My life, my story.

I feel like blogging suddenly.

I feel like a super boring person.
A person with no life.
A mundane life.
With the same routine of waking up, doing nothing, killing the time by watching dramas and using the computer.
That's it.

I want an exciting life.
Every single time I see stars on televisions, I always wonder how is it to have a life like them.
Sure it has pros and cons.
Everything has their pros and cons.
Wouldn't it be exciting if I could have such an exciting life?

I wouldn't have to wake up and do nothing everyday.
I would wake up, with a packed schedule for the day.
Doing things that will take a lot of work, but that will be a lot of fun as well.
Making new friends and all.

Seriously, if I were a celebrity, wouldn't it be really cool?
How I wish I could have the chance to try to be one.

Acting, my interest ever since young. Hence my CCA to be English Drama in Tao Nan.
I don't know why it's been my interest since young.
It just is.
And I really hope to be an actress one day.
I wanted to take Theatre arts or something as a major, but Daddy doesn't allow.
I don't want my dream of becoming an actress to disappear like that.
I'll try my very best to make it come true.

Singing, Choir as CCA in MJR.
In Primary School, I remember my Mommy was on the phone with her friend.
And I was singing in the background.
And the next thing I heard was my Mommy saying that her friend is saying that my singing is not good.
Since then, my self-confidence crashed.
I never dared to sing in front of anyone ever again.
The irony of joining Choir in Secondary School.

In Lower Secondary, I know I was a super low-self esteemed girl.
I cry just by being asked to stand in front of the class to say some lines.
I agree I was a coward then.

I was scared of teachers, except for Mrs Tan-Sia.
(I'm sorry for the times we ignored your teachings and continued playing in the class ignoring your warnings. I didn't know how to respect you, until the end of Secondary 2, when I realised that it wasn't you who were losing out, it was me, myself who was losing out because it's my future that I was throwing aside. I'm sorry and thank you for teaching me for two years.)
I remember how scared of Mdm Tay I was.
I studied Chemistry really hard, and topped the class.
Chemistry was the only section of Science that I loved.
And have ever loved. At the end of Secondary 3 & early Secondary 4, I know I crashed.
I didn't study for a few important chapters. And my result dropped from an average of B to a F9.
See the difference in my result?

Wait, why am I talking about my results?
Let me get back to my story.

I was a coward, really. I was.
But in Secondary 3, I was slightly better.
Doing short skits before the class was alright.
It was fun actually.
Being in Choir also helped.
Fashion Parade for two years also helped.
I find myself singing in random places.
I even sit in Newton MRT Station and pretend to get bullied and whined super loudly.

Isn't that a sign of my self-confidence being better than before?

Okay, main point of my post is that I want a more fun and exciting life.
Actress is my main priority now.

Go ahead and laugh.

I need to sleep now. It's almost 330am.
I've Bollywood Fusion class at 11am.
That is 7.5 hours later.
Goodnight.