions. Decisions.

Hahaha, my mom was busy doing up something that she didn't realise it's already 3am.
She said she's going to sleep.
In the end, she continued doing up her stuff.
She's so funny.

Oh! I've something a shocking thing to shock my friends about.
Remember how I hate Chinese?
I've the urge to start studying Chinese again.
I even feel like learning the Traditional words, not the Simplified one.
And and, I want to learn a few dialects. Hahaha.
Oh, I'm wondering if I can continue watching my Taiwan entertainment shows in the US.
Ah, I hope they have the channels there.
If not I'll have to depend on Youtube. Which sucks.
Ahhhhh.

I want to learn up my piano. I shall continue in the US.
I'm going to learn until I'm super good.
& a few more instruments like guitar, flute, violin's not bad, drum's cool.
& dances.
I know I keep saying all these, but I never actually learn them.
But I will.
The motivation to learn all these in me, is like super super strong now.
I will!

I'm watching Kim Possible now.
It's so retarded.
Oh, I don't like Miley Cyrus.

My stomach feels weird now :/

I think I'm not going to sleep tonight.
I slept for like 10 hours yesterday. I feel like such a pig.
Like 6am to 4pm. Hahaha.
Horrible sleeping time. I know. I sleep when you guys wake up for school.
I shall revise my Japanese later. & do up the homework.
Since I'm meeting Haziqah tomorrow! After so long.
I can go gym tomorrow morning too!
Burn calories is the most important thing for me now.
Hehe, lose weight lose weight!
(:

Oh, my mom just said goodnight. After 30 minutes..
Okay, bye!

I really want to go Taiwan.
I really want to go Taiwannnnnnnnnn!!
(Lizhen, you know why!)

Okay, Silas asked me how many days before I actually leave on July 5,
90% leaving for the US on that day.
And it turns out I only have about 75 days til that very day.

I want to do so many things! I need companions.
But everyone have school. Sucks.

I have the sudden urge to treat my skin with super good care.
& my teeth, & my body, and.. Actually, treat everything with good care.
I want perfect skin! So, here I come skin care stuff.
I can imagine myself sitting in front of the mirror, applying countless number of things on my face, and ending with a mask or something.

I feel so lucky for having nice long eyelashes.
I have natural eyeliners. Hahaha.
But I hate it that I'm a little cock-eyed. Stupid lazy eyes.
Lazy eyes since 5 okay! Have been wearing specs for like, 12 years already.
Insanity.
I don't like my nose too, I don't know why is it a little bent.
But I know why my sister's a little bent. Super hilarious story.
I'm not going to mention it here.
That'll be super mean of me.

Oh, today was a Doctor's Day. I've no idea why.
Mommy brought me to the dentist, spent hundreds there.
Retainers are super expensive, I swear.
Then fetched my brother, went for eye check up,
and brother went to check his toe thing after that.
Ended the Doctor's Day at 5pm?
Including the meal we had at Gleneagles's Cafeteria.
Damn filling, walked home after that. Digesting of food. Hahaha.

Oh, I ate like quite little compared to the amount of food I consume a day last time.
Checking up on calories the other time with James really spooked me out.
I've been crazy ever since.
Going to lose __kg before June! I shall be 45kg or lesser by then.
Determination + Motivation = Success.
I think. Hahaha.

I only ate like, one proper meal today.
And I only ate 2/3 of it.
Only wanted to eat 1/2 of it, but my brother was full and didn't want to help me out with the rest.
And you know I hate wasting food..

I can't wait for next week! It should be next week...
Retainers will be here.
And I can just leave them on and not eat for the whole day.
Hahaha, okay, that's a bit insane.
But you get the idea.

I realised the way I type today is like, jumping from one topic to another super randomly.
The following paragraph may be of something that I mentioned a few paragrahs back.
Hahah, but I'm too lazy to change. So, have fun reading and cursing me secretly..

I wanted to say something.
I forgot.
OH.
I miss Su Jialin & Mui. See you guys soon okay! (:

Please take note that the 3 Stephs I'm going to mention below are all 3 different Stephs.
I know too many Stephanies.

Two of my friends were happy, and another two were down.

The two happy ones are my best friends
Alyssa being happy because I may be able to accompany her to New York this June, but nothing's confirmed yet.
Michelle is happy because she's no longer single. She messaged me early in the morning and I thought she was pulling my leg.

The two down ones.
One is sad because of going to a totally new environment, having no friends, scared of losing her secondary school friends and all.
Another is because of some complicated stuff.

