Had SO much fun yesterday.
I haven't laugh the whole night, laugh so hard that my throat was so dry by the end of the night, since a long time ago..
I need to have more of this.
Even though I'm always missing from Pasadena for the weekend, where the hangouts usually occur and stuff.
I'm glad I wasn't being isolated and that you guys are still so awesome :)
I don't know how will I handle the sadness from transferring of schools soon..
(It's already November. Time sucks for passing so quickly.)
It's like July '09 all over again.
The time that I had to leave my friends back in Singapore, yes, you guys reading this, I'm talking about you.
Even though it's only 30 plus miles apart.
It's still going to be hard to leave you guys.
Shall meet up once every week or two okay?

Back to topic.
Even though it wasn't like the Halloween I thought it'll be...
There's no trick or trick - ing.
Mostly because we celebrated in Church and no dressing up as a scary person and stuff like that.
But still, my first Halloween was spent really awesome-ly.
Next thing in my "first-in-life" list is to spend Thanksgiving with friends..
There's no more San Francisco trip, no more Seattle trip.
Maybe an one-day Big Bear trip..
Or maybe I'll tag along to Yosemite, I doubt so though.
Too lazy and I don't know anyone.. Heh.
So it's most probably going to be Big Bear for a day or home-cooked dinner for ourselves!
Guess who's going to be the cook?
Yes, me!
Well, I don't mind... because the cook doesn't have to wash up!
:D

Okay, I said I'll post pictures..
I'm only going to post like 10 of them.
The rest are up on Facebook.
You guys can go visit my profile to see them.
There's plenty of photos, and not all of them are up yet I think.
http://www.facebook.com/carolinefebrianty?ref=profile#/carolinefebrianty?ref=profile

Okay!
Presenting myself....
Caroline Febrianty as the Victorian Princess.
HAHAHAHAHA.


Inez, Lydia, Grace, (myself), Jenny, Jazq & Marli.


The damn adorable boy ever please.. Daniel aka RUSSELLLLLL (from UP).

The trios: (myself), Jenny & Kartika.

Kartika & I.


Nagata & I.

Ricet & I.


Andrew & I.


Christian & myself... As a blonde.
HAHAHAHAHAH.
I look pretty okay in blonde don't I? *being sarcastic*


Another group photo.
Eva, Christian, Lydia, Jenny, Russell, (myself), Inez & Marli.

<3

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
A sneak preview before I get all of my pictures from friends.
:)

Had so much fun today.
I'm so tired.
I better sleep now.
Got to wake up REALLY early tomorrow.

<3

I just got home like, 45 minutes ago.. (1240am)
After decorating the Church for tomorrow's event!
It's not really a Halloween theme since we're having the party at a Church.
It's more of a costume party.
Talent time, fashion shows and stuff like that.

I decorated the photo booth!
Something like the background of a normal red carpet.
The sponsors behind the stars and stuff like that.

I'm going to be a.... (GUESS!)
I'll blog about it with pictures tomorrow or the day after..
YES, with pictures.
Hooray!

Okay, got to get ready to sleep soon.
Got to wake up early to go to my friend's house to get ready before heading out to the Church.
The girly girl time = a couple of hours of getting ready plus make up!

<3

So.. today's the final day to prepare for the event tomorrow.
My friends need to prepare the decorations and food..
So I'm bored. Hahaha.

I'm doing the laundry now.
And going to bathe now.
Because I'm going to accompany my other friend to Target..
For I-don't-know-what-reason.
I think he's going to buy the final item for his costume tomorrow.
Then, after that, it's either I go to my other friend's house..
Or.. come home, do the grocery shopping that I'm always to lazy to do from my to-do list..
And clean up my house!

I feel like my house is like a den.
Ew.
HAHAHA.

Okay, got to bathe before he's done with his placement test.
Gah. My hair won't dry in time -.-
I hope it's not cold outside..
Otherwise... I'll fall sick :(
Boohoo.

Don't you just love how Indonesians dillydally?
(:

So after my class, Kartika and her sister fetched me from school.
And we went to play badminton.
It started at 8 and ended at 10.
Slacked while deciding on where to have "dinner" for about 30 to 45 minutes.
10 minutes of travelling time to the restaurant.
Started dinner at about 11.
Ended at about 12.
Reached home at about 1230.

How awesome is that.
It was supposed to be a couple of hours only....
But it extended to 4.5 hours.
HAHA, I love us Indonesians.

Halloween's in a day! (Since it's after midnight)
Everyone's keeping their costume a secret...
Seriously!
No one is revealing what are they going to dress up in.
Everytime you ask someone or someone asks you.
Everyone will answer you "ada dehhh." or "it's a surprise"..
(Sorry, I'm damn Indonesian now -- referring to my "ada dehhh")

Okay, I have no plans for tomorrow.
It's Friday.
Some are getting food for Saturday in the morning.
I am definitely not going to follow them because I'm a pig.
I need my sleep.
In the afternoon, a few people are going to slack at home too.
Some are going to the Church to decorate for Saturday.

I need to do the laundry tomorrow!
After that... I NEED to go grocery shopping..
Delayed my grocery trip for 4 days already...
Hehehe. If not, I'll ask my friend if I can slack at his/her house.
(They stay at the same complex. Downstairs and upstairs)
Our usual hangout is their place. Heheh.

Okay, going to wash up and get ready for bed..
Night all!

