When I see a pretty skyline, I'll think of you.
When I see a pretty view, you fill my mind.

HAHAHAHA. What rubbish.
But isn't that sunset view just spectacular.
I mean, it's even prettier in reality.
Seriously!
No matter how good of a photographer you are, I believe that we just can't capture the true reality in a picture.
Nothing beats being at the location itself to experience the beauty of the moment that we wish to capture with our camera.

What am I talking about..
I hope you guys understand me!

Oh oh! Hey look!
I'm getting back to blogging.
I'm working on writing more posts.
& I'll probably change my picture every few weeks.
Just to keep you guys coming back to my blog :)
Heheh.

I think the price of the clothes here are getting into my head,
and making me hooked to the thought of going shopping.
Must. Resist.
I shall limit myself to blog only every once every few months...
But I really have to shop soon.
To prepare for winter.
I swear that's not an excuse.
I don't want to die from the cold!
And it sucks to have a sister who doesn't have the same shoe size as me.
If not... I wouldn't have to shop.
And for the sister who have the same size of me, kinda, doesn't really like to shop.
The horror.

Well, that's the case for footwear.
For clothes..
I can't fit to both sisters' because I'm much more bigger in size than them.
I doubt that I can even be the same size as them no matter how much weight I actually lose.
I've broader shoulders, I think.
I've wide hips, which leads to bigger thighs.
But I think my sister wore my shorts cause I saw it hanging behind her toilet door..
It should be loose for her.
No idea why is it there.
Okay, back to topic.
See, that's why I can't share with them clothes.
But if they have a bigger sized clothes.
I'll just force myself to fit into them anyway. HAHA.
Self-denial about my own size.
I'll lose weight to be more like them... Soon.

I need to get more bags too.
Or I can just steal my sister's.
I've been doing that. Hahaha.
I stole two or three of her bags already. (:

Anyway, anyway!
I dyed my hair back to black.
I'm so not used to seeing myself in black hair.
It's been about 11 months or something since I dyed my hair to brownish-red!
My natural hair colour isn't even black in the first place.
Can't wait for my hair to freaking grow longer, then I'll chop it off again so I'll have my natural hair.
Nothing but my natural hair.

Didn't go to Church today.
Wanted to surprise my friend with my new hairstyle.
Hahaha, oh well, I'll see her in two weeks' time.

I'm going to school early tomorrow.
Just to talk to my school's counselor.
(Don't worry, I'm not going crazy.)
I'm going to ask her about my Winter & Spring class schedule.
If not... I shall not tell you guys anything.
I'll let you know after I actually talk to her.
So confusing.
Gah, I'm going to plan my school stuff later since I've nothing better to do anyway.
It's Sunday night, 1045pm, and I've Accounting homework due tomorrow, but I don't usually do them anyway...
So who gives a heck.
Don't feel like going to school.
To add to that, I'm going to get back my two test papers.
Accounting and Math.
Just kill me already.

Ah, so annoyed over some news.
Hope it's not true ):
I don't want it to be true..

Heh, just got back not long ago, so I shall bathe and stuff now!
I'm so bloody random.
Realize how my topic can jump from A to H to X or something?
Okay, whatever Caroline.

With lots of loveeeeeeeeeeee!!
Will blog with PICTURES next time.
Heehehe.

Don't complain and say that I'm not blogging people.
Here I am.

So, haven't been doing much interesting stuff lately.
So there's nothing much to blog about really.
Halloween's coming soon, so expect pictures then yeah?
No promises though.
I'll try to blog more pictures too.

So, I just got a small makeover.
I dyed my new hair back to black.
(Not blonde my dear Haziqah & Verna)
Cutting like 15cm, not an exact value of course, was such a random decision.

I'm being asked to change and to go out.
So I'll continue another day.
Bye!
Love you guyssss.

Hello!!
First thing.
I hate Haziqah. HAHAHA.
I am NOT anorexic.
Thank you very much.

Verna!
Always in Indo ahhhhhh.
Boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend!
Hahah, how are you? :D

H&V, must conference on MSN more okay.
Miss you guyssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

JANETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT LAU.
I love you!! HAHAHA.
Bbm-ing you the other day wasn't such a bad choice eh?
It got us started to bbm for hours and skype for hours every other day.
<3

Alyssa Wee!
Miss you! Can you come over please.
Mitch and I are waiting for you.
We miss youuu. Macs in the middle of the night.
Complaining to me in the middle night about stuff.
Hahaha, I miss youuuuu. See you soon okay. Xoxoxo.

Nita, I really don't know what to blog about..
Give me some ideas what to blog about.
Anyway you're looking damn pretty eh!
HAHA.

J.Poon, Can you please eat more?
Thank you very much.
Hahah, I expect to see you being much more chubby when I go back please.
You're bloody skinny lah, bamboo stickkkkkkkk!!

Tracy, don't be too anorexic please.
Hahahahhaha, can you please repair your bbm.
It feels so weird not bbm-ing you at all. HAHA.

I miss all of you guysssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!
I want to go back soon.
ASAP ASAP.

Please let me know when are your holidays for next year's August.
Please and thank youuu.
Because I hope I'm going back when it's your holidays.
So that we can spend time together..
So many people to meet up with but so little time.
Better sacrifice your time to meet up with me. HAHA.
I'm kidding.

Anyway, I want to do so many things!!
#1. Picnic at Botanics. (Taken by Janet, Jiani & Kim :D)
#2. Picnic at Marina Barrage.
#3. Go around West side & those areas that I've never been there.
#4. Walk around my long-time-no-see Orchard Road.
#5. Go Haji Lane & shop with my dearest Alyssa.
#6. Go Far East Plaza with my shopping people.
#7. Kbox!
#8. Sentosa? Heard some parts it's renovating?
#9. Singapore Flyer!
#10. Visit school, Manjusri?
#11 onwards - still in consideration :D

Give me more ideas...
Let me know which one you're willing to fill the gap for.
Miss and love you guys. Xoxoxo.

(I'm laughing hearing Brenda laughing at my post. HAHAHHA)

我好想以前在道南的時候。
我們什麽時候才能像以前一樣，玩籃球，在圖書館玩耍，到Parkway Parade逛一逛呢？
我們都麽的自在，活潑，自由，都沒有什麽的煩惱。
我想回到過去。

I miss the times when we were still in Tao Nan.
When can we be like before again?
Playing basketball, playing in the library, going to Parkway Parade to walk around.
We were so free, and full of life, with no problems at all.
I want to go back to that time.

I have no idea why I just typed it in Chinese and translated it..
Oh well.
I finally met my sister, Steph, after 2 weeks since I didn't come back to the other house last weekend.
I missed her ):
I can't wait to see the rest of the "gang" this weekend.
Hahah.

Been trying to plan my Summer next year.
Too many things to do, but so little time.
I'm afraid that I won't even be in Singapore for 2 weeks..
Actually, it's kind of confirm that I won't be in Singapore for 2 weeks.
I need to spend everyday of my time in Singapore going out with you guys.
Ahhhh.
I need more time.

The background of my new photo is my current place which is super messed up....
Hahahaha, who cares :D

Anyway, I lost weight, yay!

Okay, I'm going to bathe, prepare for school, eat and go to school now.

(8) Baby don't worry, you are my only.......
Baby are you down down down down downnnn.. (8)

Hello!
I'm in class right now.
English class.
SO BORING.
& yes, I'm using the laptop.
Awesomecakes.
HAHAHA.

English is hell.
Kill me now, thanks.

<3

So, remember how everyone asked me why I didn't want to place a tagboard in my blog?
As you can see, reason number one is how annoying it is when people spam your blog.
Even if it's your own brother, in this case.
This just makes me feel all irritated and ultimately, too lazy to blog about anything.
So, bye!

I've no idea why is there a line across my new picture.
But who cares.
Hahahaha.

If I hardly blog anymore....
Blame Nurul Haziqah (:
Hehehehe.

Don't kill me Haziqahhhh.

Dreaming about _____ always make my day so much brighter.
I think I was smiling throughout my sleep..
It's just that no one saw it cause I was alone.

The dream made me realise one thing.
& I'm not going to say it out loud.
Hehe.

I miss _____.

Zhen, if you're reading this, you'll know who ;)
*crosses pinky with you, virtually, spiritually*
Pinky swear, secret between us!
Hahahahahaha.

Hiiii!
I'm blogging and I'm in school right now.
I'm waiting for my next class that starts in 20 minutes and I'm so bored right now.
Yay for the small laptop that I can bring around and yay for the school's wireless network!
I'm going to dye my hair back to brown black, my natural color... Soon.
No idea when but probably soon because my black roots are sooooooo obvious since it's been like 2-3 months since I dye-d it.
And I have to trim my hair a little bit.
It's getting messy.

