My life, my story.

Brother's down with cough and fever.
It was really high.
Then it was better with a temperature of 38.
Now, it's back to high fever.

I rather it being me who's sick right now.
He's having his Mid Year Examinations soon.
How can he concentrate like that?
I mean, I've no school and examinations.
I can just lie down on the bed whole day being sick.
I want him to do well for his examinations.
It's his streaming year.
I worry for him.

I'm scared that it's dengue.
Those flies have been spotted around my condo area.
Going to the hospital tomorrow.
I don't trust clinics.

Signed up for Hip Hop classes already.
Started my Piano today. It was fun.
I think I play really badly on the Piano though.
I'll work hard, and continue when I go over to the US.
I'll go for those with grades examinations when I'm there.
I shall work hard. I will.

I just realised once again the importance of money.
And how fast do I spend the money that my Daddy have to work so hard for.
Today, I withdrew $500 at first. Almost all are spent on the two classes.
Piano and Hip Hop.
Then I remembered I've to book the Pool Area.
But I withdrew a $100, which was not enough. I'm so blur.
So, I have to wait until tomorrow.
I feel really bad for spending so much.
And still wanting to join so many classes..
But joining classes and spending the money in this sense is better than spending on clothes right? I feel so so so so so bad for spending this amount of money.
Even though Mommy allowed me to attend as many classes as I want.
But never have the price really crossed my mind.
I'm such a bad daughter.
I shouldn't spend so much money. I'm only 17 for God's sake.

I mean, what's the point on shopping everyday and spending money on clothes that you will not wear after some time?
Ah, I'm starting to resent shopping.
I haven't shop in weeks, or rather months.. I think. I can't remember the last time I shopped.
But but, I've to shop at Marina Square or Wisma Atria before I leave.
I have vouchers that I haven't spend at all.
Who's willing to be my shopping partner?
(This is your cue Alyssa!)

Back to topic.

Cheryl, Junlin and Weixing came over to my place.
Talked a lot. Missed them.
Laughed a lot too.
Played the piano, and sang a few Choir pieces too.
Gave them a lot of things for them to revise for the big Os.
They left at about 9+.
You're welcome for everything by the way guys.
It was not a problem. Hehe.
You guys should come more often.. Before I leave for the US.

I'm going to sleep early tonight.
To wake up early to go along with my gramps to bring my brother to Gleneagles.
I've to go back at 2pm again for my eye checkup.
Then I signed up for Bollywood Fusion and Hot Hour tomorrow.
I need to go Yoga more oftenly.
I'm still thinking of what other classes to join.

Retainers are not done yet.
But the receptionist said it'll be done by this week.
So I'm looking forward to that.

Oh, I've to go down to the US Embassy one day too.
To make my student Visa.
I kinda have a lot of things to decide on and to do this week.
This is exciting.
I want to have things to do everyday.
I don't even mind sacrificing my sleep.

I don't want to leave Singapore in less than 10 weeks time.
That's just too fast.
It'll zoom past us in a blink of an eye.
Time passes so quickly that it seemed like only yesterday when we were all like saying how far away is Poly and stuff like that.
Now? One week of Poly have started.
The second work have begun.
The clock is ticking away and the date of me leaving for the US is nearing.

I can't bear to leave on July 1st, the day I go back to Indonesia.
Knowing that, that will be the day that you guys are going to send me off.
I'll be flying straight to the US from Indonesia, only transit-ing for less than 2 hours?
The feeling sucks.
I'm getting a headache right now.
My hair's dripping water onto my legs.
I'm sitting on the floor with my laptop on the bed.
I don't know why I'm in this position.

I feel super duper extremely overly obese recently.
I've been snacking, which is bad.
I'm going to not eat from tomorrow onwards.
Just fruits or vege.
That's it.
I'm not going to buy anymore snacks, since the trio who came today helped me finish most of the snack at home.
I'm happy.
I'm sad.
I want to lose weight.
Everyone's saying I'm fatter.
But no one believes I'm __kg.
Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
I don't know. But I'm going to lose until I'm happy with my weight.
I'm going to lose until I see a __kg on the weighing scale.
I will.
By June, latest July.

I have edit-ted this post, thrice now.
Oh wells. Goodnight.