I realized how much lesser I eat now..
Comparing to the past.

I just had this granola bar, a pack of kettlecorn and now I'm drinking the starbucks thing that my Daddy left behind at this house since a month plus ago.

Seemed so little right?
But it feels like I ate a whole pile of rice with a ton of side dishes along with it.

Need to eat lesser.
To lose weight.
Ah, wish me luck.

The number of things for me to do is piling up higher and higher each day.
Gah.

Everything below will start with an "I". Hahahaha.

I have to send my application to SMC.
I have to send the postcards I got for a few of you...
(I can only send those who gave me their addresses!)
I have to call up SMC to ask them about something my transfer thing.
I have to look up for a counselor in my current school, PCC to ask about my transfer thing.

I have yet to complete my long essay which is due in 5 hours.
(I spent an hour plus yesterday for it... 3 pages down, 2 pages to go!)
I have another short essay to do, which is also due in 5 hours.
(I decided to not do the short essay.. I doubt I have time to read and type 2 questions, and print it out on time.)
I have another Accounting test next Wednesday.
I have to do up my Accounting and Math homework..
(I just have to do Accounting homework actually.. Since they are due Monday and two weeks later respectively)

I need to go grocery shopping..
I have to do laundry tonight, after badminton and super late dinner I guess.
I better mop the floor again tonight.
I doubt I can sleep early tonight... I need my sleep.
I'm getting tired so early these days.

I want to make Truffle Popsssss.
I'm still thinking if I should.. For Halloween :)

I need to lose weight.

I have my first driving lesson next week!

I need to plan something ;)

I need to start doing my essay now....
I miss you guys! <3

So.. I'm pretty satisfied with the 2 tests I had last week.
Namely Accounting and Math (which is so easy).
I regret not doing the petition which my Accounting classmate told me about today.
So pissed at myself.
If not... I wouldn't be stuck in this stupid easy ass Math class.
I shall take another placement test, for Math.
And I feel like taking a new placement test for Chemistry.

I'm getting a rash..
On both of my right and left leg.
Kill me already.
Itchy like hell.
I just applied some body lotion on them.
Probably due to the fact that I haven't apply body lotion every night like I used to do anymore.

So, it's 1130pm now.
I have no clue on why I'm so exhausted.
But I know I can't sleep anytime soon.. (Latest 2am!)
Because... I have ANOTHER essay to do.
My teacher is insane because he gives us like a short essay to do every week.
Yes, every week.
And once every two or three weeks, a long essay to do.
Can you say boring much?

I'm going to get started on my bloody first draft for my essay tomorrow.
Goodnight in advanced!
Lots of love, xoxo.

First driving lesson is going to be held next Thursday or Friday.
One lesson = 2 hours.
After 5 lessons = driving test.
After passing driving test = LICENSE!

Awesomecakes!!
Excited! But nervous!

Excited > Anxiety.

Can't wait to drive... Uh, I'm not too sure about that actually..

Okay, I'm really bored.
As you can tell, since I'm back blogging.
I've been singing and playing bejeweled.
Then I got bored of playing.
I'm singing and blogging now.
Hahaha, multi-tasking!

Anyway, don't you just hate it when someone criticize others.
For example, just a normal somebody talking bad about a famous somebody?
It's like.. you can bad mouth them only if you can do better than them.
If you can't, keep your comments to yourself.

Okay, I'm going to sing until my throat becomes really dry.
Hahaha. Still thinking about what to wear for Halloween!
Comments? Suggestions?
Help?

That's my happy face.
Hahahaha.
I'm really super relieved when my brother told me that he's able to take my subject combination, Double Science and AMath.
Even though he freaked me out with his individual subject's result before that.

I was like.. You should have just told me that you can take my subject combination.
I don't care about your results.
I'm such a mean sister, I know.
But at least I do care about his results right? Hahaha.

So, a lot of people are falling sick lately.
It's definitely due to the insane weather here.
It was making every single one freeze 2 weeks ago.
And now it's pretty warm.
What's up with you, weather? In a dilemma much.
Yeah, I'm glad I'm not sick.
Even though I had a really bad stomachache and headache yesterday.
The headache was pretty bad for a couple of minutes.
Like... the room was spinning.
I don't know..

So, everyone's saying how awesome the weather is over here.
Plus because it's not humid, my skin will be in perfect condition and all.
That is so not true.
At least for my skin it's not.
I've like 9081392472421 pimples since I came over.
I hate this.

I need my laser thingy done ASAP.
Seriously!

It's only 2 minutes to 12noon.
I've been up since 10am when class is at 340pm.
What the hellllllll.
& I slept at 3plus am!
I'm freaking insane.
Okay, going to divert my attention to facebook, twitter, and my dear tv.
I'll blog another post soon enough.
Xoxo.

When I see a pretty skyline, I'll think of you.
When I see a pretty view, you fill my mind.

HAHAHAHA. What rubbish.
But isn't that sunset view just spectacular.
I mean, it's even prettier in reality.
Seriously!
No matter how good of a photographer you are, I believe that we just can't capture the true reality in a picture.
Nothing beats being at the location itself to experience the beauty of the moment that we wish to capture with our camera.

What am I talking about..
I hope you guys understand me!

Oh oh! Hey look!
I'm getting back to blogging.
I'm working on writing more posts.
& I'll probably change my picture every few weeks.
Just to keep you guys coming back to my blog :)
Heheh.

