Since I'm bored...
I've decided to start listing the things that it's a must-to-do/see/eat in Bali.
Hopefully things really work out this time.
It's going to be awesome if the 3 of us can go!
I don't know if there are going to be others who are coming along with us.
But, the three of us will make it so super duper fun that nothing is going to turn our smile into a frown there :)

Phototaking and more phototakings there is my number one priority.
Sightseeing too!
I want to experience being a real tourist, seeing the Bali traditional dance and visiting the unique places that they have there.

Even though Bali is a part of Indonesia, I'm still going to be a tourist there, no matter what.
Technically, I'm a tourist because I'm only from Jakarta.
HAHA. Okay, whatever.
People always wish to travel around the world right, and they most definitely won't start from their home country.
I mean, if their home country is rather big in area and have numerous tourist destinations, why not start from there?

The first country I would want to travel around is none other than Indonesia :)
I want to see the temples that they have, especially Borobudur.
I want to see the awesome beaches that they have, and the picturesque hotels or rather villas that they have in Bali.
I just want to capture all of the moment that I'm experiencing that very moment with a touch of my camera capture button.
To be able to take hundreds of pictures of the locals with their individual facial expression, be it sad, joy, loved, bored and whatver feeling a person can feel.

I can't wait to go to Bali.
So many people went, are there now and are going there soon.
Doesn't that just say for sure how Bali is a great place to spend the holiday at?
My uncle is going to Bali before the date that we're planning to go.
& he told me that he's going to give me a list of restaurants that is just so superb that I've to go try it.
Heheh, thank you :)

Okay, back to reality.
I'm so bored!
Today's outing changed to be held on the 2nd instead.
Ah, wanted to collect my retainers today.
But the dentist is closed, because it's a Sunday.
Wanted to go to Keppel Bay to send my lens for servicing instead.
But it's closed too, they are only opened from Monday to Friday.
Bummer.
Have to do both things tomorrow.

I still want to go to Taiwan for countdown.
2010 is going to come in a blink of an eye!
4 days until the event for the countdown!
Who wants to go with me?
My grandma wants to go with me actually.
Hahaha.

Need to upload the pictures I took..
But I need to have my copyright logo on all of the pictures before I actually put them on the site.
The thing is...

I don't have a logo of my own.

Which means..
I need suggestions!
I will definitely digest all of your help and will see which one is the best.
Might even combine a couple of ideas together!

Please help! :)

Tracy and Jerevien suggested a couple.
But I think it's too simple.
I don't know if I want my logo to be super duper simple, or have a little twist to it.
But I know I don't want it being too overflow-y and complex.

Okay, so, I was watching tv just now.
There was nothing on after 桃花小妹 & the cooking show that 大S and 小S host, so I switched the tv on to Bangkok Dangerous, starring Nicholas Cage.
And after BD, it was Ghost Rider.
Yes, the same main character.
I remember that Ghost Rider came out on my birthday in Singapore.
Hahaha, super random!

So anyway, my brother and two guy cousins are insane.
They are like eating machines that can never stop digesting food after having an hour break or something.
I bet they consumed like 928309831 calories today.
I'm not even kidding.
They ate THAT much.
They just came back from McDonalds probably 45 minutes ago.
My brother said he had the Mega Mac, but couldn't finish half of his fries.
& cousins ate Big Mac.
Yup, the meal, and most probably upsized too.

If only I'm like them, eat so much and never ever gaining so much weight.
Wouldn't it be life?
It certainly will be the best thing ever!

Oh! Just realised that I didn't blog about this thing.
Heheh :)
Since I've been back, I've been told that the weight I lost is visible.
& that I'm taller!
Yupyup, I grew taller!
I used to be so crazy about wanting to grow tall, to be 168cm or taller.
However, now that I am (163 + 2)cm.
Yes, I'm about 165cm now..
I'm pretty down about it. HAHA.
I'm so weird, I know :)
I don't want to grow taller anymore.
I think my current height is enough.
Don't you think so too?

Jerevien, Tracy and myself were in a conversation just now.
On MSN.
& the way we converse is so funny.
It's always only two person talking, while the third party is MIA.
So, Tracy and I will talk about 桃花小妹 and Jerevien will keep asking us to change topic.
& Tracy and I will talk about weight issues and Jerevien butt-ed in and said that we're insane.
But she herself is going to make herself part of our diet plan too.
So, now our goals are clear.
Jerevien wants to be 50kg and Tracy wants to be in the 40-42kg range.
& for myself, 43-45kg range.
You can call us insane, out of our minds, or whatever you want to call us.
Even the tiniest cell of mine won't bother about it.
:)