So, I'm going to have to take the bus home later. HAHAHA.
Caroline taking the bus :D

So I was thinking about what am I going to do when I go back to Singapore & Indonesia.
I've a couple of things in mind of what I want to do in Singapore, or rather what I HAVE to do..
1) Dentist - to replace my retainers.
2) Skin Doctor.
3) Eye Doctor - Lasik!!
4) My Mission Impossible ;) - only Tracy will know what I mean.
5) Visit all the places that I haven't been before and take photos.
6) Look at the new shopping centres.
And to hang out with you guys of course...

& In Indonesia.. I don't really know yet.
But I'll probably hang out with my new made Indonesian friends :D
If they go back in the Summer too.
And like, visit the brand new shopping malls.
Eat my awesome maid's cooking.

That's about it for now.
So many things to do in 3 weeks.
Insane!
I've to squeeze so many things into one day.

Can't wait to go back.
But before my hectic Summer schedule begins.
I've a busy busy plan for December too.
Cousin & her family coming over to visit colleges and I'm her "tour guide".
Another cousin and her family coming over after my cousin's graduation.
And my brother's coming with the cousin that I first stated.
Yay! I miss him so much...... ):
Especially the quarelling part.

Okay, got to off the laptop now.
Stupid boring lessons #2 is going to start soon.
Byebyebye.
Xoxo.

I'm getting lazy.
It's Sunday.
I haven't study a single thing since Thursday.
& it's 8 minutes to 11pm now.
I"m going to start studying then..
Thank goodness for Afternoon class, 340pm.

So sleepy....
Help me ):

I had so much stuff that I wanted to blog about.
But now, I don't really have the mood to say anything.
It's 230am now.
Church's in 8.5 hours.

My mind just won't stop popping up things for me to think and fret about.
How awesome is my brain?
Be it good or bad things to think about.
Everyone, love my brain.

<3

I've been hearing so many people asking me about which major do I want to take.
Usually, I'd answer.. "Accounting? Or something related to Business."
But now, I find myself changing my answer to a simple "I don't know".
Why?
Because I know that I don't want to take anything to do with Business anymore.
I remember me telling myself that, I'd never want to do anything that has something to do with Math after Os.
And yet, I'm taking Accounting this semester.

Daddy and Mommy said in the car a few days ago, that most of the people who major-ed in Business, are jobless.
Yes, most of them.
So, I'm thinking, why should I take Business and be one of the jobless ones?
That will be so stupid of me.
And they said about my cousin, Linda, about being unique, because she's taking Mass Communication.
Hey, that's what I wanted to take.
Something to do with the media, entertainment industry.
I didn't open my mouth to actually tell them.
Because I was afraid of what my sister, who was in the car, would think of it.
She'll probably scold me for being stupid or something.
I don't know.
It just doesn't seem realistic for Indonesians to take Media-related majors.

I'm not saying that I'll have a job just because I don't take the Business major.
It's just that, since we know that there are so many people out there who are unable to find jobs.
Why line up in that ever so long, never ending queue to just have a slight opportunity of having a job?

I don't know what am I saying anymore.
I don't know if you get what am I saying over here.
Truthfully, I just wanted to rant, even though you guys may not understand what I am saying.
I just think that this is the place that I want to speak my mind at.

Okay, it's 3am.
I've to get ready by 11am tomorrow, since Dajie and Jane wants to get breakfast or something..
Which I doubt we will in the end.
& Erjie's going to fetch me at 1245pm tomorrow.
Church event, the Sports' Day, starts at 1pm tomorrow.

So, goodnight.

Suddenly, I'm not so sure about the thing I was so sure a month ago. I just want to be like one of actors in the movie. Going to the beach and just screaming my lungs out. I don't know who to turn to. I don't want to annoy those I always turn to, talking about this topic over and over again. Sometimes my brain just decides to turn against my made up mind and screw everyone all over again.

Why can't I just seem to make up my mind and make that the end of it. Seriously. Why?

I know how much you guys hate me for always posting super wordy posts.
Especially with no pictures in them.
Not even one.. Hahaha.
So this is for you guys.
I wanted to upload more.
But it's already 241am, and I'm exhausted.
& I got to wake up early tomorrow to study.
Study study study.
Hahaha, most of these pictures, actually, all except the first photo are from my sister's camera.
So I don't know if you guys have seen them in Facebook.
Here you go:

Verna Sukiat.
I heard you're not feeling well.
Take care of yourself yeah.
Don't do so much work, staying over in school to rush your projects, not sleeping until a couple of hours before sunrise!
It's no wonder you're sick.
Health comes first okay!

I can't really remember how we first got to know each other.
Hahah, obviously it's in Manjusri but, when?
I know we had our ups and downs.
And some major drama and all.
I don't know what to say really.
But I'm just glad that you're my friend.
No, one of my best friends.

I know there are times when you feel like some things inside you are killing you.
Like one of the drama that happened last time.
I know I'm not a really good advice-giver person.
But I hope that my pair of listening ear was of much help.

You know what, I can still totally remember how you'll say my name when I say/do something lame.
And I remember the time when you screamed "Olin!" from one end to another.
I remember our Choir days, and those days in Secondary 2 where I was being isolated that I quit Choir..
I remember the recesses that we had together with the gang, and you'll always get muah-chee and never finish it.
And how you don't remember your classes after recess that we've to remind you whether you've to go to your Malay class.

There are so many memories that are etched in my memory.
& I assure you that I'll never forget them.

Especially how you wanted your letter to be long.
The letter I gave the few of you on the day I left for the US.
I know it wasn't much.
But I hope you know what I'm trying to say.

Remember the stay over we had at your place!
Facial mask + cucumber on our eyes.
Those days seemed it was just a couple of months ago.
But it's more than a year ago.

Friends, Friendships are really important.
And I'm glad that I've a friend like you.
For those times where the "Operation to Isolate Caroline" took place, I mean, I still remember it, it obviously hurt a lot.
Like, a lot..
I just wanted to cry my heart out.
And to tell the truth, I really wanted to just transfer out of Manjusri.
I just wanted to get out and run out of the situation.
I'm not even kidding.
But, I forgive you guys.
Because I believe all that matters is the present.
And that we are friends now.

How I wish I'm there to celebrate Janet's birthday! ):
I miss you guys so much.
I'll see you in 10-11 months.
<3

Falling sick.
That says it all.
I'm falling sick.

Wednesday, on the way to school..
My first time ever, I experienced car-sickness.
I felt so sick.

Thursday, after waking up.
Flu.
At night, drank medicine.
Friday (today), woke up with a cough.

Ah, my body's being so annoying now.

On the bright side, kinda..
Happy Birthday Janet Lau Shan Xiu! <3
I miss you! And I'm sorry I'm not there for the 10th birthday we wished each other for.
10 years and counting.
How awesome is that?
I'll celebrate with you whenever I'm back during your birthday!
In.... 5 years? Hahaha, after I graduate.
See, that's the kinda not-so-bright-side of this.
Ah, see you soon.
Hope you've the most fantastic birthday okay (:

I'll blog another day.
Xoxo.

命運。
我們是否能改變我們自己的命運呢？
我們的父親是商人，那就代表我們也必須像他一樣嗎？
如果我們的夢想不是要當一位商人，怎麼辦呢？
如果我們的父母親逼我們去做我們對它沒有興趣的事，我們會快樂嗎？
我們不是應該做我們愛的事嗎？
比如說，如果父母親在家裡，逼我們做一件事的話，我們也不會把它做好。
那不就是一樣的道理嗎？
如果父母親逼我們當個商人而我們不喜歡那個工作，我們也不會把工作做好。

我相信，我們每一個人都可以改變我們的命運。
我們不一定要跟著我們父母親的願望。
可是，如果你真的要向你的夢想往前走，你一定要做好準備。
在你面前，不是一個好走的路。
要得到自己想要的是，一定要付出很多。

我相信，我已經有我必須有的心理準備。
相信自己，告訴父母親你想要做的事。
說服他們，那是你真真想做的事，而且，你一定要知道他們會永遠的支持你。

那就是我想做的事。
說服我的父母親，姐姐們。
因為我相信我當個商人，不是我的命運。
我一定要實現我從六歲左右的夢想，一定要。

Hello hello! :D
I'm so sleepy now.
It's 1.30pm.

Talking to Haziqah and Jared now.
Hahahaha.
Haziqah already have plans in mind...
Plans of what we're going to do when I'm going back in ELEVEN months.
ELEVEN okay.
That's almost a year, but she already planned where to go and stuff.
Insane right?
Hahahahaha.