I think the price of the clothes here are getting into my head,
and making me hooked to the thought of going shopping.
Must. Resist.
I shall limit myself to blog only every once every few months...
But I really have to shop soon.
To prepare for winter.
I swear that's not an excuse.
I don't want to die from the cold!
And it sucks to have a sister who doesn't have the same shoe size as me.
If not... I wouldn't have to shop.
And for the sister who have the same size of me, kinda, doesn't really like to shop.
The horror.

Well, that's the case for footwear.
For clothes..
I can't fit to both sisters' because I'm much more bigger in size than them.
I doubt that I can even be the same size as them no matter how much weight I actually lose.
I've broader shoulders, I think.
I've wide hips, which leads to bigger thighs.
But I think my sister wore my shorts cause I saw it hanging behind her toilet door..
It should be loose for her.
No idea why is it there.
Okay, back to topic.
See, that's why I can't share with them clothes.
But if they have a bigger sized clothes.
I'll just force myself to fit into them anyway. HAHA.
Self-denial about my own size.
I'll lose weight to be more like them... Soon.

I need to get more bags too.
Or I can just steal my sister's.
I've been doing that. Hahaha.
I stole two or three of her bags already. (:

Anyway, anyway!
I dyed my hair back to black.
I'm so not used to seeing myself in black hair.
It's been about 11 months or something since I dyed my hair to brownish-red!
My natural hair colour isn't even black in the first place.
Can't wait for my hair to freaking grow longer, then I'll chop it off again so I'll have my natural hair.
Nothing but my natural hair.

Didn't go to Church today.
Wanted to surprise my friend with my new hairstyle.
Hahaha, oh well, I'll see her in two weeks' time.

I'm going to school early tomorrow.
Just to talk to my school's counselor.
(Don't worry, I'm not going crazy.)
I'm going to ask her about my Winter & Spring class schedule.
If not... I shall not tell you guys anything.
I'll let you know after I actually talk to her.
So confusing.
Gah, I'm going to plan my school stuff later since I've nothing better to do anyway.
It's Sunday night, 1045pm, and I've Accounting homework due tomorrow, but I don't usually do them anyway...
So who gives a heck.
Don't feel like going to school.
To add to that, I'm going to get back my two test papers.
Accounting and Math.
Just kill me already.

Ah, so annoyed over some news.
Hope it's not true ):
I don't want it to be true..

Heh, just got back not long ago, so I shall bathe and stuff now!
I'm so bloody random.
Realize how my topic can jump from A to H to X or something?
Okay, whatever Caroline.

With lots of loveeeeeeeeeeee!!
Will blog with PICTURES next time.
Heehehe.

Don't complain and say that I'm not blogging people.
Here I am.

So, haven't been doing much interesting stuff lately.
So there's nothing much to blog about really.
Halloween's coming soon, so expect pictures then yeah?
No promises though.
I'll try to blog more pictures too.

So, I just got a small makeover.
I dyed my new hair back to black.
(Not blonde my dear Haziqah & Verna)
Cutting like 15cm, not an exact value of course, was such a random decision.

I'm being asked to change and to go out.
So I'll continue another day.
Bye!
Love you guyssss.

Hello!!
First thing.
I hate Haziqah. HAHAHA.
I am NOT anorexic.
Thank you very much.

Verna!
Always in Indo ahhhhhh.
Boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend!
Hahah, how are you? :D

H&V, must conference on MSN more okay.
Miss you guyssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

JANETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT LAU.
I love you!! HAHAHA.
Bbm-ing you the other day wasn't such a bad choice eh?
It got us started to bbm for hours and skype for hours every other day.
<3

Alyssa Wee!
Miss you! Can you come over please.
Mitch and I are waiting for you.
We miss youuu. Macs in the middle of the night.
Complaining to me in the middle night about stuff.
Hahaha, I miss youuuuu. See you soon okay. Xoxoxo.

Nita, I really don't know what to blog about..
Give me some ideas what to blog about.
Anyway you're looking damn pretty eh!
HAHA.

J.Poon, Can you please eat more?
Thank you very much.
Hahah, I expect to see you being much more chubby when I go back please.
You're bloody skinny lah, bamboo stickkkkkkkk!!

Tracy, don't be too anorexic please.
Hahahahhaha, can you please repair your bbm.
It feels so weird not bbm-ing you at all. HAHA.

I miss all of you guysssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!
I want to go back soon.
ASAP ASAP.

Please let me know when are your holidays for next year's August.
Please and thank youuu.
Because I hope I'm going back when it's your holidays.
So that we can spend time together..
So many people to meet up with but so little time.
Better sacrifice your time to meet up with me. HAHA.
I'm kidding.

Anyway, I want to do so many things!!
#1. Picnic at Botanics. (Taken by Janet, Jiani & Kim :D)
#2. Picnic at Marina Barrage.
#3. Go around West side & those areas that I've never been there.
#4. Walk around my long-time-no-see Orchard Road.
#5. Go Haji Lane & shop with my dearest Alyssa.
#6. Go Far East Plaza with my shopping people.
#7. Kbox!
#8. Sentosa? Heard some parts it's renovating?
#9. Singapore Flyer!
#10. Visit school, Manjusri?
#11 onwards - still in consideration :D

Give me more ideas...
Let me know which one you're willing to fill the gap for.
Miss and love you guys. Xoxoxo.