Thought about it and came to the conclusion that every single star have to have a thicker skin than the others.
& thinking back...
My self-confidence fluctuate like crazy.
From birth until 10 years old, I used to be this girl who liked the spotlight, liked to read stories with actions, like as if there was a big group of audience in front of me.
Performed in Kindergarten, Primary 2 and others that I can't remember, with nothing to fear because I was doing what I love to do - acting.
From 11 years old until 14 years old, however, I was a girl who was so scared to even talk in front of a class of 28 people.
Yes, my dearest 1G and 2G class.
When I was 11 though, I acted in front of quite a crowd at East Coast Park for my English Drama play.
I don't know how it started, but my self-confidence level came back to a medium level in Secondary 3.
I could act in front of the class for the skits we had to do for English.
I could represent the class for Fashion Parade for 2 years too.
Probably with the help of performing in front of the school for Choir.
And now, I'm not afraid to say that it rose from a medium level to a high level on the self-confidence scale now.
Janet can back me up on that :)

I think this is getting too wordy.
And I realized that I've been blogging without having a picture for every post I post up.
But... I'm starting to get lazy too.
Plus pictures are all up in Facebook!
However, I will upload a handful of pictures for this very post because I don't want to bore you guys to death :)

To those who are still reading my blog,
I bid you goodnight and have the best 5 days of your lives, and it's the remaining days until the year 2010.
Where everything is going to be sweet as it's going to be an awesome year for you, myself and the rest of the world.

(Edit)
I can't seem to upload pictures.
Another post tomorrow just for pictures!
I promise :)

Didn't do much w Zhen today.
We baked chocolate cupcakes.
& watch 1.5 episodes of 霹靂MIT.
And spent an hour plus in the toilet... taking pictures.
HAHAHA.
We played with the flashlight and writing & drawing stuff.
Super funny.
One of the outcome is my new picture :)
Went to Starbucks to get a cup of drink.
And she went home.

And, discussing about tomorrow's outing now.
Apparently Haziqah thought 27th December is... next week.
HAHAHA.
It's going to be 2010 in 6 days.

Time is sure flying crazy fast.

Oh, read that he was still sick during the concert..
Sigh.
Please take care of yourself ):

I'm not going to lie, I just woke up.
Yes, at 1230pm.
Hehehe.
Decided to go to the dentist tomorrow before tomorrow's outing.
I've a reasonable explanation, had a terrible headache last night.
& thought it's the right thing to do to sleep on it :)

Have to call dentist later to schedule an appointment.
Hehe, pretty reluctant actually.
Okay, got to go bathe and all now!
Meeting Lizhen in 45 minutes.
HAHAHA.
Lucky we're meeting around my house area so it's pretty (y).

Need to rush.
Bye!

(Edit)
Yay, changed the meeting time to 230 instead of 130 :)
No more rushing!

Need to go to the dentist to collect my retainers.
He's going to clean my teeth too.
Probably going to spend like 30 minutes there.
Hopefully it will not take that long!
It's going to be scary.
I think I'm going to get the phobia of going to the dentist soon.

But my dentist is pretty awesome though :)
Even though he reprimanded me about losing my retainers before..
He even said that he'll get me a box this time round.
& he asked which colour I liked.
Mommy said purple.
Hahaha, let's see if he's going to get a box for me.

My fever vanished.
My cough and flu is still here.
Oh oh, spent Christmas with my brother and two guy cousins.
Went to Funan.
Planned to get a macro lens.
Ended up getting the converter instead.

Talked to Tracy hahaha.
What else can we talk and be serious about other than losing weight eh?
Hahaha!

Anyway.
I want to learn dances so badly.
& a couple of instruments..

Ah, okay, no more ranting!
So, discussing about tomorrow's outing is not an easy thing to do.

I'm so bored.
Sigh, better go to bed now!
Just realised it's already 3am.
Goodnight!

It's back to be in the 38 range.
38.1 now.

I'm going to give counting down to Christmas a miss this year.
Going to sleep before 12.
:)

Yesterday, my fever was 37.8.
Today morning, I was fine.
In the afternoon, it was 38.4.
It was 37.1 in the evening.

Hehe. I'm getting better!
I shouldn't be sick on Christmas Day!

Oh you know, my aunt and I made a deal.
The both of us need to lose like at least 4kg in about 4 weeks.
Hahahaha.
I'm going to challenge myself to lose about 6 instead of 4 :)
Wish me luck.

這世界太熱鬧，怎麽傾聽一顆星呼喚另一顆星的聲音。
這世界再熱鬧，還好我們剛好在這裡剛好很安靜。

I think the only cure for my illnesses is to go fly over there to see you now.
Ah, it's like... I could have been in front of you in 23 hours' time.
But yet I'm sneezing like no one's business at home :(
I want to be (there) now!!
I hate this, super super super super strong hatred feeling inside me.
AHHHH.

