My life, my story.

Even though it's not my birthday.
I'm praying, wishing, and hoping that everything will turn out fine.
I don't want to be involved anymore.
The feeling that I have inside of me...
It's like, the feeling of just wanting to disappear.
Just to vanish into thin air.

I have such a strong feeling of wanting to cry right now.
But I'm telling myself not to, because it's not really my problem.
But I'm the middle person again.
Things were so awkward just now.
I don't know what to do anymore, because I'm already doing all that I can.
The rest, the decision ultimately lies with you.

I just hope that 7-10 days passes as quickly as possible.
Because then, I'd be no longer in the midst of this problem.

I'm not going to side anyone.
I'm going to stay friends with both sides.
It's not possible for me to not stay neutral because technically, both are in the wrong.
And the worst thing is that, both are stubborn.
Both won't initiate a conversation with each other.

God, please guide me.
Tell me what I should do, to make things right.
I'm clueless on the things that I can do for them anymore.
The things that they are doing right now, are just worsening things between them.
What can I do?

I'm so frustrated.
So annoyed.
So angry, and yet relieved because I've finally talked to one side and I'm going to talk to the other tomorrow.
Starting from tomorrow, I'll no longer be in the picture.
Never.
I'll let nature do its work.
I'm going to back off, study for finals, and enjoy the time that I'm going to have after finals.

That's my plan.