(I'm laughing hearing Brenda laughing at my post. HAHAHHA)

我好想以前在道南的時候。
我們什麽時候才能像以前一樣，玩籃球，在圖書館玩耍，到Parkway Parade逛一逛呢？
我們都麽的自在，活潑，自由，都沒有什麽的煩惱。
我想回到過去。

I miss the times when we were still in Tao Nan.
When can we be like before again?
Playing basketball, playing in the library, going to Parkway Parade to walk around.
We were so free, and full of life, with no problems at all.
I want to go back to that time.

I have no idea why I just typed it in Chinese and translated it..
Oh well.
I finally met my sister, Steph, after 2 weeks since I didn't come back to the other house last weekend.
I missed her ):
I can't wait to see the rest of the "gang" this weekend.
Hahah.

Been trying to plan my Summer next year.
Too many things to do, but so little time.
I'm afraid that I won't even be in Singapore for 2 weeks..
Actually, it's kind of confirm that I won't be in Singapore for 2 weeks.
I need to spend everyday of my time in Singapore going out with you guys.
Ahhhh.
I need more time.

The background of my new photo is my current place which is super messed up....
Hahahaha, who cares :D

Anyway, I lost weight, yay!

Okay, I'm going to bathe, prepare for school, eat and go to school now.

(8) Baby don't worry, you are my only.......
Baby are you down down down down downnnn.. (8)

Hello!
I'm in class right now.
English class.
SO BORING.
& yes, I'm using the laptop.
Awesomecakes.
HAHAHA.

English is hell.
Kill me now, thanks.

<3

So, remember how everyone asked me why I didn't want to place a tagboard in my blog?
As you can see, reason number one is how annoying it is when people spam your blog.
Even if it's your own brother, in this case.
This just makes me feel all irritated and ultimately, too lazy to blog about anything.
So, bye!

I've no idea why is there a line across my new picture.
But who cares.
Hahahaha.

If I hardly blog anymore....
Blame Nurul Haziqah (:
Hehehehe.

Don't kill me Haziqahhhh.

Dreaming about _____ always make my day so much brighter.
I think I was smiling throughout my sleep..
It's just that no one saw it cause I was alone.

The dream made me realise one thing.
& I'm not going to say it out loud.
Hehe.

I miss _____.

Zhen, if you're reading this, you'll know who ;)
*crosses pinky with you, virtually, spiritually*
Pinky swear, secret between us!
Hahahahahaha.

Hiiii!
I'm blogging and I'm in school right now.
I'm waiting for my next class that starts in 20 minutes and I'm so bored right now.
Yay for the small laptop that I can bring around and yay for the school's wireless network!
I'm going to dye my hair back to brown black, my natural color... Soon.
No idea when but probably soon because my black roots are sooooooo obvious since it's been like 2-3 months since I dye-d it.
And I have to trim my hair a little bit.
It's getting messy.

So, I'm going to have to take the bus home later. HAHAHA.
Caroline taking the bus :D

So I was thinking about what am I going to do when I go back to Singapore & Indonesia.
I've a couple of things in mind of what I want to do in Singapore, or rather what I HAVE to do..
1) Dentist - to replace my retainers.
2) Skin Doctor.
3) Eye Doctor - Lasik!!
4) My Mission Impossible ;) - only Tracy will know what I mean.
5) Visit all the places that I haven't been before and take photos.
6) Look at the new shopping centres.
And to hang out with you guys of course...

& In Indonesia.. I don't really know yet.
But I'll probably hang out with my new made Indonesian friends :D
If they go back in the Summer too.
And like, visit the brand new shopping malls.
Eat my awesome maid's cooking.

That's about it for now.
So many things to do in 3 weeks.
Insane!
I've to squeeze so many things into one day.

Can't wait to go back.
But before my hectic Summer schedule begins.
I've a busy busy plan for December too.
Cousin & her family coming over to visit colleges and I'm her "tour guide".
Another cousin and her family coming over after my cousin's graduation.
And my brother's coming with the cousin that I first stated.
Yay! I miss him so much...... ):
Especially the quarelling part.

Okay, got to off the laptop now.
Stupid boring lessons #2 is going to start soon.
Byebyebye.
Xoxo.

I'm getting lazy.
It's Sunday.
I haven't study a single thing since Thursday.
& it's 8 minutes to 11pm now.
I"m going to start studying then..
Thank goodness for Afternoon class, 340pm.

So sleepy....
Help me ):

I had so much stuff that I wanted to blog about.
But now, I don't really have the mood to say anything.
It's 230am now.
Church's in 8.5 hours.

My mind just won't stop popping up things for me to think and fret about.
How awesome is my brain?
Be it good or bad things to think about.
Everyone, love my brain.

<3

I've been hearing so many people asking me about which major do I want to take.
Usually, I'd answer.. "Accounting? Or something related to Business."
But now, I find myself changing my answer to a simple "I don't know".
Why?
Because I know that I don't want to take anything to do with Business anymore.
I remember me telling myself that, I'd never want to do anything that has something to do with Math after Os.
And yet, I'm taking Accounting this semester.