Okay, this blog shall be about HAZIQAH.
Nurul Haziqah. I miss you!
More of your nonsense though.
HAHAHA nonsesnse/rnonsense! *winkwink*
I can imagine you laughing with that facial expression of yours..
Omg, I can imagine your laughter.
I can't wait to go back in 11 months and you bugging me with your lame stuff.
HAHAHA, kidding :D
Hippo/Duck ride, we've been saying since weeks before I left!
But we really have to go okay.
I'm going to be a tourist when I go back!
And please ask your Mama to allow you to go Indonesia.
Else, I'll call her myself. I still have her number in my old phone back in Singapore..
Hahaha.
And thank you for that book that you gave me before I left.
Even though I still have no clue why the book cover is LONDON rather than Los Angeles or something..
But it's the thought that counts.
I have tears in my eye while reading it.
You're so awesome.
Known you literally since the first day of Secondary school. (Thanks to your Mama).
Wasn't really close with you until Secondary 2.
3 to 4 years, it's like 1/3 of a decade.
Seems long huh? But it flew past like the speed of light.
We've come such a long way, ups and downs and blahblahblah... (you know what I mean).
And we're still close, best friends.
And it better stay that way!
Thank you for enduring my ranting about me being fat or rather obese.
I know you want to kill me everytime I start to talk about that topic but....
It is the truth. Face it Haziqah.
Hahahaha. I miss you dude.
Countdown to the days until I'm back okay. HAHA, kidding.
I can't wait to go back.
Orchard (ION!), duck/hippo tour, Singapore Flyer.... & I don't know, do some tourist stuff?
Like going to the only "exciting place" like SENTOSA.
Or you know what we can do?
I've always wanted to go to some random place in Singapore just to take photos.
We hardly take photos huh. Since the years we know each other.
We've to take more photos when I go back okay.
Must.
I'll see you in eleven months dear.
Xoxo ❤

Next post dedication is for Verna Sukiat :D

Looking forward to go back.
I want to go skin doctor and hope to go for Lasik.
So I won't have to wear contacts & specs anymore.
Hooray!

Okay, goodnight!

我不敢對任何人坦白的說，其實。 。 。
我是在默默的愛你，的想你。
好希望我可以再看你一面。
好希望我會有那麼一個機會。

愛しています。

I just realised my computer screwed up a few days ago.
And didn't post the entry I posted.
Oh well.
Let me think what I wrote...
Okay.
My Blackberry (BB) is a little screwed up now.
Something about the javascript and I can't blog through my phone.
Which sucks.
I wanted to a lot of time.
Every since BB came along, I hardly use my computer anymore.
So forgive me for that.

I want to go back Singapore.
Grr, but I want to hurry finish College.
Dilemma.
OH.
You know what I realised?
I think I can go back to Singapore next year.
Even if I go Summer class, I might have a couple of weeks break.
Hold on, let me check now. Hehe.

Okay, so this is this year's schedule.

Summer 2009
6wk session: 6/22/09-7/31/09
8wk session: 6/22/09-8/14/09
Late Start session: 7/6/09-8/14/09

Fall 2009
August 31, 2009- December 22, 2009

So if I take the 6 weeks session, I can go back for about 4 weeks, which is a month.
And if I take the 8 weeks session, I can go back for 2 weeks?
And same goes for the last session, going back for only 2 weeks.
Let's see how it goes.
:D

I can't wait to back to Singapore.
I can't wait to see the skin doctor.
Love/hate relationship with the weather here.
Giving me MILLIONS of pimples, but they're not so obvious that I can conceal them perfectly..
That's the hate.
And the love is that, it's really cooling.
Hahaha, can't wait to go back to see all of you of course.

Cousin and her family, with my brother tagging along are coming this End of November.
Can't wait.
Even thought I'm not that close with that family but it's good to start getting close right?
We're family!
Plus my cousin's coming over to study and I'm going to bring her around my school.
It'll be so cool if she comes to PCC..
Even though by the time she come I'm already in SMC.
But she'll probably do the same thing, or just stay in PCC all the way.
I'm not very sure about that.
Hahah.
PLUS, my brother is coming.
I miss him so much! ):

Okay, tv tv tv.
It's 11:02am!
I'm so bored.
I woke up 3 hours ago.
Hahaha, okay, bye!

I just realised I haven't updated for a week.
Anyway, it's August 15.
You know what it means?
I'm already 17.5 years old. (Yes, they count it by 17.5 years old, so weird right?)
I can take the driving test already!
Anytime I want.
I can't wait to drive, because... (:

Let's just hope that the wishes I wished upon the falling stars do come true.
:D

Just now while on the way back after chillin' at about 130am.
We were talking about how my sister's friend liked this guy for 8 months.
She still does by the way.
& I was reminded about the time where I liked you for 4 years or something.
From Primary 6 all the way to Secondary 4.
Wow.
Even I am amazed at myself now.
How could I actually like you for 4 years.
Okay, a few crushes and stupid decisions in between.
But, I remained "faithful" and can't change the feelings I had for you.
But...
At the same time, now I'm wondering why was I so stupid to actually like you for so long.
Seriously.

But I'm happy with myself.
That I finally got over you.
After 4 years!

Oh, I was looking through most of my photo albums in Facebook.
And, I'm missing the times we spent in Manjusri.
I miss 4E1.
I'm missing the times the 10 of us went to Thailand.
I hope that we can have another trip like that.
I miss all of you.

Such a random post.. I know.

xoxo

As much as I want to go back next year..
I think I'll refrain myself from doing so.
I've been thinking and I'd like to graduate ASAP..
So I rather stay here and go back the following year, after College.
:/

My sisters always ask me what I want to major in.
I always say "I don't know, business?", thinking that that's what I'm supposed to study.
Since young, my dream was to be an Actress.
I was hoping that I could take Theatre Arts..
I really want to be up there, on a film/drama, making people feeling good about my movie and stuff like that.
But the next question follows, "Will that guarantee me with a stable job?"
I know that's my Dad's concern to.
I don't know.
I was thinking of joining Acting class, maybe after graduating from studying Business.
I... Really want to do something that I like.
But I doubt I can.
Because my interest won't ensure my bright future.

Yes, LA is a place where 90% of the people wants to be famous.
I didn't say I want to try it out here..
I'd like to go Taiwan.
Debut in a super awesome drama that makes everyone glued to it that they just can't leave it to go out.
That is my dream.
That is my ambition.
That is what I want to achieve in life.

I know it's hard.
But that is life, isn't it?
We have to overcome all the obstacles ahead of you, in order for you to achieve what you want.
I don't know how to open my mouth about this to my Dad& Mom.
I don't know what will they think about me and my dreams.

I've daydreamed about going Taiwan during holidays, and try for their auditions/casting calls.
Imagine that happening.
That'll be the first huge step I'm taking to achieve my goal in life.

I'd really really want my dreams to come true.
I'd really really like Dad, Mom& Sisters to support in what I want to do/learn.
I hope that I can take Theatre Arts, or go to Taiwan to fulfill my dream.
I don't mind studying Business, as it can be my backup plan.
But I'd like to pursue my dream after graduating University studying Business.

That, is my dream.
& I'm no longer afraid to let people know.
You can laugh at me, I won't be hurt and cry about it.
As long as I know I have a goal in life, and yet you're doing nothing but laughing at me, I'm contented as you're the joke, not me.

Xoxo.

Watched The Ugly Truth and it was superb.
My sister's friend asked what was the lesson learnt from the show, through BBM.
So, my sister asked the table of 8 of us, excluding her, the question.
A few of them came up with the moral of the movie.

Men want to be understood rather than being loved by us, women.
& Women want to be loved rather than being understood by them, men.

But my sister thinks that "Men are shallow" will summarize everything.
Hahahaha.

Okay, I know I haven't been updating much...
But check out my Facebook for photos update.
I've been very active in Facebook due to my lovely awesome Blackberry.
Hahaha. Everyone should get a Blackberry.

Oh! I think I'll be uploading more pictures than what I'm going to blog here.
Because I love my camera & I love my Blackberry.
And I just bought a lens for my camera.
70-300mm. Finally a lens that allows me to zoom far away.
I hate it when I use my camera, and want to zoom far, but can't.
But now, no more of that problem.
I want to go out to more of those pretty places that I can take pretty photos.
Go see my beach photos! Awesomeness.
But it wasn't taken with my new lens so most of the photos that I wanted to zoom in, I can't.
Okay, moral of the story...
More photoshoot session please!