They got me thinking about things.
About going to the US, losing friends because of lack of contacts.
About relationships.

I don't wish to lose my friends when I go over to the US.
It's going to be hard to keep in contact because of the time difference.
I'm not going to be able to meet up with them like before.
Even now, when all of us are in Singapore, it's hard to meet up because of their school and all.
How about next time when I'm in the US?
Wouldn't everything be over?
Tomorrow's the start of Poly, and it's going to be worse for me.
Everyone of my friends will have school, and what will I be doing?
Rotting at home. All of them are going to end school around evening time.
We won't even have the time to meet up.
I can't imagine what it'll be like the next time I'm back from the US.
Will we even meet up? Will we even keep in contact when I'm in the US?
Will it be awkward if we suddenly meet up after months?
I've so many unanswered questions in my mind.
I don't even know what to think now. I don't want to think about anything anymore.
But I just can't help it..
My brain feels like it's going to burst.

I don't want to lose contact with anyone.
I don't want to lose any friendship... Who does anyway?

Aik He said he wants at least a few old friends to be with him when school starts tomorrow.
But isn't it worst for me?
I'll be in a totally different country.
At least in NP, he'll have friends. Just that they are not in the same course as him.
He can still meet up with them and all.
I'll be alone, except for Steph who'll be with me.
Other than Steph, who can I go with? I wouldn't know anyone.
Everyone are total strangers to me.

I always listen to friends complaining about starting a new life in Poly or JC.
I mean, I don't mind listening to them, because that's what friends are for.
But, inside me, I'll start to feel sad along with them.
Do they even know I'm in a worse condition?
Oh well, I shall be nice and listen to them. I don't mind being sad with them.
One for all and all for one. Right?
We stick together, always.

I don't know how I'm going to survive in the US.
I don't know if I can make friends there.
I don't know how are the people there like.
I don't know if I'm friendly enough.
My friends say that I'm friendly, but I don't think so.
I don't think I'm friendly. Am I?

I think I'm gullible.
I don't know how I'm going to know who are my true friends, and who are not.
I don't know who to trust, and who to not trust.
I'm just that gullible.

Steph said that she found potential boyfriends for me.
Her friends' brothers.
Oh my god Steph, I'm not interested.
I don't plan to go into a relationship. Thanks.

Ah, I shall snap out of this mode now.
I shall start on a new drama. Yes, I'm still on my Taiwan dramas.
I've already ended more than 5.
And I still have about 5, and I'm going to get more.
I can hear my Korean dramas calling my name too.

Speaking of Taiwan.
If Lizhen and Steph really decide to go, and we can hang out with _____,
I will definitely go.
That'll be in the first week of June though.
But, Alyssa is leaving for New York either in the first week or the second week of June!
Actually, I haven't even ask mommy.
I need confirmation from Lizhen and Steph, before I ask mommy.
Lizhen, are we even going with Steph?
Steph, are we even going with you?
Ah, I don't know who are going. How about Chantel?
I need to know the details to ask mommy..

My June holiday schedule is super unorganised. So messy, so confusing.
I have so many places to go that I think I'm going bonkers.
Should I go Thailand to visit Mui?
Or should I go Taiwan with Lizhen & Steph?
Or should I go New York with Alyssa?
Or should I go back to Indonesia to learn driving?
Or should I stay in Singapore to hang out with my friends before I actually leave for the US permanently in early July?
Or should I go Canada to visit Jia?

But, where ever I do go, I've to be in Indonesia on July 4th for my cousin's wedding.
I'm confused. I can't make up my mind.

Mommy may want me to go back to Indonesia next week or something.
But only for 1 week. Go back and forth in between my Japanese lesson.
To learn driving, and to do something else.
I don't know. I'm so confused.

I've to fly to the US of A on July 5th because I've to check in with my school, Pasadena City College (PCC), by July 6.
July 6 is already the last day.
Orientation's on July 10.

So many choices.
My mind can't make up it's mind.

Help?

Been watching my drama every day and night.
Hahah. I'm addicted.
After my Taiwan dramas, my Korean Dramas are next in line.

Hehe (:

After about 2 or 3 days of being psycho,
my Internet decided to be a good boy again.

I miss youuuuuuuuuu! Hehehe.

My internet's screwing up real bad.
Sorry for signing in and out of MSN so frequently.
Ah, James think my Internet's jealous because I'm watching too much drama and ignoring it.
Hahah. Can't wait for daddy to come back so he can fix this or buy a new thingy.