Daddy and Mommy said in the car a few days ago, that most of the people who major-ed in Business, are jobless.
Yes, most of them.
So, I'm thinking, why should I take Business and be one of the jobless ones?
That will be so stupid of me.
And they said about my cousin, Linda, about being unique, because she's taking Mass Communication.
Hey, that's what I wanted to take.
Something to do with the media, entertainment industry.
I didn't open my mouth to actually tell them.
Because I was afraid of what my sister, who was in the car, would think of it.
She'll probably scold me for being stupid or something.
I don't know.
It just doesn't seem realistic for Indonesians to take Media-related majors.

I'm not saying that I'll have a job just because I don't take the Business major.
It's just that, since we know that there are so many people out there who are unable to find jobs.
Why line up in that ever so long, never ending queue to just have a slight opportunity of having a job?

I don't know what am I saying anymore.
I don't know if you get what am I saying over here.
Truthfully, I just wanted to rant, even though you guys may not understand what I am saying.
I just think that this is the place that I want to speak my mind at.

Okay, it's 3am.
I've to get ready by 11am tomorrow, since Dajie and Jane wants to get breakfast or something..
Which I doubt we will in the end.
& Erjie's going to fetch me at 1245pm tomorrow.
Church event, the Sports' Day, starts at 1pm tomorrow.

So, goodnight.

Suddenly, I'm not so sure about the thing I was so sure a month ago. I just want to be like one of actors in the movie. Going to the beach and just screaming my lungs out. I don't know who to turn to. I don't want to annoy those I always turn to, talking about this topic over and over again. Sometimes my brain just decides to turn against my made up mind and screw everyone all over again.

Why can't I just seem to make up my mind and make that the end of it. Seriously. Why?

I know how much you guys hate me for always posting super wordy posts.
Especially with no pictures in them.
Not even one.. Hahaha.
So this is for you guys.
I wanted to upload more.
But it's already 241am, and I'm exhausted.
& I got to wake up early tomorrow to study.
Study study study.
Hahaha, most of these pictures, actually, all except the first photo are from my sister's camera.
So I don't know if you guys have seen them in Facebook.
Here you go:

Verna Sukiat.
I heard you're not feeling well.
Take care of yourself yeah.
Don't do so much work, staying over in school to rush your projects, not sleeping until a couple of hours before sunrise!
It's no wonder you're sick.
Health comes first okay!

I can't really remember how we first got to know each other.
Hahah, obviously it's in Manjusri but, when?
I know we had our ups and downs.
And some major drama and all.
I don't know what to say really.
But I'm just glad that you're my friend.
No, one of my best friends.

I know there are times when you feel like some things inside you are killing you.
Like one of the drama that happened last time.
I know I'm not a really good advice-giver person.
But I hope that my pair of listening ear was of much help.

You know what, I can still totally remember how you'll say my name when I say/do something lame.
And I remember the time when you screamed "Olin!" from one end to another.
I remember our Choir days, and those days in Secondary 2 where I was being isolated that I quit Choir..
I remember the recesses that we had together with the gang, and you'll always get muah-chee and never finish it.
And how you don't remember your classes after recess that we've to remind you whether you've to go to your Malay class.

There are so many memories that are etched in my memory.
& I assure you that I'll never forget them.

Especially how you wanted your letter to be long.
The letter I gave the few of you on the day I left for the US.
I know it wasn't much.
But I hope you know what I'm trying to say.

Remember the stay over we had at your place!
Facial mask + cucumber on our eyes.
Those days seemed it was just a couple of months ago.
But it's more than a year ago.

Friends, Friendships are really important.
And I'm glad that I've a friend like you.
For those times where the "Operation to Isolate Caroline" took place, I mean, I still remember it, it obviously hurt a lot.
Like, a lot..
I just wanted to cry my heart out.
And to tell the truth, I really wanted to just transfer out of Manjusri.
I just wanted to get out and run out of the situation.
I'm not even kidding.
But, I forgive you guys.
Because I believe all that matters is the present.
And that we are friends now.

How I wish I'm there to celebrate Janet's birthday! ):
I miss you guys so much.
I'll see you in 10-11 months.
<3

Falling sick.
That says it all.
I'm falling sick.

Wednesday, on the way to school..
My first time ever, I experienced car-sickness.
I felt so sick.

Thursday, after waking up.
Flu.
At night, drank medicine.
Friday (today), woke up with a cough.

Ah, my body's being so annoying now.

On the bright side, kinda..
Happy Birthday Janet Lau Shan Xiu! <3
I miss you! And I'm sorry I'm not there for the 10th birthday we wished each other for.
10 years and counting.
How awesome is that?
I'll celebrate with you whenever I'm back during your birthday!
In.... 5 years? Hahaha, after I graduate.
See, that's the kinda not-so-bright-side of this.
Ah, see you soon.
Hope you've the most fantastic birthday okay (:

I'll blog another day.
Xoxo.

命運。
我們是否能改變我們自己的命運呢？
我們的父親是商人，那就代表我們也必須像他一樣嗎？
如果我們的夢想不是要當一位商人，怎麼辦呢？
如果我們的父母親逼我們去做我們對它沒有興趣的事，我們會快樂嗎？
我們不是應該做我們愛的事嗎？
比如說，如果父母親在家裡，逼我們做一件事的話，我們也不會把它做好。
那不就是一樣的道理嗎？
如果父母親逼我們當個商人而我們不喜歡那個工作，我們也不會把工作做好。

我相信，我們每一個人都可以改變我們的命運。
我們不一定要跟著我們父母親的願望。
可是，如果你真的要向你的夢想往前走，你一定要做好準備。
在你面前，不是一個好走的路。
要得到自己想要的是，一定要付出很多。

我相信，我已經有我必須有的心理準備。
相信自己，告訴父母親你想要做的事。
說服他們，那是你真真想做的事，而且，你一定要知道他們會永遠的支持你。

那就是我想做的事。
說服我的父母親，姐姐們。
因為我相信我當個商人，不是我的命運。
我一定要實現我從六歲左右的夢想，一定要。

Hello hello! :D
I'm so sleepy now.
It's 1.30pm.