I don't know what to blog!
I don't know how are you guys doing over back there.
You guys hardly blog too!
Too busy with Poly life and all?
Update me with everything!
Through Facebook, Email or whatever way possible.
Hahah, I know that some of you wanted me to send letters and all.
But my sister just told me that sending a letter from here to Singapore takes like 2 weeks!
I emailed like a few of you.
I'm going to email a few soon, heheh.
No time to email! I've been going out almost everyday.

Erjie is going back to Singapore next Tuesday.
Leaving dajie and I alone here.
Aw.

Hmmmm, update whenever again!
<3

I'm so obese.
Ah! Kill me.

I need to go shopping!
Like get some pretty flats and some heels that are not so extremely high.
Like, I've been wearing flipflops.
Shoe yesterday.
And heels the day after I arrived. Yes, only that one time.

Hahahaha. I want to go shopping!! :D

I miss you.
I really do.

Stop the bombings!!
Poor Ritz Carlton & Marriott.
9 dead & more than 50 wounded.
Pray for them..
Hope they don't find any more people injured or dead.
Stop bombing Indonesia!
Grrr.

School = 4 days a week.
Monday to Thursday.
I don't have morning classes.. AT ALL.
Stupid people occupied all the classes.
So I only have afternoon classes.
And.. Night classes.

2 classes each for Monday & Wednesday.
Accounting: 340pm to 610pm.
Math: 700pm to 930pm.
(My class end @ 930pm.. Wow.)

Tuesday's my busiest day.
Counseling (a compulsory class): 100pm to 340pm.
English Writing Class: 420pm to 515pm.
English: 530pm to 735pm.

Thursday is my reward day.
English: 530pm to 735pm.

Friday to Sunday = go back to my place with my sisters..

I was supposed to take Econs & Philo...
But Econs was full..
& the person and my eldest sister asked me not to take cause it's bloody difficult for a freshman, aka me.
So, I chose Maths in the end..
And my elder sister would probably kill me because she asked me not to take Maths..
But I'd no other choices.
Supposed to take another counseling class too, a class with more units...
But the person said the credit won't be transferable to USC.
So what the heck, changed class again.

SO CONFUSING!
Grrrr.

Oh wells. Everything's good now.
The only time I've to go back to school again is next week.
23 & 24 July for some stupid workshop...
It had to be compulsory...
Then August 17 to make my student ID card.
Just one semester of this torturous afternoon-night classes..
Just one semester of staying alone..
Just one semester until I transfer to SMC & I can stay with my sisters.
:D

But I'll be leaving Kartika aloneeee.
Hahah, even though we only have like...
2 classes the same for now...
Oh wells.

Not going SF this weekend!
Going San Diego tomorrow though.
One-day trip.
SF will be for next weekend or something.

Michelle Chang will be back early August!!
Which means I can go up to San Jose to find her.
Woooooo! :D
Okay, see ya!
<3

Cooked dinner with Dajie today :D
She did most of the cooking cause I was busy cutting up everything.
Heh, it turned out pretty good.
& it's so much cheaper rather than having to eat out.

Let's cook more often :D

Hehe, doesn't that look good?

Tuesday (my tomorrow) = Placement tests for school, English and Maths.
Wednesday = Counselling, group counselling for 2.5 hours!
Thursday = I'm free! (I shall go out with Steph/Jess/Kartika or something, not my sisters!)
Friday = Registration for classes..
Sat-Monday(?) = SF!
Thursday & Friday = Some workshop in school..
Then no plans in between..
3 August = Six Flags!
Then..
18-23August = NY!
24 August = Parents coming!
31 August = Start school!
Then sometime in September.. = Staying alone in Pasadena & most probably walking to school.
Hahahaha.

Yay. 从来没想过，不能再和你牵手。不对，我们有这个机会吗？

Happy Birthday Alyssa Wee!
Sorry that I'm not there to celebrate your birthday with you.
Have fun okay :D
I miss you girl.

Talked to Haziqah just now.
Hahaha, she was so shocked that I was online.
The time difference sucks.
I'm always online whenever I'm home that is..
But, I hardly talk to people because they are either in school or sleeping.
Sucks huh?

So, I went to Church just now.
It wasn't as boring as I thought it'd be.

I'll try to blog more hehe.
:D could it be?

Today was freaking hot..
& my sister came up with a very bright idea.
Go to this garden..
& we went there at about... 12noon up until 230pm.
The temperature, the highest one was 38-39 degrees.
But now (325pm), it's about 24?

Heh :D

Hellooooo.
I went to my school today to "check-in"..
It's so stupid though.
They should make international students "check-in" online.
Grr.

Went shopping a bit.
Forever 21 here is ultra cheap!
But my sister told me something.
There is no Topshop here!
How could that be!

Supposed to get my phone line today, but they need my dad to call the operator to do something and stuff like that.
So, getting it tomorrow or the day after.

My sisters' fridge is filled with nothing but unhealthy junk food.
I want to go grocery shopping.
Thank goodness Ralphs (a grocery store) is just next to my place.

The weather here is pretty good.
Though it's very hot in the afternoon..
It reached up to 29C today.
But it's not humid here so everything's good.
It was 22C when I got home justs now.
And at night, it'll get to like 16C.
Heheh, I hate Singapore's weather.
I don't even have an air conditioner here.
We just need to open the door.
HAHA. :D

It's summer.
So night's pretty short.
It only gets dark at like 830 to 9pm.
And it gets bright early in the morning. Hehe.

I'm going for fine dining later.
Hehehe :D
& I might be going New York in August.
Hahaha :D

Miss you guys.
Xoxo.

I'm sorry guys!
I had no time to blog in Indonesia.

I'm in the US now.
I feel so alone here!
I mean, I've my sisters and Mikey.
But that's it.
No friends.
Sucks to be me.

I miss you guys.
Read your letters and stuff...
Made me feel like crying.
Thanks a lot, hahaha.

I just came back from late lunch..
I'm so full but my sisters planned to go somewhere for dinner already.
How insaneeee.
Okay, I'll blog when I do anything here.
:D

<3

在不到24小時的時間，我就會在機場了。
我已經離開了我朋友們的身邊。
我可以向你們保證，我一定會哭的。
那兩次我姐姐都去美國的時候，我也哭了。
這一次不是會更慘嗎？
這一次不是姐姐或是弟弟到美國去。
這一次，是我到美國的時候了。

我不敢面對現實，我選擇生活在屬於我自己的世界裡。
我不想離開。

Jakarta (CGK) Singapore (SIN)
06:15 08:50

Singapore(SIN) Tokyo (NRT)
09:40 17:35

Tokyo(NRT) Los Angeles (LAX)
18:45 13:00

Kill me please.

我不敢相信我再三天后，就回到印尼。
我不敢相信我再五天后，就回到美國。
為什麼時間過得那麼快呢？
不到一個星期的時候，我就沒有機會跟我的朋友們去們之類的。
到了美國，我就是好像一位陌生人似的。
沒有好朋友們在那裡。
我感覺到我要崩潰了。
為什麼時間不能停止呢？

我不想走，可是我的另一半卻要趕快地離開新加坡。
我講話的好矛盾哦。

我先跟每一個讀我的博客說個再見。
雖然我不在新加坡，我們還要繼續聯絡哦。
<3

Bring me a pail on Thursday & Friday.
I'll cry you a full bucket of tears.
No no, I'll cry you a river.
Hahaha.

Hope more people will turn up on Thursday.
& Friday.

Xoxo.

I wonder who'll turn up @ the airport.

I wonder..

I still can't believe Michael Jackson passed away.
But...
Everyone have to stop talking about him already.
His name is everywhere!

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson & Farah Fawcett.

This is the first time in 4 years that I forgot that it's the 26th of June.
26 June 2005.
Yeah, that day.

It just means that I'm over you right?
I'm glad that I'm over you.
It's been too long.

Okay, since my outing with Shuyi, Rachel & Deborah tomorrow is cancelled..
I decided to stay in and do up some stuff, pack the rest of my clothes and others.

I can't believe I'm leaving in like, less than 7 days.
Sigh. Goodbye Singapore.
And, goodbye my friends.
I'll see you guys in one year the least.
Or maybe even two years later.
I hope time will fly as fast as it did for the past 2 months.
2 months changed to 2 weeks.
& 2 weeks changed to 1 week in a blink of an eye.

xoxo.

It just hit me how fast time is going by.
It seems like it was only like yesterday when Haziqah was asking me to keep quiet about me going off and all, saying that there's still about 2 months.
& now?
I have less than 2 weeks, actually I only have about one week.
8 days to be exact.