Okay, bye!

Even though I felt that I was in a totally different world apart from usual.
I'm glad.
Made new friends, and that's great.
Even though I was tired and all today, but I had fun.

Strangers are just family who we haven't meet right?
Or something like that.
We shouldn't be afraid of meeting strangers.
Otherwise, how can we have more friends?
Weren't your best friends, friends or whoever beside you, once a total stranger to you too?
Be more friendly and sociable.
Who knows you might find another best friend, a great listening ear, or even the right guy right?
Open your heart... But know the limit as well.
Don't be gullible.

Feeling down over some stuff.
It's probably nothing to all of you but it's huge to me.
(Don't bother asking me what is it, it's nothing. Don't worry. I'm fine.)

Had the same wonderful, fantastic dream. Hahah.
Hope to go this June!

Will try to achieve it by next year (:
Hopefully.. I can.

<3

Had the most beautiful dream.
Wishing, and trying to work hard, to make it come true.

(:

It's freaking gone.
The video of you waving into my camera, the one that you smiled for my camera, the one where I was walking only an arm's length away from you with no guards behind you..
It's gone.

How can I lose such a video?
I'm sorry ):

It's going to be surprising to some...
But, I'm like hooked to Chinese songs and Taiwan dramas now.
Just watched Pi Li MIT, it is so freaking good.
And Aaron is damn cute inside. Tsk, how I wish I'm the female lead.
Hahaha. Every fan of his will want that.
He's a super good actor, and talented in Piano... He's the best hehe.

You know I finished the whole drama in like, less than 24 hours! HAHA.
Okay, bye! Next drama is waiting for me now.

<3

Hello! I feel fat, damn.
I need to lose weight.
Prontoooo.

Byeee (:

I miss you Michelle Chang Chao Ching & Alyssa Wee Chun Xin,
my besterest best friends in the whole wide world.

I love you guys.

I miss you too Mikey.

Don't worry, I love you guys too, Haziqah, Verna, Jerevien,
Jia, Mui, Hui, and you know who you are.





HI JAMES, hahahahahaha.

Htc Diamond? What Htc Diamond?

It's missing. Lost/Stolen/Dropped? No idea.
Last used it at about 1+, almost 2pm.
And found it missing from my bag at... 3pm.
How smart. Called SBS thingy, uncle checked the bus twice.
Went down after movie, I had no choice but to watch since we bought the ticket already..
Checked the bus myself, no luck.
No one found my phone because it was still ringing.

I know I should like, relax, chill or whatever.
But it's my first time losing a phone... And it had to be my Htc Diamond.
): Dad terminated the line, so it's no use trying to call it now.
Hope that a kind soul found it & see the messages and Shufang, Haziqah, Afiq and I sent.
(by the way, thanks a lot guys, for calling non stop and messaging, and hoping that I could find it. Thanks for following me down to the interchange and all too. Thank youuuuu.)
Sigh, I want my phone back.
My messages.
My pictures.
My videos.
My contacts.
Everything.
I miss my phone.. I always play the bubble breaker game or something before I sleep.
& from today onwards... I can't play it before sleep anymore.
A cut from my daily routine.
How am I supposed to sleep now. I'm so used to playing until I feel tired.
Ahhhhh, come back phone. ):

Will blog when I'm feeling better again.

The lovely 4E1, half of the class that is (:

The supposed to be nice skyline.
Sadly my house area = a lot of buildings.
Heard the view in the east side is much nicer.
Aw, so sad that I missed it. Hehe.

Skyped with James for like 12 hours!
I don't know if you can see the duration from the picture.
But yeah, 12 hours on the dot. Hahah.
We continued for like another 15 mins after that.
Hehe. It's fun skype-ing with him.
Talked, talked and talkedddddd. Hahah.
CALORIES, everyone's enemy. Right James? HAHA.
(Oh, click on the picture to see the duration of the call.)

So, I was supposed to meet my friend just now.
But her flight got delayed and she couldn't meet me.
It's okay btw (: Don't worry about it.
I ended up doing grocery shopping. Again!
I realised I like to grocery shop. Hahah.
So I messaged James that my friend couldn't come.
And I couldn't buy the ingredients to make the lasagna rolls
because I can't remember what they are.
And and, he replied me with all the ingredients that I need!
Hahah, thanks James. So so so, I bought all the stuff.
But I don't think I'm making it today.
Hehe, Stephie wants to come over to taste it and
her mom's cooking today so I shan't cook it today.
Tomorrow perhaps?
Oh, I bought like 4 or 5 different Jelly flavours.
Hahaha, James! Salted Jelly! HAHA.
(inside joke)

May be going out with the 2G people again.
Hehe, I love all of the classes.
Being it to be my primary school classes 1A, 2A, 3A, 4A, 5B, 6B.
Or secondary school classes, 1G, 2G, 3E1, 4E1.
They are the best classes ever.
I'll never forget all of you. Love you guys! (:

Avoiding you, is the best medicine for this.