Talking to Haziqah and Jared now.
Hahahaha.
Haziqah already have plans in mind...
Plans of what we're going to do when I'm going back in ELEVEN months.
ELEVEN okay.
That's almost a year, but she already planned where to go and stuff.
Insane right?
Hahahahaha.

Okay, this blog shall be about HAZIQAH.
Nurul Haziqah. I miss you!
More of your nonsense though.
HAHAHA nonsesnse/rnonsense! *winkwink*
I can imagine you laughing with that facial expression of yours..
Omg, I can imagine your laughter.
I can't wait to go back in 11 months and you bugging me with your lame stuff.
HAHAHA, kidding :D
Hippo/Duck ride, we've been saying since weeks before I left!
But we really have to go okay.
I'm going to be a tourist when I go back!
And please ask your Mama to allow you to go Indonesia.
Else, I'll call her myself. I still have her number in my old phone back in Singapore..
Hahaha.
And thank you for that book that you gave me before I left.
Even though I still have no clue why the book cover is LONDON rather than Los Angeles or something..
But it's the thought that counts.
I have tears in my eye while reading it.
You're so awesome.
Known you literally since the first day of Secondary school. (Thanks to your Mama).
Wasn't really close with you until Secondary 2.
3 to 4 years, it's like 1/3 of a decade.
Seems long huh? But it flew past like the speed of light.
We've come such a long way, ups and downs and blahblahblah... (you know what I mean).
And we're still close, best friends.
And it better stay that way!
Thank you for enduring my ranting about me being fat or rather obese.
I know you want to kill me everytime I start to talk about that topic but....
It is the truth. Face it Haziqah.
Hahahaha. I miss you dude.
Countdown to the days until I'm back okay. HAHA, kidding.
I can't wait to go back.
Orchard (ION!), duck/hippo tour, Singapore Flyer.... & I don't know, do some tourist stuff?
Like going to the only "exciting place" like SENTOSA.
Or you know what we can do?
I've always wanted to go to some random place in Singapore just to take photos.
We hardly take photos huh. Since the years we know each other.
We've to take more photos when I go back okay.
Must.
I'll see you in eleven months dear.
Xoxo ❤

Next post dedication is for Verna Sukiat :D

Looking forward to go back.
I want to go skin doctor and hope to go for Lasik.
So I won't have to wear contacts & specs anymore.
Hooray!

Okay, goodnight!

我不敢對任何人坦白的說，其實。 。 。
我是在默默的愛你，的想你。
好希望我可以再看你一面。
好希望我會有那麼一個機會。

愛しています。

I just realised my computer screwed up a few days ago.
And didn't post the entry I posted.
Oh well.
Let me think what I wrote...
Okay.
My Blackberry (BB) is a little screwed up now.
Something about the javascript and I can't blog through my phone.
Which sucks.
I wanted to a lot of time.
Every since BB came along, I hardly use my computer anymore.
So forgive me for that.

I want to go back Singapore.
Grr, but I want to hurry finish College.
Dilemma.
OH.
You know what I realised?
I think I can go back to Singapore next year.
Even if I go Summer class, I might have a couple of weeks break.
Hold on, let me check now. Hehe.

Okay, so this is this year's schedule.

Summer 2009
6wk session: 6/22/09-7/31/09
8wk session: 6/22/09-8/14/09
Late Start session: 7/6/09-8/14/09

Fall 2009
August 31, 2009- December 22, 2009

So if I take the 6 weeks session, I can go back for about 4 weeks, which is a month.
And if I take the 8 weeks session, I can go back for 2 weeks?
And same goes for the last session, going back for only 2 weeks.
Let's see how it goes.
:D

I can't wait to back to Singapore.
I can't wait to see the skin doctor.
Love/hate relationship with the weather here.
Giving me MILLIONS of pimples, but they're not so obvious that I can conceal them perfectly..
That's the hate.
And the love is that, it's really cooling.
Hahaha, can't wait to go back to see all of you of course.

Cousin and her family, with my brother tagging along are coming this End of November.
Can't wait.
Even thought I'm not that close with that family but it's good to start getting close right?
We're family!
Plus my cousin's coming over to study and I'm going to bring her around my school.
It'll be so cool if she comes to PCC..
Even though by the time she come I'm already in SMC.
But she'll probably do the same thing, or just stay in PCC all the way.
I'm not very sure about that.
Hahah.
PLUS, my brother is coming.
I miss him so much! ):

Okay, tv tv tv.
It's 11:02am!
I'm so bored.
I woke up 3 hours ago.
Hahaha, okay, bye!