Hanging out with Mitch a lot recently.
Caught up with my class people, juniors, and soon, seniors, tao nan people and all..

I was just thinking.
No, actually I feel that no one will actually care as much as I do now.
I mean, seriously.
I ain't going to elaborate, because I don't know what to say.

I'm trying to push my flight to a later flight.
Hopefully I can.
What difference will it make though?
I wonder.





<3

Getting back to the Lazy Caroline.
I'm too lazy to blog again.
Hahah.

I want I want I want....... (:

Leaving in 12 days.
Sigh.

Okay, bye!

Omg, I just drove around my house area.
Damn funny.
My driver and I were laughing thruout.
Hehehe.
Going to learn reversing and parking tomorrow.
Omg, help me.

Hahaha.
I lost weight I think.
Hehe.

Greetings from the land about 1hr and 10 mins away from Singapore.
Heheh, hello!
I'm in Indonesia now.
And the weather is bad.
It's so hot ):

Anyway, I just had dinner right, we had like what, 7 main courses and all.
Only adding up to like 100 bucks?
HAHA. I love it here.

Omg, I'm so contradicting....
Okay, anyhow, I already made plans with one of my cousin to go shopping tomorrow.
She'll meet me after school which ends at about 2pm.
Then on Tuesday, I'm meeting my uncle I think.
He wants to meet me. Hahah.
After that, no plans yet though.
Hahahah. I bet it'll be mostly shopping though.
Oh yes, and driving. (:

Mom: You want to lose weight right?
Me: Yah.
Mom: Okay, help me take my specs in my room.
(My parents' room are like 1.5 floors up from the first level)
Me: Huh...
Mom: Help laaaaa.

Hahah. Whenever I'm in Indo, it means I'll exercise.
Because I have to go up and down the stairs.
Hahaha. I suppose that is a good thing!
Anyway, I'm so tired now.
I think I'll sleep early tonight.
Need to bathe after this, and maybe come online again for a bit.
And maybe run the treadmill or hula a little.
Then go to sleep.
Ah, I even have to exercise to go to bed.
My room's the attic!
Any oh how. I'll go bathe now!

Will update when I'm here (:

Ah, leaving for Indonesia tomorrow.
I'll be back on the 16th.
Don't worry! (:

But.. I'll be leaving on the 3rd of July again.

I need to plan all of my dates ASAP.
Cause I think when I'm back from the Indonesia, I'll have my cousins with me.
And, I might be going to M'sia for a shopping trip with Tracy and Jere, maybe?
And I haven't meet up with so many people.
My class people, be it Tao Nan's 1A, 2A, 3A, 4A, 5B, 6B or Manjusri's 1G, 2G, 3E1, 4E1.
Oh! My choir people too! Be it seniors, my batch people or juniors.
And people like, Lizhen, Pearlin, Silas etc.
I miss you guys..

I'll try to plan soon because I'm so lazy to do so.
I've so many things on my hands now.
I haven't finish doing one thing, and I haven't even pack my luggage for tomorrow.
And and, I haven't take all the passports and all.
(I've to babysit my brother and my cousin. Gosh.)
And my mom have some stuff for me to do, like the GST refund thing.
So I don't know.
It's very confusing.

I was supposed to go out with Tracy and Jere today.
But Tracy overslept...
Since she overslept and won't wake up with a million calls from Jere and I.
I continued sleeping.
And and, I woke up at 5pm...
Hahaha, so late right. I know!
But I was super worn out yesterday.
I only had a few hours of sleep the day before, and I slept at 5+am yesterday.
Means.. I had 12 hours of sleep!
Imagine how much calories I lost. Hahaha.

Okay, I've stopped myself from shopping on clothes yesterday.
But I bought like CDs and drama series.
Awesome. Hahaha.

I can't wait to go back Indonesia, but yet I don't want to go.
I can shop until I drop, literally, and not spending as much as I've spent here I guess.
But I'm losing like 9 days of chances to hang out with my friends.
Ah, oh wells.
I need to ask Mommy if we're going Bali.
Because if we are, I need to pack some Bali clothes.
I don't know what's the difference but hahaha.
I want to go Bali!
Let's see. 9 days in Indonesia, if I go Bali for 3 days, I'll have 6 days to..
1) Learn driving,
2) Shopping!!
3) Learn cooking?
and the most important of all, 4) Spend time with my relatives before I leave in July.

Ah, time is so precious to me now.
But yet I just slept 12 hours away of it.
When I could have met up with Haziqah and Verna and a few more people..
Sorry ):
My plan was last minute cancelled and I fainted on my bed.
I couldn't bring myself to wake up.
Sorrrrrrry. I'll hang out with you guys after I come back.
And we better camwhore! I want more pretty pictures to bring over. (:

你会不会帮我那一个小忙呢？你会帮我实现我的心愿吗？
我好希望你可以做得到。我会一直等，等到我收到你的回应为止。
我好希望我的梦能成真。不只是那一个梦，是每一个都有你在里面的梦。
因为每一个关于你的梦，都是件好事。每一次梦到你的时候，我会感到很快乐。

I miss you, you and you.
I'm just wondering, if you feel the same way.
I feel like a fool, if I'm the only one who will miss you guys.

Bye!

I've been shopping A LOT.
I bought my Zara heels (:
Thank you Mommy for getting it for me.
Only one heels is left from Topshop.
The other 2 are like no more!
And so is the Miss Selfridge heels.
Oh, I bought my Nike bag too!
But it's in purple, not in yellow.
Yay (:

And I bought a lot a lot of pretty clothes.
I'm a happy girl. Hahah.
But I feel so guilty for spending so much ):

Hahaha, Alyssa hates me for turning the 2 offers Mommy offered me.
It's damn funny. Hahah.

My retainers flew away.

I saw it on a table.
My brother and cousin didn't touch anything from that table.
And when my maid cleaned the place up, she didn't see my retainers on the table.

How amazing.
What a pretty cool retainers I have.

Grr.
$450 you know.
It's like, I can buy 2 heels I like.
Hahahaha.

I want I want I want it to come back to me.
Where is it?!
):

Oh did I tell you I lost my EZ Link Card yesterday too?
I swear I'm on a losing streak recently.
Damn everything.

I'm still thinking about the heels.
Should I get them?

1 pair of Zara heels.
1 pair of Miss Selfridge heels.
3 pairs of Topshop heels.

Total price = insane.
A couple of weeks since I first saw the Zara heels.
And I'm still thinking whether I should get it now.

Wow.

So, I shopped today!
Finally.
After 5 months.
Wanted to go out to buy heels, but I ended up not buying them.
But I bought a blazer, 2 dresses, 2 tank tops and 2 scarfs.
:D

Happy!

But still want to shop!
Not satisfied.
I love the Zara heels.
Seriously.
I love the pink ones, and today I saw a blue one..
I love both!
And I saw a purple heels from Miss Selfridge, discounted from $99 to $59.
Should I get them? Hehehe.

I'm feeling super excited now.
Talking to Tracy about shopping.
Okay, it's mainly me talking..

I want to ask Mommy if my cousins and I can go Thailand for the weekend.
Just to shop (:
I need a new wardrobe for the US!
Hahah, hm.
Plus my Indonesia trip this 7 June to 16 June..
Yeap, decided to stay there until 16 June.
Going to skip one of my dance lessons..
Sorry Lizhen!
I'm going to learn driving too!

So, Mommy's plan is on the 17th of June,
Claudia & Andrew, my cousins, will come over to Singapore.
Followed by Vina on the 20th.
(She's going to skip 4 days of school just to spend time with me!)
Then I can bring them around or something.
But if Mommy, no actually, if my Daddy allows, I shall go Thailand with Claudia and Vina!
We can shop til we drop.
Literally.

I'm already thinking of what things I want to get before I leave for the US.
I think I'll bring like 3 huge luggages along with me.
I'm going to bring one over to Indonesia like, on 7th June already.
Oh well..

So, I was telling Tracy what are the items I want to get.
& I realised...
I want to get every single thing.
I'm not even kidding you!
Tracy even wanted to block me online because I was like, telling her item by item of what I want to get.
HAHAHA.
But I was helping her in a way!
Giving her more ideas of what to get when she leave for her shopping spree in Hong Kong!

Things to get:
1) Heels! Oh no, I really like this pink Zara heels.. But it's S$199! So expensive.
2) Dresses; sundresses, going-out dresses & so on.
3) Shorts - all colours please.
4) Sunglasses.
5) Belts.
6) Scarfs.
7) Tops, duh.
8) Oh! Flats, covered toes and otherwise.
9) Vests.
10) Blazers.
11) Boots! Flats, a little heels and maybe cute ones.
12) More heels!