The Pros and Cons on to go or not to go to the US.

PROS
I'll not have to study every single day for two years, just to study for the A levels.
And I won't have to worry about my results I'll get afterwards.
I'll have my best friends there.
I'll have the time to play and have fun, but on the other hand, do well in college.
I'll be roommates with Stephie.
I won't be alone in my freshman year, cause I'll have Stephie.
I've my sisters there.
I can drive there.
It's not as boring as Singapore.

CONS
I'll miss all of the people here, especially a few and you know who you are.
I'll miss the class gatherings or whatever things that's going to happen, and I'm not here!
I'll miss chatting, gossiping and everything with the usual people.
I'll miss my family, especially my brother!
I'll miss the food here.

Looking and comparing at the Pros and Cons, no doubt that the Pros are more appealing. And that really makes me want to go to the US this instance.
But, I'll miss everyone here like really crazily, and that really makes me think twice on whether I should go.

However, to come to think of it, I can skype with anyone that I miss, and talk, gossip with them. Just that it won't feel exactly the same.

Going to the US, it's for my future. It's only the right thing to do. I wouldn't want to lose such an opportunity.
I mean, even if I'm there, I still can keep in contact with everyone back here, and catch up with you guys.
And whenever I'm back in town, we can meet up. Right?

I'm going to really miss all of you.
I even missed 4E1 like crazy, after two short months.
I miss my BBFL partners. I haven't seen Mitch since SEVEN months ago! And Aly for a month or so.

Speaking of which. I loved the little gathering we had. even though it was short, I enjoyed myself. Love you guys.

I'm going to update more tomorrow or something. I blogged cause I couldn't sleep.. I'm using my phone! I really need to turn in now, to ensure my eye doesn't get swollen again. Bye!

oh btw, Jerevien! if you're reading this, my brother wants you to come asap cause he wants to eat the two stuff! get back to me yeah. (:

I see myself looking at your fb profile.. almost everyday.
Ahhh, why?

I feel really bad for not going for Yoga since like, Sunday.
That's like, 4 days ago..
But I'm going later on! Hehe, finally.

So, I skyped with James & Mitch.
All in all, I skyped with James for almost 12 hours.
Like 11.5 hours, we wanted to skype for 12 hours and longer..
But I fell asleep :\

Oh, after Yoga's class outing.
I'm still thinking if I should get the Nike Yellow Banana Boat Bag.
My mom said I could if I wanted to.
But, I don't know.. It's so expensive.

Will blog again. Bye!

I am still skype-ing with James! Hahahaha.
& we're talking about SPHHHHHHHHHHH.
Lovely times. Horse Riding as our PE..
How cool is that huh, try to have such PE in Singapore.
That day, will never come. Unless you're in an International School, maybe...

Hahaha, anyway, we're like discussing andand,
we might be in the same class! What are the chances huh.
We've the same teacher, Miss Elis. And, I do recall having a James in my class.
And he've a classmate names Caroline..
Well, who knows, maybe it's different James & Caroline.
Hahahah, likelike, this increased the possibility of us being classmates way back in Kindergarten!
Kindergarten and yet we only knew each other last year.
He being Mitch's classmates in Secondary School &
Me bring best friends with Mitch.
So Mitch was like telling me about this guy being in SPH Lippo Karawaci.
And telling him about me being in SPH Lippo Karawaci too.
So cool right! Hahahaha.

Okay, I'll see him in like 4 months. And him, Mitch and I are going to drive drive drive.
ROADTRIP! Can't wait. (:

I'm back to blog because..
NURUL HAZIQAH said it's boring, it's dead. Hahahah.

I cooked for my brother twice... At an ungodly hour, 2am.
Yeaaaah, my brother's insane. He needs to consume stuff for like every single minute of the day. I'm not even kidding. Unless he's asleep of course.

I'M SKYPE-ING WITH JAMES SUGIHARTOOOOOOOO NOW. Hahahah.

So so so, I'm really into cooking now, hehe.
Can't wait for grandma to get here (sunday!!) and she'll teach me cooking.
Hahahah, so exciting!