I just realised I haven't updated for a week.
Anyway, it's August 15.
You know what it means?
I'm already 17.5 years old. (Yes, they count it by 17.5 years old, so weird right?)
I can take the driving test already!
Anytime I want.
I can't wait to drive, because... (:

Let's just hope that the wishes I wished upon the falling stars do come true.
:D

Just now while on the way back after chillin' at about 130am.
We were talking about how my sister's friend liked this guy for 8 months.
She still does by the way.
& I was reminded about the time where I liked you for 4 years or something.
From Primary 6 all the way to Secondary 4.
Wow.
Even I am amazed at myself now.
How could I actually like you for 4 years.
Okay, a few crushes and stupid decisions in between.
But, I remained "faithful" and can't change the feelings I had for you.
But...
At the same time, now I'm wondering why was I so stupid to actually like you for so long.
Seriously.

But I'm happy with myself.
That I finally got over you.
After 4 years!

Oh, I was looking through most of my photo albums in Facebook.
And, I'm missing the times we spent in Manjusri.
I miss 4E1.
I'm missing the times the 10 of us went to Thailand.
I hope that we can have another trip like that.
I miss all of you.

Such a random post.. I know.

xoxo

As much as I want to go back next year..
I think I'll refrain myself from doing so.
I've been thinking and I'd like to graduate ASAP..
So I rather stay here and go back the following year, after College.
:/

My sisters always ask me what I want to major in.
I always say "I don't know, business?", thinking that that's what I'm supposed to study.
Since young, my dream was to be an Actress.
I was hoping that I could take Theatre Arts..
I really want to be up there, on a film/drama, making people feeling good about my movie and stuff like that.
But the next question follows, "Will that guarantee me with a stable job?"
I know that's my Dad's concern to.
I don't know.
I was thinking of joining Acting class, maybe after graduating from studying Business.
I... Really want to do something that I like.
But I doubt I can.
Because my interest won't ensure my bright future.

Yes, LA is a place where 90% of the people wants to be famous.
I didn't say I want to try it out here..
I'd like to go Taiwan.
Debut in a super awesome drama that makes everyone glued to it that they just can't leave it to go out.
That is my dream.
That is my ambition.
That is what I want to achieve in life.

I know it's hard.
But that is life, isn't it?
We have to overcome all the obstacles ahead of you, in order for you to achieve what you want.
I don't know how to open my mouth about this to my Dad& Mom.
I don't know what will they think about me and my dreams.

I've daydreamed about going Taiwan during holidays, and try for their auditions/casting calls.
Imagine that happening.
That'll be the first huge step I'm taking to achieve my goal in life.

I'd really really want my dreams to come true.
I'd really really like Dad, Mom& Sisters to support in what I want to do/learn.
I hope that I can take Theatre Arts, or go to Taiwan to fulfill my dream.
I don't mind studying Business, as it can be my backup plan.
But I'd like to pursue my dream after graduating University studying Business.

That, is my dream.
& I'm no longer afraid to let people know.
You can laugh at me, I won't be hurt and cry about it.
As long as I know I have a goal in life, and yet you're doing nothing but laughing at me, I'm contented as you're the joke, not me.

Xoxo.

Watched The Ugly Truth and it was superb.
My sister's friend asked what was the lesson learnt from the show, through BBM.
So, my sister asked the table of 8 of us, excluding her, the question.
A few of them came up with the moral of the movie.

Men want to be understood rather than being loved by us, women.
& Women want to be loved rather than being understood by them, men.

But my sister thinks that "Men are shallow" will summarize everything.
Hahahaha.

Okay, I know I haven't been updating much...
But check out my Facebook for photos update.
I've been very active in Facebook due to my lovely awesome Blackberry.
Hahaha. Everyone should get a Blackberry.

Oh! I think I'll be uploading more pictures than what I'm going to blog here.
Because I love my camera & I love my Blackberry.
And I just bought a lens for my camera.
70-300mm. Finally a lens that allows me to zoom far away.
I hate it when I use my camera, and want to zoom far, but can't.
But now, no more of that problem.
I want to go out to more of those pretty places that I can take pretty photos.
Go see my beach photos! Awesomeness.
But it wasn't taken with my new lens so most of the photos that I wanted to zoom in, I can't.
Okay, moral of the story...
More photoshoot session please!

I don't know what to blog!
I don't know how are you guys doing over back there.
You guys hardly blog too!
Too busy with Poly life and all?
Update me with everything!
Through Facebook, Email or whatever way possible.
Hahah, I know that some of you wanted me to send letters and all.
But my sister just told me that sending a letter from here to Singapore takes like 2 weeks!
I emailed like a few of you.
I'm going to email a few soon, heheh.
No time to email! I've been going out almost everyday.

Erjie is going back to Singapore next Tuesday.
Leaving dajie and I alone here.
Aw.

Hmmmm, update whenever again!
<3

I'm so obese.
Ah! Kill me.

I need to go shopping!
Like get some pretty flats and some heels that are not so extremely high.
Like, I've been wearing flipflops.
Shoe yesterday.
And heels the day after I arrived. Yes, only that one time.

Hahahaha. I want to go shopping!! :D

I miss you.
I really do.

Stop the bombings!!
Poor Ritz Carlton & Marriott.
9 dead & more than 50 wounded.
Pray for them..
Hope they don't find any more people injured or dead.
Stop bombing Indonesia!
Grrr.

School = 4 days a week.
Monday to Thursday.
I don't have morning classes.. AT ALL.
Stupid people occupied all the classes.
So I only have afternoon classes.
And.. Night classes.