& a lot more.
Depends on the current trend too, of course.
Like, in Taiwan, the trend now is those shiny things.
Cute.

Hehe, I'm changing.
Oh no.
I'll go back to Indonesia or try to ask Mommy whether I can go Thailand to shop.
So I won't have to spend so much.
I hate spending so much.
But I really want to shop now.
I haven't shop since Chinese New Year I think.
That's like, 4-5 months ago.
Not a record for me though.
It's not unusual for me to not shop for months.

I need to have new clothes.
Seriously.

Super hyped now.
Shop Shop Shop.

First thing first, lose weight.
After that, find a dress for Kor Willy's wedding.
Finally, my time to shop like crazy.

Steph told Mommy she's not coming back for the wedding anymore ):
Aw.
Stephie's leaving for the US tomorrow!
I'll miss you.
Ah, don't go!
But I'll see you when I get there and we'll be in the same school next year.
Hahaha, see you Stephie!

Okay, I I I don't know what to type anymore.
Hahaha.
Oh did I mention Bali this June?
Not confirmed yet though.
I'm not going to say anything is most probably going to happen or anything else anymore.
Heheh, I'm not going to make myself disappointed. (:

I miss so many people!
Sujia, Mui, Huihui, Zihong and those girls in 4E1.
Michelle Chang! Who's coming back 14th June.
Alyssa Wee, who's busy with JC stuff.
I miss you guys ):

I want to go shopping shopping shopping!
Now.

I'm still deciding..
I like the pink Zara heels I mentioned above.
& these 3 Topshop heels, S$159, S$159 and S$169.
Why are all the pretty things so expensive?
I really like the Zara one.
It caught my eyes once I saw it, seriously.

I'm thinking if I should go back to Indonesia, to see if they have any heels that look alike like the ones in Topshop before I decide to get them.
It might be cheaper, I guess, back in Indonesia.

Help me!

Strike all of my plans.
Nothing's left on my travel plans.
NOTHING.
Except Indonesia.
Wth?
Screw this.
I was so excited.
Now?
I'm bummed.

Firstly, I had to say goodbye to by JB trip.
Secondly, I gave up my KL trip.
Thirdly, H1N1 killed my Korea trip.
Lastly, a busy schedule caused my Thailand trip.
(I'm not blaming you Pearls, and I'm not blaming you too Mui.
I understand (: No worries okay. There's always another chance.)

Now I'm confused.
I'm supposed to go back to Indonesia from 7 June to 11 June.
Mommy wants me to skip my dance class on 11 June and stay in Indonesia until 16 June.
The good thing is I'll be able to learn driving and might even go Bali with relatives.
The bad thing is I'll skip my dance class.

My mind's a whirlpool now.
I can't make up my mind.
I'm having a headache.

I hate this.
I hate everything.
Why must it always be like this?
Get me all hyped about all my trips.
And only seeing all of them getting crashed and cancelled one by one.

Just kill me already.

Good news for you guys.
Bad news, kinda, for me.

I'm not going Korea anymore...
And.
I have decided to NOT go M'sia.

To spend more time in Singapore to have the time to actually go out with you guys.
If I don't go out, means I'll rot at home.
Which is the bad news for me.

I have a statement that I'm sure a lot of people agree with me.
SWINE FLU IS TOTALLY ANNOYING.
I'm sorry but I just have to write that in caps.
& sorry too, but Singaporean parents are just too overly kiasu.

That caused me to cancel my trip to...
Taiwan and Korea!

Annoying.
& Pissed.

):

Cruise.
Let me summarise it with a few words.
1) Ate a lot.
2) Met a super weird guy who talked to my brother and I on the first night, and followed us until he finally said goodnight..
3) Talked a lot with brother, kinda.
4) Took a few pictures.
5) Two words to actually describe the whole 2-days plus trip: Super boring.

My brother and I totally spent the whole couple of days eating, and walking from one end to the other of the ship non stop.
That continues.
Until we go back to our room and slack..
Unless we decide to walk again.
Then we'll go up and down, front of the ship and the back of the ship.

Any oh how.
The first night there, we couldn't sleep so Mommy, my brother and I spent an hour like planning our June - September schedule.
Insanity.
People are only planning their June holiday schedule.
And ours..
Extended to September.

From today to July 3..
40 days.
& yes I'm going back to Indonesia July 3 instead of July 1.
I'm happy, pushed back by 2 days.
But, geez, stop changing the date already.

My schedule for the remaining May & June..
1) Mommy asked me to go Genting with her, Daddy and a few relatives and friends.
28 May to June 1. (5 days)
2) Go back to Indonesia, 7 June to 11 June. (5 days)
3) Thailand, not sure when, maybe 12/13 June to 17 June. (5/6 days)
4) Korea, not sure when yet, but it'll be a 8-days trip.

Ah, so many things, so little time..

I bet I gained weight on board.
So I'm going to start dieting again.
This time, all the way until I leave for Indonesia.
Plus exercise.
Yes, I already told myself to exercise.
Because I'm like super obese now.
Damn.

Bye!

I'm damn pissed.
Because of my parents' hectic June schedule.
They disallowed me to go M'sia.
!@#$
THERE GOES MY LAST CHANCE.
Don't talk to me.
Bye.

Had 2 dreams last night or rather morning.

I woke up from the 1st, remember myself repeating "No, I don't want!" over and over again.
& I was crying.
I don't remember what's it about anymore though.

2nd, dreamt about (:
It's a pretty nice dream.
Not going to elaborate on this one though.

It's only 6 weeks left to July 2nd.
I actually haven't decided on whether to leave July 1 or July 3.
Depends on my brother.
It doesn't matter actually.
I only have about 6 weeks, 42 days left in Singapore,
before I leave for Indonesia for either 4 days or 2 days,
before I officially leave S.E Asia for the US.
To the other side of the globe.

42 days.
Minus 3 days cruise.
Minus 2 days M'sia trip?
Minus 6 days Thailand trip?
Minus 8 days S. Korea trip?
Minus 6 days Indonesia trip?

I'm left with what?
17 days left in Singapore.
That is just not enough.
That's less than 3 weeks.
I still have to meet up with Mitch who'll be back in Mid June.
I still have to meet up a lot of people!

I hate schools.
If not, I'd have the chance to meet you guys every weekend.
Sucks.

Happy 22nd Anniversary Mommy & Daddy.
I love you two.
No one can ever replace you in my heart.
Thank you for bringing me up, and I'm sorry to repay you at times with my bad moods and all.
But deep inside, please know that I love you and that will never change.

&

Happy Birthday Stephanie Arifin.
Love you (:
You're old.
You're officially legal to do anything you want.
Go get married!

Two happy events on one day.
This is always the happiest day for my family.
Celebrating two things at the same time.
I can't wait for my parents' anniversary 3 years later.
Oh, and my grandparents' 50th anniversary next year!

Time flies.

Hahaha, I know I haven't been blogging as much as a few weeks back.
But at least it's not like the time back in January and February.
I wouldn't even post when I'm super bored.
Oh well.
To make it up, long wordy post ahead!

Anyway, I'm in such a dilemma now.
I don't know if I should cut my hair.

Short?
Bangs?
Trim?
Layer?

Stephie said I should just chop 2/3 of my hair.
Hahaha.

Daddy said okay when I asked him if I could go Thailand.
Mommy wants me to go back Indo, so maybe I will, for 6 days.
Every trip of mine will be only 6 days max.
Except for Korea I guess, 8 days.
Stupid hip-hop class.
Hahaha.
I want to go Bali too!
But I need to spend time here too.
I need to hang out with my friends before I leave.

June is their holiday, and I'll be flying around?
What the hell Caroline..

Okay, still thinking about cutting hair.
Okay, I've decided.
I'm not going to cut short.
Never in my life.
Okay, I don't know what other hairstyles are there.

Jerevien Poon!
We go try wigs okay.
Hahahaha.

I need to shop.
Badly.
I can't wait to go Thailand..
Shopping for a whole new collection of clothes for my new life in the US.
:D

Oh, Daddy only opened one room for cruise this Friday.
So I'll have my brother clinging onto me for the whole duration..
Oh well, it'll be fun.
I can hang out with my dearest brother, with him not being stuck to his stupid computer game all day long.
We can go eat non stop.

Oh, speaking of which.
I've decided to stop the 7 day diet thing.
It's a torture.
Okay, maybe for this week only.
I need a break.

Cruise.
I haven't been on board for like years.
We used to go every few months.
I think I haven't step my foot onto Superstar Virgo since 4 years ago.
What a miracle.
I bet all the crews we used to know are all not working there anymore.
How sad..
No more free food! Hahaha, kidding.
That was only this one time.
The chef gave my siblings and I complimentary French Fries.