I feel like lying on my bed and watch my dramas.
I've so many piled up.
I'm going to bring all of them plus my CDs and magazines over to the US.
Hehe.

(Super random)
No life club through MSN.
Hahahah.

Thinking of the lens I should get for my baby (my DSLR).
Supposed to go Funan with my brother and cousins an hour ago.
But they decided to stay home and go tomorrow because I'm sick.
Aww :)

On the bright side, I might be going Bali this January :)
With my cousins!
YAY.
Phototaking time baby :)

Okay, bye!

Cough's been haunting me for a few days now.
Flu started a couple of days ago.
& fever came last night and disappeared today morning.

Parents, Aunties, Uncles, and my two female cousins went off for Genting 1.5 hours ago.
Only grandparents, one aunt, brother, two male cousins and myself left here.
Didn't want to go with them because I'm sick and I'll end up being more sick if I go.
Every single time I went up there in the past, end up with me being sick.
Which suck..

I think my fever is coming back.
What a way to feel during my holiday right?
Geez, haven't fall sick for so long and I've to fall sick now. Hahah.
Ah, oh well.
It's not going to bring me down!

我要向你學，生病了也要繼續做我應該做的事。
不會因爲生病了，而把重要的是丟在一邊。

今天本來到那裏去，參加你的M&G，看你的演唱會。
朋友的父母親不允許她去，我也生病了。
所以不能去了。

好傷心哦。

爲什麽姐姐認識的明星是從菲律賓的呢？
爲什麽不是臺灣的呢？

Ah, got to go bathe and go out with my brother and cousins.
Going Funan :D
Checking out lens later.
Woopee!

See ya!

From this post, you guys should know that... I'm in Singapore now!
Been here since the 15th of December.
HAHAHA.

Okay, bye!

It went down that road again.
Somehow, I was expecting it.
But, it's just so hard for me to accept that decision for this particular situation.
You know how much it means to me for you to say yes.

I don't know what to say anymore.

明明知道我好想到那裏去看他，
你爲什麽不讓我去呢？
你知不知道我有多傷心呢？
你知不知道我哭了好幾次了嗎？
你到底知道還是你決定了閉一只眼，假裝你不知道呢？

xx

我好想你。
好想，好想。
希望能在聖誕節那一天遇見你，
也想跟你一起到數2009年最後的十秒。

希望。
我已經盡力想辦法，但是都沒有效果。
難道我的世界裏缺了它嗎？

xx

Feeling so lazy and restless.
Nothing is going to be able to fill that hole in my heart, soul and mind.
Except you.

xx

Teardrops are lining up in my eye, waiting for their turn to drop from my cheek.

Scratch that.

They are down.

My entire soul seems to be missing since the second you are no longer here.
There is nothing in this world that would fill that space in my heart.
You are the only one capable of doing so.

I miss you.

Xoxo.

(Real post starts here)
Haven't been blogging/twittering/facebooking because my laptop sucks.
It's getting super laggy and all.
And I'm getting lazy to even use it.
I'm going to isolate myself from the social life I have.
Hahaha.
I'm sick and tired of some stuff that seems to be repeating no matter where I go.
I'll try to distance myself from those.
But that means I'm going to have to distant myself from everyone.

Okay, will blog again soon.

Just another 4 to 5 hours!
Are you excited?
I AM.

Anyway, I watched Julie & Julia...
I feel like cooking too.
Hahahahaha.

Okay, got to go prepare now! :D
*Mad Excited*

Criminal Minds is so funny.
I mean, Reid is so funny.
Had dinner with uncle and family just now..
Came home to unpack stuff because they are coming over tomorrow.
HAHA.
Taking a break after unpacking 95% of the things.
Going to continue soon.

Heheh, haven't been to Church for a few weeks now!
& it's Sunday tomorrow..
(:
Okay, so many things to do..
Will blog again soon.
But should be missing until Tuesday.
Because I've to be the host together with my sister.
So, sorry!

On the sad-der note....
My dad just bbm-ed me that my brother is sick.
):
How I wish I'm there to take care of him.
Ahhhhhhh. I miss you ah boy.

Just a random picture.

So, I hardly got an hour of nap the day before yesterday.
So last night, I slept at 7ish(pm) on the sofa.
Hahah, my favourite place to fall asleep ever.
Then.. I woke up at 11ish(pm) and moved to the room.
I woke up at like 7ish(am), used my phone until 9 or something.
Decided to move out to the living room again.
I did.
And fell asleep on the sofa again until 2ish(pm).

HAHAHA. 17 hours of sleep right there.

Okay, just finish bathing.
Going to leave the house soon to buy something.
Then it's dinnertime with Kaylie and family.
Exciting? Kinda!
Haven't meet them in a while now.