2 classes each for Monday & Wednesday.
Accounting: 340pm to 610pm.
Math: 700pm to 930pm.
(My class end @ 930pm.. Wow.)

Tuesday's my busiest day.
Counseling (a compulsory class): 100pm to 340pm.
English Writing Class: 420pm to 515pm.
English: 530pm to 735pm.

Thursday is my reward day.
English: 530pm to 735pm.

Friday to Sunday = go back to my place with my sisters..

I was supposed to take Econs & Philo...
But Econs was full..
& the person and my eldest sister asked me not to take cause it's bloody difficult for a freshman, aka me.
So, I chose Maths in the end..
And my elder sister would probably kill me because she asked me not to take Maths..
But I'd no other choices.
Supposed to take another counseling class too, a class with more units...
But the person said the credit won't be transferable to USC.
So what the heck, changed class again.

SO CONFUSING!
Grrrr.

Oh wells. Everything's good now.
The only time I've to go back to school again is next week.
23 & 24 July for some stupid workshop...
It had to be compulsory...
Then August 17 to make my student ID card.
Just one semester of this torturous afternoon-night classes..
Just one semester of staying alone..
Just one semester until I transfer to SMC & I can stay with my sisters.
:D

But I'll be leaving Kartika aloneeee.
Hahah, even though we only have like...
2 classes the same for now...
Oh wells.

Not going SF this weekend!
Going San Diego tomorrow though.
One-day trip.
SF will be for next weekend or something.

Michelle Chang will be back early August!!
Which means I can go up to San Jose to find her.
Woooooo! :D
Okay, see ya!
<3

Cooked dinner with Dajie today :D
She did most of the cooking cause I was busy cutting up everything.
Heh, it turned out pretty good.
& it's so much cheaper rather than having to eat out.

Let's cook more often :D

Hehe, doesn't that look good?

Tuesday (my tomorrow) = Placement tests for school, English and Maths.
Wednesday = Counselling, group counselling for 2.5 hours!
Thursday = I'm free! (I shall go out with Steph/Jess/Kartika or something, not my sisters!)
Friday = Registration for classes..
Sat-Monday(?) = SF!
Thursday & Friday = Some workshop in school..
Then no plans in between..
3 August = Six Flags!
Then..
18-23August = NY!
24 August = Parents coming!
31 August = Start school!
Then sometime in September.. = Staying alone in Pasadena & most probably walking to school.
Hahahaha.

Yay. 从来没想过，不能再和你牵手。不对，我们有这个机会吗？

Happy Birthday Alyssa Wee!
Sorry that I'm not there to celebrate your birthday with you.
Have fun okay :D
I miss you girl.

Talked to Haziqah just now.
Hahaha, she was so shocked that I was online.
The time difference sucks.
I'm always online whenever I'm home that is..
But, I hardly talk to people because they are either in school or sleeping.
Sucks huh?

So, I went to Church just now.
It wasn't as boring as I thought it'd be.

I'll try to blog more hehe.
:D could it be?

Today was freaking hot..
& my sister came up with a very bright idea.
Go to this garden..
& we went there at about... 12noon up until 230pm.
The temperature, the highest one was 38-39 degrees.
But now (325pm), it's about 24?

Heh :D

Hellooooo.
I went to my school today to "check-in"..
It's so stupid though.
They should make international students "check-in" online.
Grr.

Went shopping a bit.
Forever 21 here is ultra cheap!
But my sister told me something.
There is no Topshop here!
How could that be!

Supposed to get my phone line today, but they need my dad to call the operator to do something and stuff like that.
So, getting it tomorrow or the day after.

My sisters' fridge is filled with nothing but unhealthy junk food.
I want to go grocery shopping.
Thank goodness Ralphs (a grocery store) is just next to my place.

The weather here is pretty good.
Though it's very hot in the afternoon..
It reached up to 29C today.
But it's not humid here so everything's good.
It was 22C when I got home justs now.
And at night, it'll get to like 16C.
Heheh, I hate Singapore's weather.
I don't even have an air conditioner here.
We just need to open the door.
HAHA. :D

It's summer.
So night's pretty short.
It only gets dark at like 830 to 9pm.
And it gets bright early in the morning. Hehe.

I'm going for fine dining later.
Hehehe :D
& I might be going New York in August.
Hahaha :D

Miss you guys.
Xoxo.

I'm sorry guys!
I had no time to blog in Indonesia.

I'm in the US now.
I feel so alone here!
I mean, I've my sisters and Mikey.
But that's it.
No friends.
Sucks to be me.

I miss you guys.
Read your letters and stuff...
Made me feel like crying.
Thanks a lot, hahaha.

I just came back from late lunch..
I'm so full but my sisters planned to go somewhere for dinner already.
How insaneeee.
Okay, I'll blog when I do anything here.
:D

<3

在不到24小時的時間，我就會在機場了。
我已經離開了我朋友們的身邊。
我可以向你們保證，我一定會哭的。
那兩次我姐姐都去美國的時候，我也哭了。
這一次不是會更慘嗎？
這一次不是姐姐或是弟弟到美國去。
這一次，是我到美國的時候了。

我不敢面對現實，我選擇生活在屬於我自己的世界裡。
我不想離開。

Jakarta (CGK) Singapore (SIN)
06:15 08:50

Singapore(SIN) Tokyo (NRT)
09:40 17:35

Tokyo(NRT) Los Angeles (LAX)
18:45 13:00

Kill me please.