Oh well..
I need a break from this super mundane life of mine.
I really need something to spice up my life.
Ah, when will it come?

Because of cruise, I can't meet up with Haziqah & Verna this Saturday.
Sorry guys.
Will catch up with you guys after that okay!
Because of cruise, Alyssa couldn't meet me up for a retail therapy.
Sorry Alyssa.
I'll see you soon!
You're my shopping consultant so no worries.
I'll definitely go shopping with you.

I'm still up at 441am.
I should be asleep.
I need my at-least-6-hours of beauty sleep.
I ate chicken rice like, 2 to 3 hours back.
I did hula a bit, then Mommy stopped me from continue-ing.
Because I hula-ed after I ate.

So, I've been chatting with Tracy a lot.
Crapping not chatting.
Hahaha.
We talked about height and weight the most.
Our two favourite topics.

It's so funny how girls are so mad over their appearance.
I'm not going to point my finger at anyone, because I'm one of them too.
If I were to talk about somebody on this topic, I'll talk about myself.
I'm crazy last week.
Eating nothing but fruits and vegetables most of the time.
Not consuming any carbohydrates for 7 days.
Can you imagine that?

Oh well, I still can't get myself off the couch to go to the gym.
I am a seriously hopeless lazy bum.
I need to shed off like tens of pounds off me.
Before all of my trips.

Help me.

I'm talking to James online.
Hahah, I know you're reading this, James.
We haven't skype for ages.
We stopped when... Your sister stayed at your place for a few days!
Hahah, yeap, that's when we stopped.

I was supposed to go back to Indo, 5 June to 11 June.
I told Patrick, because he was supposed to go back with me.
But he went "No, cannot, I've my primary school gathering."
So I dont know if I'm going back..

But it made me have the urge to call up all of my primary school friends.
I need to meet up with you guys.
Definitely.
And my secondary school friends too.
I'll never forget you guys.
And my seniors, like Shuhui who I'm going to meet soon.

I really can't bear to leave this place, my second home.
Even though I really can't stand the weather of this country.
Even though I'm really sick of the same shopping malls I can only go to over and over again.
Even though there's no theme parks to make me go wild for.
Even though some of the people here are really horrible.
Even though this place is not perfect,
this place is still the piece of land that I've been living for 10 years.

I'll definitely leave this place with buckets of tears.
I will not leave all of my memories here, even though I'm sure I'll leave those unnecessary ones behind.
I will bring the memories I spent with you where ever I go.
All of them are imprinted at the back of my mind.
I will remember you guys and have your pictures up on my wall in the US.

I just hope..
You guys will remember me, and miss me as much as I will be doing so.

I haven't do the diet thing for 2 days.
I've been eating a lot ):
Shucks.

Starting tomorrow again.
Hahah. I have to...

Bye!

Cruise this Friday :D
Stephie and Kristie is coming along.
Wipeedooooo.
Okay, bye!

Even though not as many people as we expected came for the party.
Ultimately, it was fun.
Met people who I haven't see for years.
Deborah, Rachel, Shuyi.
I was the "maid" for the night because I was afraid the security guard will kill me for making a mess out of the function room.
Oh well, after the party, Kenneth, Jerevien, Shereen and Tracy stayed until about 3am.
Played a few card games, loser had to drink a cup of mixed drinks.
Rules changed after that, loser had to eat a plate of food.
This was to make sure there isn't so much food left.
Overall, I'm sure all of us had fun.
Even the cake was commented to be nice (:

I didn't take photos.
Surprised?
I wasn't allowed to, because Jerevien's friend, Felicia wanted to be the photographer of the day.
And when we, Alyssa, Deborah, Rachel, Shuyi and myself camwhored at my place, we used Shuyi's camera.
So, hold on for the pictures.

Anyway, M'sia trip, only going for a day or two.
Korea trip, not planned yet.
Taiwan, should be impossible.
Because.. Mui asked me to go Thailand.
I'll ask Mommy tomorrow. I think she'll allow me to go Thailand rather than Taiwan.
Since I've Mui in Thailand!
Let's see how it goes.
I need to discuss about Korea trip with Pearls ASAP.
Mom's complaining, still, about me joining dance class because it's ruining her plans and mine.
She said I can't go back to Indonesia now because of that and stuff like, I've no time to learn driving..
Oh wells.
Plus, Jerevien and her classmates are thinking, not confirmed, to go to Bali.
And she wants me to go along, but I don't know if I can.
That just means I need to plan my June holiday like now!
How many places in a month will just kill me.
But at least I won't be bored!

On my diet, it was going well, lost like 2kg, until Tracy's birthday party.
Ate a lot compared to the previous diet week I survived.
I started the diet the day after her party, but not so strict.
As in, I've been eating one/two chocolates per day.
And I've been doing Hula.
I'm going to get off my lazy ass to skip.
Gymming the other day with Tracy before her party made my legs ache like mad.
I was doing Cardio for 50 mins straight without stopping.
Normally with my trainer, he'd ask me to do 30 mins and I'll stop countless number of times and whine nonstop.

I'm getting a number of mosquito bites I think.
Hahaha, random.

I'm still up at 321am, when I need to be up at about 9am tomorrow.
Going to my relative's place and stuff.
I need my at least 6 hours of sleep.
Any lesser than that = getting fatter easily.
Hahaha.

Oh, did I mention there's something wrong with my fridge?
It's not cold.
All the things inside are not cold.
That sucks.

Tracy just typed "blogged" as "voted" on MSN.
How retarded...
Hahaha, oh, you know she've like 3 Spongebob Squarepants as her birthday gifts?
And she was telling me how if she wants to hug one, she needs to hug all.
Only then will she be fair to all 3 of them.
Hahha, hilarious.

I really hate schools.
They're taking all of my friends away.
We hardly even meet up anymore.
During June holiday, we're so going to meet up okay.
The last few chances of us getting together before I leave for the US.
I miss you guys.
Tao Nan Knights and Manjusrians, all of you guys.
I'll try to not be lazy and plan outings since I'm the super free one.
Hahahah. I'll let you guys know again.

Okay, it's 327am now.
My mom just came out of the room to ask me to sleep...
But I'm not tired.
Because recently I've been a really huge pig, sleeping at least 9 hours.
I slept for 12 hours the other day.
4am to 4pm on the day of Tracy's party.
And yesterday, 7am to 4pm.
Okay, I better say my goodbye now!
Ciao.

10kg in 2 weeks is going to be extremely tough.
I've planned my daily exercise routine.
Hahahaha. Don't laugh.
Okay, go ahead and laugh.

Heheh, no matter what, I'll make sure I'm going to lose that 10kg!
I need to.

I need to get off my ass and start going to the gym.
I need to lose weight fast!

I just did 3000 plus hula turns just now.
Thanks to the Digital Hula thing, that's how I know many turns did I do.
I'm not so stupid to count one by one.
On the average, 1 minute = 90 hula turns.
Hahahaha.
Sweat like crazy just now.

I'm getting lazy to study Jap.
I'm getting lazy to do Jap homework.

Okay, I need to lose weight now now now.
Like 10 more kilograms by 2 weeks!
I need to gym everyday ):
I shall swim too.
Hahahaha.
I shall! Determination!

Okay, watching Bourne Ultimatum now.
It's my 3rd time watching I think.
Omg, I'm too bored.
Bye!

What did I eat today.
Hm.

Fruits, Corn, Grass Jelly, Milk and Milo packet.
Hahah, day #4 was supposed to be Banana and Milk day.
But I failed because I don't have any Bananas at home.
Bananas are fattening anyway, compared to the fruits I had today.
So I think it's good. (:

Okay, movie time with parents now.
Bye!

Today's Day #4 of the diet.
I think I lost about 1.5kg so far.
Can't wait until Day #7 is over.
After that is Tracy's birthday party.
Then we might be continue-ing this diet thing for another week.
Heheh, this is exciting.

Catching up with Pearls tomorrow!
We've been changing our date for like 2 times or so.
Once was because I'm sick.

I'm watching Hollow Man 2 now. Hahaha.

Today sucks because I don't know if I can do my diet thing today.
Since Daddy's coming back and he wants to have dinner.
To celebrate yesterday's Mother's Day.

Mother's Day.
I love you Mommy, you are always there for me regardless of the situation.
I'm not worried about having no one's support because I know you'll always support me.
Heheh, I know I'm always very moody.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I didn't get you anything too.
Its just that I didn't know what to get because you seem to have everything.
On Thursday night, you said you didn't want anything, you just wanted a hug and a kiss.
You never asked for anything from us, except good grades, being fillial and stuff like that.
I'm sorry to disappoint you with my O level result.
I know you expected better, because I said I could have gotten an A1 for both of my Maths and my Chemistry.
Who ever knew that Cambridge will moderate everything like crazy.
I'm sorry I did so badly for O level.
I should have studied harder.
I'm sorry I only started studying seriously like two weeks before the exams.
I'll excel in my schoolwork when I go over to the States.
I promise.
Anyway, Happy Mother's Day Mommy.
I'll always love you (:
~xoxo

Okay, I'm sweating.
I hate Singapore's weather.

Diet-ing is super difficult.
I swear.

Anyway, I found the video that I thought I lost last month.
Hahahaha.
I'm so happy (:

Okay, I'm going to watch my tv now.
Goodbye!

Lunch: 1/2 a Cucumber, Papaya, this other fruit and Milo packet.
In between: Oranges.
Dinner: 2 Corns and Milo packet.

Day 3 of the diet, done.

Today's lunch: Papaya, Vitagen + a packet of Milo.
Today's dinner: Watermelon and some other fuit.

And of course water throughout the day (:

I want to go travelling now!
Taiwan, Korea, Japan, Beijing (to visit my cousin), Indonesia & a lot more..

I shall visit every country next time.
Capture shots of every part of the world.
I will do this with my future husband/loved one. (:

Pearls: I'm already sick of slacking at home.
Me: I'm already dying of rotting.
Pearls: Same, I want to go on a holiday!
Me: Same! But now with the Swine Flu! Let's go somewhere!
Pearls: KOREA.

-Me telling Mommy about the conversation above-
Mommy: Go lah.

-Me telling Pearls about what Mommy said-
Pearls: HAHAH, I go ask my Mommy.

Hehehe.

Cold Storage today with Mommy and brother.
Spend like almost hundred bucks on fruits, vegetables and 2 bottles of milk.
The trolley was filled with fruits actually.
Hahahah.

Starting the diet thing tomorrow.
Started during dinner actually.
(As you can see from my previous post)

I did sit-ups, cruntches and these 2 other thingy that I don't know how to explain.
Hehehe.
Woo, dieting & exercising, here I come.

Want to know what's my dinner tonight?
Hahahah.

It is...

Hahaha.
Okay, add Papaya to that too (:
& a packet of Milo.

Bye!

When Marco Pierre White got his 3 Michelin Stars.
He's supposed to be the happiest guy on Earth at that very moment.
But he said he felt sad.
Because it's somehow the end.
There's no more Michelin Stars for him to achieve.

How true.
When we make our #1 dream come true, that will be the end.
We'll have nothing to look forward to.
Isn't that sad.
But to normal people like us, who are not Marco Pierre White, we will probably feel really super happy after achieving something we've been dreaming for years or so.

First thing first, will we have enough motivation and determination to ensure that we will actually achieve our dream, our goal?
As long as we've enough motivation and determination, even if we've no luck and the chance to make our dream come true, we'll achieve it in the end.

Let's all work towards our dream.
Motivate one another, push one another until we actually achieve it.
Good luck!

I just want to say how much I love my friends.
Especially my two Primary School Best Bitches, Alyssa Wee and Michelle Chang.
And those in Secondary School, Cheng Huihui, Jerevien Poon, Leonard Thio, Nurul Haziqah, Su Jialin, Supanan Mui, Verna Sukiat. (Alphabetical Order)
My 10 years friend, Janet Lau Shan Xiu!

You know what, those are just a few names.
I love every single one of you (:

I will never forget you guys when I go over to the US.
We better meet up more before I actually leave.
And take more photos.
I'll stick all of them on my wall when I'm there.
<3

I'm going to buy the Hula Hoop tomorrow.
It's a replacement for the other Hula Hoop.
I think Mommy want to start the diet tomorrow.
It's either tomorrow or Friday.

And I'm going to start exercising everyday.
I'll try to do so.
Instead of rotting every single day at home.
I'll go for Yoga at least 4 times a week.
And I'm going to skip! Grow taller... Kinda impossible, I know.

I'm going on a super diet thingy now.
Hehe. I'm doing cruntches before I sleep now.
It's torture! But I'll torture myself for 3 weeks now.

I can't believe Mommy allows me to go to M'sia! Hahaha.
I shall ask her about Taiwan tomorrow. (:
Bye!

I'm going to try this 7 Day Diet thing.
James's sister did the diet and lost 10 pounds in 1 week!
Hahahaha, woo!
My Mommy's with me on this. Hahaha.
Cool eh? :D





为你掉眼泪。

I'm eating healthily for dinner.
Yogurt + Cereal with Milk.
Plus 10 pieces of an unhealthy food, fries.
Just 10 though!

Mom just asked if I wanted anything from Newton.
So she's getting Duck Rice + Popiah + Watermelon Juice!
I'm going fatter by like 64982712Kg.

I can't eat hard stuff right after I take my retainers off.
Hahahaha. Okay, CSI! Bye.

I'm going to PCC for only ONE semester, and I'm going to transfer to SMC.
And I'm going to PCC alone.
Yes, alone.
No more Steph, because for some reason her application to PCC is super complicated.
She need to take some test to prove that her O level is up to the high school standard there or something.
What rubbish is that?
I didn't have such problem.
That is unacceptable!
And since she's accepted in SMC, she'll just go there.
It sucks that Steph and her friend is accepted in SMC, when I am older than them by months.
Why is that so?
It's so unfair.
Now I've to go PCC alone for 3 months.
A totally new environment, alone.
And I'm shy, that sucks. I'll have no friends.
I'm going to stay alone for that 3 months too I think.
Ah, how troublesome is that.
So many chores to do and all, okay, I don't really mind.
But still..
Oh my God. Save me.

I'm going to leave on July 5, ALONE.
Mommy will only go to the US after I'm done with all of my Orientation thingy.
Then we'll find a place to rent or something.
And I'll rot for another 1.5 months there.
Now you know how bad is it to be me.
Thanks.

Oh, on the bright side.
I can see Mitch when she comes back next month, and after her family trip!
She'll be here like 2 weeks or lesser than that actually, before I leave for Indonesia.
Finally, after like, NINE months (for now), since last August!
By next month, it'll be like 10 months after I last see her when I get the chance to actually see her!
I miss you bitch. ):

The things I hate in life right now.
#1, how fat I am.
#2, how lazy I am to go to the gym.
#3, how it sucks to have ALL of your friends in school.
#4, how I have to stay home and rot with nothing to do.
#5, how boring my life is.

I need some excitements.
Something different.
I need a spark.
Something to make me occupied.
I need the luck and the chance.
That is what I'm lacking.
I need my luck and chance to come now.
Now.

See how time flies?
It's already May.
Two more months and it'll be July.
It seems like it was only yesterday that I'm in Las Vegas, getting ready for the countdown for the year 2009.
In a flash, it'll be the countdown for the year 2010.

Time should slow down.
It's moving too fast.

I saw Patricia Mok during dinner today.

I've been sweating a lot.
I dislike Singapore's weather.
I don't know how I could endure this for the past 10 years.
I'm shocked and proud of myself. Hahah.
Okay, it wasn't as bad last time.
Blame us.
Global warming.
The end of the world is nearing.
Say goodbye now.

Hahah, I'm not going to say goodbye until I fulfill my wishes and dreams.
Hehe, okay.
I'm going to take my medicine now.
I forgot about it.
And tomorrow will be the last day of taking medicines.
Means I can stop eating after tomorrow.
I feel so bad for eating these days because I've to take my medicines.
Hahaha, I shall go to the gym tomorrow afternoon before Piano.
Then I might go walk to Botanics in the evening, after Piano, with Mommy.
But it's not a confirmed thing, since Mommy's always being lazy to go.
Hahah, shall make her go by saying she's fat now.
But that's so mean.
Ah, okay, nevermind. To lose weight. Hahaha.

Piano Piano! Okay, bye!

Yes, I'm very sure.
I will make it happen.

My Mommy was telling me about how people who are suspected of having the Swine Flu are given this medicine called Tamiflu.
The doctor gave me Tamiflu as one of the 3 medicines he gave me the other day.
:/

Thank goodness I'm fine now.

I think I need to change my glasses soon.
Things seem a little blurry.
I can't wait until I'm 18.
Lasik!

Ah, I've so many things on my mind.
Ah, I need to lose weight. Hahaha.

I wanted to say something.
But I forgot..
Nevermind. Hahaha.
I'll most probably blog again anyway.
Okay, Ghost Whisperer's starting soon.
Bye!