OH & HAZIQAH. If you're reading this, Cheryl said that Mrs Khorn said that we can go visit her and her family, Mr Khorn and their kids soon!
So exciting x2. Hahahaha.

OKAY, I don't like to blog, but I'm nice to Haziqah, cause I'm trying to make her smile.
To cheer her up. HAHAHA. Byeeeee!

Hello! I've been neglecting this blog for some time. Hehe.

I grew fatter! & I'm short..
So, I joined Yogaaaaaaaaa. It was pretty tiring at first.
But I'm starting to like it now! Hehe.
Went for it like 3 days in a row. Pretty crazy. Aching everywhere.
I'm fine now! I haven't go Yoga for like, 2 days now. I feel lazy.
But but, I'm going Yoga tomorrow, again. Yay.

Anyway, I'm accepted in PCC.
Hahaha, It's so stupiddddd. They took a month to find all the items that I sent... & took one day to consider and yay, "Welcome to Pasadena City College".

MOE is really slow. They only sent the Sec 5s' testimonials to the school.
Where are the Sec 4s?
Well, I needed my testimonial for my application to SMC so the school printed one copy for me.. Not the official one from MOE but something like it.
SMC won't really care that much anyway.

If if if, SMC doesn't accept me, then I'll be leaving July 5! Hahah.
Orientation's on July 6. July 4 is my cousin's wedding in Indo.. Busy busy busy. Gosh.
And I've to back to Indo soooooon. Most probably June? Mid June? I think so.

Okay, I'm too lazy to blog. Bye!

I miss so many peopleeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Especially Michelle Chang, my BBFL partner who I haven't meet up with since 6 months ago.
HALF A YEAR, omg, that's the longest time I haven't seen you ever. Come back soon bestieeee.

Happy Birthday Silas Neo!
I haven't meet you in 3 years. And you've been telling me a few things about our childhood days.
They are so hilarious. Anyway, thanks for being so honest about you disliking me in the past. Heh, I might be still as irritating as before...
Watch out. Hahah! Who knows you'll dislike me again...
You still owe me a meal by the way! Happy 19th Birthday!

Okay.
I have no idea if SMC will accept me.
Stephie got accepted. James got rejected.
Maybe I'll be like James's case because we're not Permanent Residents in the US of A.
So if that's the case.
I'll be a busybusy bee from end of June onwards.
PCC's orientation is on July 6th.
And my cousin's getting married on July 4th, in Indonesia.
So I think I'll be flying back from Indonesia back to Singapore on the 5th,
and fly to the US on the very same day.
I'll just die. I did something like that before and I was just exhausted.

Once was, Perth - Singapore - US of A.
When I reach Singapore in the morning, I fell asleep straight on my parents' bed until the afternoon where we have to leave for the airport, again.
My mom ended up packing my luggage, by the way.

Second was, Thailand - Singapore - Indonesia.
This one was slightly better because I had a night rest, but not very long.
We reached pass midnight and I had to be in the airport at 9am.

And now, my third 2 trips in a row holiday.
Kill me. Heh.
Anyway, if I go PCC, I'll have Stephie with me, which is good!
Because I'll rent a place with Stephie there, it will save me about an hour drive to school from home.
But if her sister will be moving to Pasadena too, I don't think I'll stay with them.
And I don't know what to do.
Okay, if her sister's going Pasadena, I hope SMC accepts me. If not, I hope SMC don't.
Actually, either way's fine. I don't really care much.

So before going to the US of A, I'm going to study here first.
Singapore Poly, taking Accountancy.
Main purpose, to study a little bit plus accompany Aaron Fan.
Well, a lot of people are going to SP anyway, so it's fine.
I can spend more time with them as well.
How I wish I was at TP though, I'll be with Haziqah & Verna.
But, oh well, it's too late to change that right now, plus TP is so far from home.

A few more days til I'm 17.
Which means, I'll be getting my CC & DL, which is really cool.
I can't wait.
Sweet Seventeen, I don't think I'll be having any party though.
I'll be in Singapore while Indonesia's the country which celebrates Sweet 17.

So I wanted to say something just now, but I can't recall what was it that I wanted to say.
Anyway, there's this other thing that I wanted to say..
Caroline Febrianty have decided to look for a job, hahaha.
Laugh with me everyone. It's true by the way.
But if I do, where am I going to have the time to take the few classes that I want to take since like, eons ago.
Well, I'll have to plan my few months left in Singapore really carefully.
I'll have to hang out with everyone before I leave.
I'll miss you guys.
Plus it's so hard to meet up now, since we'll be in school, either in JC or Poly.
But, we'll make time right? (:

I still can't remember what was that thing that I wanted to say...