Okay, byebyebye!

Have been wearing that red coat behind me since Monday.
It's getting cold over here.

I'm was bbm-ing Verna and Janet just now..
Even though they are together now.
Super retarded please. Hahahaha.
Oh they are with Haziqah too!
How I wish I'm there.........

Now, I'm bbm-ing with Haziqah now.
She's using Verna's. Hahaha.
Janet and Verna are busy shopping.
And Haziqah... will never shop.
She's still the same as ever.
Please change to be more feminine my dear :)

I expect to see that change by the time I go back.
And I'm not kidding!

ANYWAY.....

My school is over. It's over.
It's over!
Took my last finals just now.
English. It was pretty okay.
Did I tell you about my Accounting and Math finals?
Hahahaha.

So, the 2nd question for Accounting was to write the statement of Cash Flows from Operating Activites.
That usually takes only half a page for me.
And he gave me 3 blank papers...

I was like, stressing out if I did it correctly.
So, I asked the professor who was watching me do the finals.

She was like, "You seem fine", when she saw my work.
So I was like, okay.

Then Math finals..
He was like, do you have any questions?
I said I didn't...
But I was stuck at 2 questions.
At when I was doing both questions, he came in the Math Division (that was where I was doing my finals) and actually helped me out.
He's so awesome!

And everything that day seemed like was going well for me.
So I hope that means my Accounting will be fine too!

Anyway, it's 130am now.
I just got home half an hour ago.
Played badminton :)
Only played about 30 minutes today because we only booked one court.
And there were 10 of us.
Take turns :)
Then, we had Lu's Garden! This porridge place.
So good. Haven't had rice in 4 days or something.
HAHAHA, major diet.
All thanks to JPoon who said I look chubbier.
Which I totally agree.

I've to stay up to pack my stuff because I'm moving back to my sister's place tomorrow.
And I've to wake up early to clean the place before my sisters arrive.
Which is going to be at 1030am(ish).

I need to do laundry now too.
So, I'm going to change and do laundry straight.
Dirty clothes are piling up.
Not a lot actually hahaha, how many clothes can I wear in 4 days right?

Okay, will blog soon.
Miss you guys xoxo.

I know I said I won't blog until tomorrow or something.
But I don't feel as stressed out anymore so here I am!
Hahahaha.

Moving out of this house in 2 days.
Excited.
But another question is popping out in my mind....
What am I going to do at Marina?
I can gym, that's for sure.
The gym there is so pretty compared to the gym here.
Heheh.

I'm just talking rubbish because I want to blog, but I don't know what to blog about.
10 minutes left.
Before starting on my second essay.
Only editting to be done.
It was insane on Monday night.
I spent 6 hours typing an essay.
Imagine yourself spending 6 hours in front of the computer typing something like a composition for 6 hours.
HAHAHA.
See how different the English class is?

Okay, I better get ready to do it now.
Byebye!

Sorry that this post doesn't have a picture...
Just stopping by to say that I won't be able to blog for 3 days.
2 exams, Accounting and Math, on Wednesday.
And English on Thursday.
After that I promise to blog and with pictures :)
I've a post that's going to have so many pictures that you guys would look at them until you guys are just going to give in by clicking the cross button.

Will blog in 3-4 days' time.
Xoxo.

That's not going to be my face for this week!
Not going to have so much sleep for today and tomorrow.
Essays.
I hate them.
So, my list of things to do for tomorrow has 8 items on it.
And it's not things as simple as....
Don't fall asleep while doing essay.
HAHA, what the hell of an example is that.

Okay, it's 217am now.
Going to edit my essay for the 2nd time, and start on my other essay until probably 3 latest.
Have to wake up at like 8 tomorrow, and leave home by 930.
Going to spend the entire day at the school library to do the second essay.
930am to 930pm.
HAHA, the end of class is 930pm tomorrow.
Wow...

Okay, bye!

The two girls who always make my day.
For 4 years of my life.
You two can never be replaced okay.

Yeah, I know I've Alyssa and Michelle too.
But you two are as important as they are to me.

I know it's all different now since I'm over here.
16 hours time difference.
Another place that is on the other side of the Earth.

I miss you guys like keeeraaaaazeeeee.
I open Facebook, see my photos, and think back of the times that we are together.
Whining and whining non stop in the middle of night..
Sms or call or something.
Any form of communication..

I've so much to say.
I've so much to complain.
All of the things that's happening now.
We better skype soon okay.
We can skype the whole night and all okay.

I miss you two!!
Nurul Haziqah & Verna Sukiat.
Love you both (:

The two that I will always cherish.


Our so many attempts to get the perfect shot of us jumping...
And this being so funny because of our height in the photo and Haziqah's position.

Love you two :)

Speechless.