Okay, since I can't sleep and all. I shall just make this the longest post ever.
So, a couple of days ago, there was a family gathering at home.
I baked the cupcake that is molten in the middle kind.
It turned out pretty good. I plated them nicely that my relatives thought those were bought.
They only believed that I baked them when my mom convinced them that I did.
Hahah, anyway, I'm really touched by my grandauntie who tasted my cupcake even though she couldn't because of her health. That was really sweet. Even though we're not close and only meet up the maximum of twice a year, that gesture really touched my heart and I love you (:
Of course I love my granduncle too, because he also tasted it. Heh, they are so sweet.
Anyway, everyone loved it. I hope they meant it though. Hehe.
Oh, that day was on the day they had the finals between Nadal and Federer.
Every single one at home, except me and this other cousin, were rooting for Federer.
I was supporting Nadal, and the other cousin supported someone not in the finals.

HA, Nadal won!

Okay, back to topic, after that, the kids gambled a bit. And when they asked me to join, I said I never gambled before so I'll see how they play it (Poker) first. And, my cousin, Kaylie was shocked that I never gambled before. I asked her if I have the face like I do gamble and all, she said yeah. Well, I don't gamble. But I did my first gamble not with these cousins though.
I did my first gamble on the next day, where there was another party.

Okay, I still cannot remember what was the thing!

Okay, I want to say how much I love my parents.
I know I always don't do whatever you asked me to do immediately.
And that you have to ask me to do so a million times before I actually do so.
I'm sorry if I ever got angry then.
I know you care for me, because you're my mommy and daddy.
And I appreciate that. I love you two and I'll always will.
I know I hurt your feelings really badly the other time, but I won't do so every again.
After that thing, I promised that I'll tell you every single thing.
And I do. But sometimes I still get the feeling that you two still don't quite trust me.
I just tell myself that I'm just thinking too much whenever I have that feeling.
Parents are supposed to trust their kids, and I'm sure you trust me.
I'm turning 17 soon and I'm glad that I am living such a great life through all those years.
And all the credit goes to you two. I love you mommy and daddy.
No matter how much I get annoyed or angry at you at a moment, deep inside, I still love you. (:

I love my grandparents and relatives too!
I'll miss Chinese New Year and the photo taking session with the crazy few for the next few years since I can't be back in Indonesia for CNY. ):
I'll go back to visit you guys when I can! Hehe.
Mangduuuuuuu! Vina and Claudia hehe, must okay!

Hehe, I still cannot remember what was the thing!
My back hurts. And it's already 920am.
I think I already took about an hour to type all these things.
This post is very, very wordy. Pictures are all up in facebook, I guess.

I miss my two sisters badly, even though I just saw them last month.
I don't know how will I survive without my brother when I go to the US of A this July.
I won't have anyone to fight with everyday!
I love my siblings, even though we always quarrel and all. Heheh.

Oh, I think this was what I wanted to say earlier on.
I have no plans for tomorrow, or rather later since it's already 925am.
I was supposed to go out w Haziqah and Janet.
But changed to Friday since Cheryl can only make it in the evening for tomorrow.
She wants to join us to watch Bride Wars.
Anyway, I'll be so bored later.
I almost died staying at home the whole day today.
I guess I'll have to find someone who is a uh, very last minute type of person to go out with me later. Hahah.
Or maybe I should stay home to take care of mommy.
Her eyes problem is back. But, she'll have daddy. And I'll probably end up watching tv the whole day again.
Gahhhhh.

Anyway, I miss 4E1! We shall have a gathering soon okay. Even though a lot of people are still overseas, but that's fine. We can another one when they are back again. Heh. I miss Newton!
Speaking of Newton, it reminds me of Jia, Mui, Hui! And Jia's in Canada, Mui's in Thailand and Hui's in JC. It'll be impossible for the 4 of us to have another meal there together anytime soon!
Except for Hui and myself, but that'll be so awkward. I miss you two. We'll meet up soon? But that'll be another year or so later.... ): We'll keep in contact ya?

This post, is like an essay. Gah, I have to write a two pages long essay for SMC! And I haven't do so. Okay, this post is like the length of I-don't-know-how-many-posts.
So I don't think I'll be blogging anytime soon, unless I'm really super overly bored.
Heh, til then! (: