Saturday, August 29, 2009

命運。
我們是否能改變我們自己的命運呢?
我們的父親是商人,那就代表我們也必須像他一樣嗎?
如果我們的夢想不是要當一位商人,怎麼辦呢?
如果我們的父母親逼我們去做我們對它沒有興趣的事,我們會快樂嗎?
我們不是應該做我們愛的事嗎?
比如說,如果父母親在家裡,逼我們做一件事的話,我們也不會把它做好。
那不就是一樣的道理嗎?
如果父母親逼我們當個商人而我們不喜歡那個工作,我們也不會把工作做好。

我相信,我們每一個人都可以改變我們的命運。
我們不一定要跟著我們父母親的願望。
可是,如果你真的要向你的夢想往前走,你一定要做好準備。
在你面前,不是一個好走的路。
要得到自己想要的是,一定要付出很多。

我相信,我已經有我必須有的心理準備。
相信自己,告訴父母親你想要做的事。
說服他們,那是你真真想做的事,而且,你一定要知道他們會永遠的支持你。

那就是我想做的事。
說服我的父母親,姐姐們。
因為我相信我當個商人,不是我的命運。
我一定要實現我從六歲左右的夢想,一定要。
Hello hello! :D
I'm so sleepy now.
It's 1.30pm.

Talking to Haziqah and Jared now.
Hahahaha.
Haziqah already have plans in mind...
Plans of what we're going to do when I'm going back in ELEVEN months.
ELEVEN okay.
That's almost a year, but she already planned where to go and stuff.
Insane right?
Hahahahaha.

Okay, this blog shall be about HAZIQAH.
Nurul Haziqah. I miss you!
More of your nonsense though.
HAHAHA nonsesnse/rnonsense! *winkwink*
I can imagine you laughing with that facial expression of yours..
Omg, I can imagine your laughter.
I can't wait to go back in 11 months and you bugging me with your lame stuff.
HAHAHA, kidding :D
Hippo/Duck ride, we've been saying since weeks before I left!
But we really have to go okay.
I'm going to be a tourist when I go back!
And please ask your Mama to allow you to go Indonesia.
Else, I'll call her myself. I still have her number in my old phone back in Singapore..
Hahaha.
And thank you for that book that you gave me before I left.
Even though I still have no clue why the book cover is LONDON rather than Los Angeles or something..
But it's the thought that counts.
I have tears in my eye while reading it.
You're so awesome.
Known you literally since the first day of Secondary school. (Thanks to your Mama).
Wasn't really close with you until Secondary 2.
3 to 4 years, it's like 1/3 of a decade.
Seems long huh? But it flew past like the speed of light.
We've come such a long way, ups and downs and blahblahblah... (you know what I mean).
And we're still close, best friends.
And it better stay that way!
Thank you for enduring my ranting about me being fat or rather obese.
I know you want to kill me everytime I start to talk about that topic but....
It is the truth. Face it Haziqah.
Hahahaha. I miss you dude.
Countdown to the days until I'm back okay. HAHA, kidding.
I can't wait to go back.
Orchard (ION!), duck/hippo tour, Singapore Flyer.... & I don't know, do some tourist stuff?
Like going to the only "exciting place" like SENTOSA.
Or you know what we can do?
I've always wanted to go to some random place in Singapore just to take photos.
We hardly take photos huh. Since the years we know each other.
We've to take more photos when I go back okay.
Must.
I'll see you in eleven months dear.
Xoxo ❤

Next post dedication is for Verna Sukiat :D

Looking forward to go back.
I want to go skin doctor and hope to go for Lasik.
So I won't have to wear contacts & specs anymore.
Hooray!

Okay, goodnight!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

我不敢對任何人坦白的說,其實。 。 。
我是在默默的愛你,的想你。
好希望我可以再看你一面。
好希望我會有那麼一個機會。

愛しています。
I just realised my computer screwed up a few days ago.
And didn't post the entry I posted.
Oh well.
Let me think what I wrote...
Okay.
My Blackberry (BB) is a little screwed up now.
Something about the javascript and I can't blog through my phone.
Which sucks.
I wanted to a lot of time.
Every since BB came along, I hardly use my computer anymore.
So forgive me for that.

I want to go back Singapore.
Grr, but I want to hurry finish College.
Dilemma.
OH.
You know what I realised?
I think I can go back to Singapore next year.
Even if I go Summer class, I might have a couple of weeks break.
Hold on, let me check now. Hehe.

Okay, so this is this year's schedule.

Summer 2009
6wk session: 6/22/09-7/31/09
8wk session: 6/22/09-8/14/09
Late Start session: 7/6/09-8/14/09

Fall 2009
August 31, 2009- December 22, 2009

So if I take the 6 weeks session, I can go back for about 4 weeks, which is a month.
And if I take the 8 weeks session, I can go back for 2 weeks?
And same goes for the last session, going back for only 2 weeks.
Let's see how it goes.
:D

I can't wait to back to Singapore.
I can't wait to see the skin doctor.
Love/hate relationship with the weather here.
Giving me MILLIONS of pimples, but they're not so obvious that I can conceal them perfectly..
That's the hate.
And the love is that, it's really cooling.
Hahaha, can't wait to go back to see all of you of course.

Cousin and her family, with my brother tagging along are coming this End of November.
Can't wait.
Even thought I'm not that close with that family but it's good to start getting close right?
We're family!
Plus my cousin's coming over to study and I'm going to bring her around my school.
It'll be so cool if she comes to PCC..
Even though by the time she come I'm already in SMC.
But she'll probably do the same thing, or just stay in PCC all the way.
I'm not very sure about that.
Hahah.
PLUS, my brother is coming.
I miss him so much! ):

Okay, tv tv tv.
It's 11:02am!
I'm so bored.
I woke up 3 hours ago.
Hahaha, okay, bye!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

I just realised I haven't updated for a week.
Anyway, it's August 15.
You know what it means?
I'm already 17.5 years old. (Yes, they count it by 17.5 years old, so weird right?)
I can take the driving test already!
Anytime I want.
I can't wait to drive, because... (:

Let's just hope that the wishes I wished upon the falling stars do come true.
:D

Friday, August 7, 2009

Just now while on the way back after chillin' at about 130am.
We were talking about how my sister's friend liked this guy for 8 months.
She still does by the way.
& I was reminded about the time where I liked you for 4 years or something.
From Primary 6 all the way to Secondary 4.
Wow.
Even I am amazed at myself now.
How could I actually like you for 4 years.
Okay, a few crushes and stupid decisions in between.
But, I remained "faithful" and can't change the feelings I had for you.
But...
At the same time, now I'm wondering why was I so stupid to actually like you for so long.
Seriously.

But I'm happy with myself.
That I finally got over you.
After 4 years!

Oh, I was looking through most of my photo albums in Facebook.
And, I'm missing the times we spent in Manjusri.
I miss 4E1.
I'm missing the times the 10 of us went to Thailand.
I hope that we can have another trip like that.
I miss all of you.

Such a random post.. I know.

xoxo

Monday, August 3, 2009

As much as I want to go back next year..
I think I'll refrain myself from doing so.
I've been thinking and I'd like to graduate ASAP..
So I rather stay here and go back the following year, after College.
:/

My sisters always ask me what I want to major in.
I always say "I don't know, business?", thinking that that's what I'm supposed to study.
Since young, my dream was to be an Actress.
I was hoping that I could take Theatre Arts..
I really want to be up there, on a film/drama, making people feeling good about my movie and stuff like that.
But the next question follows, "Will that guarantee me with a stable job?"
I know that's my Dad's concern to.
I don't know.
I was thinking of joining Acting class, maybe after graduating from studying Business.
I... Really want to do something that I like.
But I doubt I can.
Because my interest won't ensure my bright future.

Yes, LA is a place where 90% of the people wants to be famous.
I didn't say I want to try it out here..
I'd like to go Taiwan.
Debut in a super awesome drama that makes everyone glued to it that they just can't leave it to go out.
That is my dream.
That is my ambition.
That is what I want to achieve in life.

I know it's hard.
But that is life, isn't it?
We have to overcome all the obstacles ahead of you, in order for you to achieve what you want.
I don't know how to open my mouth about this to my Dad& Mom.
I don't know what will they think about me and my dreams.

I've daydreamed about going Taiwan during holidays, and try for their auditions/casting calls.
Imagine that happening.
That'll be the first huge step I'm taking to achieve my goal in life.

I'd really really want my dreams to come true.
I'd really really like Dad, Mom& Sisters to support in what I want to do/learn.
I hope that I can take Theatre Arts, or go to Taiwan to fulfill my dream.
I don't mind studying Business, as it can be my backup plan.
But I'd like to pursue my dream after graduating University studying Business.

That, is my dream.
& I'm no longer afraid to let people know.
You can laugh at me, I won't be hurt and cry about it.
As long as I know I have a goal in life, and yet you're doing nothing but laughing at me, I'm contented as you're the joke, not me.

Xoxo.

Friday, July 31, 2009

Watched The Ugly Truth and it was superb.
My sister's friend asked what was the lesson learnt from the show, through BBM.
So, my sister asked the table of 8 of us, excluding her, the question.
A few of them came up with the moral of the movie.

Men want to be understood rather than being loved by us, women.
& Women want to be loved rather than being understood by them, men.

But my sister thinks that "Men are shallow" will summarize everything.
Hahahaha.

Okay, I know I haven't been updating much...
But check out my Facebook for photos update.
I've been very active in Facebook due to my lovely awesome Blackberry.
Hahaha. Everyone should get a Blackberry.

Oh! I think I'll be uploading more pictures than what I'm going to blog here.
Because I love my camera & I love my Blackberry.
And I just bought a lens for my camera.
70-300mm. Finally a lens that allows me to zoom far away.
I hate it when I use my camera, and want to zoom far, but can't.
But now, no more of that problem.
I want to go out to more of those pretty places that I can take pretty photos.
Go see my beach photos! Awesomeness.
But it wasn't taken with my new lens so most of the photos that I wanted to zoom in, I can't.
Okay, moral of the story...
More photoshoot session please!

I don't know what to blog!
I don't know how are you guys doing over back there.
You guys hardly blog too!
Too busy with Poly life and all?
Update me with everything!
Through Facebook, Email or whatever way possible.
Hahah, I know that some of you wanted me to send letters and all.
But my sister just told me that sending a letter from here to Singapore takes like 2 weeks!
I emailed like a few of you.
I'm going to email a few soon, heheh.
No time to email! I've been going out almost everyday.

Erjie is going back to Singapore next Tuesday.
Leaving dajie and I alone here.
Aw.

Hmmmm, update whenever again!
<3

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

I'm so obese.
Ah! Kill me.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

I need to go shopping!
Like get some pretty flats and some heels that are not so extremely high.
Like, I've been wearing flipflops.
Shoe yesterday.
And heels the day after I arrived. Yes, only that one time.

Hahahaha. I want to go shopping!! :D

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I miss you.
I really do.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Stop the bombings!!
Poor Ritz Carlton & Marriott.
9 dead & more than 50 wounded.
Pray for them..
Hope they don't find any more people injured or dead.
Stop bombing Indonesia!
Grrr.

School = 4 days a week.
Monday to Thursday.
I don't have morning classes.. AT ALL.
Stupid people occupied all the classes.
So I only have afternoon classes.
And.. Night classes.

2 classes each for Monday & Wednesday.
Accounting: 340pm to 610pm.
Math: 700pm to 930pm.
(My class end @ 930pm.. Wow.)

Tuesday's my busiest day.
Counseling (a compulsory class): 100pm to 340pm.
English Writing Class: 420pm to 515pm.
English: 530pm to 735pm.

Thursday is my reward day.
English: 530pm to 735pm.

Friday to Sunday = go back to my place with my sisters..

I was supposed to take Econs & Philo...
But Econs was full..
& the person and my eldest sister asked me not to take cause it's bloody difficult for a freshman, aka me.
So, I chose Maths in the end..
And my elder sister would probably kill me because she asked me not to take Maths..
But I'd no other choices.
Supposed to take another counseling class too, a class with more units...
But the person said the credit won't be transferable to USC.
So what the heck, changed class again.

SO CONFUSING!
Grrrr.

Oh wells. Everything's good now.
The only time I've to go back to school again is next week.
23 & 24 July for some stupid workshop...
It had to be compulsory...
Then August 17 to make my student ID card.
Just one semester of this torturous afternoon-night classes..
Just one semester of staying alone..
Just one semester until I transfer to SMC & I can stay with my sisters.
:D

But I'll be leaving Kartika aloneeee.
Hahah, even though we only have like...
2 classes the same for now...
Oh wells.

Not going SF this weekend!
Going San Diego tomorrow though.
One-day trip.
SF will be for next weekend or something.

Michelle Chang will be back early August!!
Which means I can go up to San Jose to find her.
Woooooo! :D
Okay, see ya!
<3

Monday, July 13, 2009

Cooked dinner with Dajie today :D
She did most of the cooking cause I was busy cutting up everything.
Heh, it turned out pretty good.
& it's so much cheaper rather than having to eat out.

Let's cook more often :D




Hehe, doesn't that look good?

Tuesday (my tomorrow) = Placement tests for school, English and Maths.
Wednesday = Counselling, group counselling for 2.5 hours!
Thursday = I'm free! (I shall go out with Steph/Jess/Kartika or something, not my sisters!)
Friday = Registration for classes..
Sat-Monday(?) = SF!
Thursday & Friday = Some workshop in school..
Then no plans in between..
3 August = Six Flags!
Then..
18-23August = NY!
24 August = Parents coming!
31 August = Start school!
Then sometime in September.. = Staying alone in Pasadena & most probably walking to school.
Hahahaha.

Yay. 从来没想过,不能再和你牵手。不对,我们有这个机会吗?

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Happy Birthday Alyssa Wee!
Sorry that I'm not there to celebrate your birthday with you.
Have fun okay :D
I miss you girl.

Talked to Haziqah just now.
Hahaha, she was so shocked that I was online.
The time difference sucks.
I'm always online whenever I'm home that is..
But, I hardly talk to people because they are either in school or sleeping.
Sucks huh?

So, I went to Church just now.
It wasn't as boring as I thought it'd be.

I'll try to blog more hehe.
:D could it be?

Friday, July 10, 2009

Today was freaking hot..
& my sister came up with a very bright idea.
Go to this garden..
& we went there at about... 12noon up until 230pm.
The temperature, the highest one was 38-39 degrees.
But now (325pm), it's about 24?

Heh :D

Monday, July 6, 2009

Hellooooo.
I went to my school today to "check-in"..
It's so stupid though.
They should make international students "check-in" online.
Grr.

Went shopping a bit.
Forever 21 here is ultra cheap!
But my sister told me something.
There is no Topshop here!
How could that be!

Supposed to get my phone line today, but they need my dad to call the operator to do something and stuff like that.
So, getting it tomorrow or the day after.

My sisters' fridge is filled with nothing but unhealthy junk food.
I want to go grocery shopping.
Thank goodness Ralphs (a grocery store) is just next to my place.

The weather here is pretty good.
Though it's very hot in the afternoon..
It reached up to 29C today.
But it's not humid here so everything's good.
It was 22C when I got home justs now.
And at night, it'll get to like 16C.
Heheh, I hate Singapore's weather.
I don't even have an air conditioner here.
We just need to open the door.
HAHA. :D

It's summer.
So night's pretty short.
It only gets dark at like 830 to 9pm.
And it gets bright early in the morning. Hehe.

I'm going for fine dining later.
Hehehe :D
& I might be going New York in August.
Hahaha :D

Miss you guys.
Xoxo.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

I'm sorry guys!
I had no time to blog in Indonesia.

I'm in the US now.
I feel so alone here!
I mean, I've my sisters and Mikey.
But that's it.
No friends.
Sucks to be me.

I miss you guys.
Read your letters and stuff...
Made me feel like crying.
Thanks a lot, hahaha.

I just came back from late lunch..
I'm so full but my sisters planned to go somewhere for dinner already.
How insaneeee.
Okay, I'll blog when I do anything here.
:D

<3

Thursday, July 2, 2009

在不到24小時的時間,我就會在機場了。
我已經離開了我朋友們的身邊。
我可以向你們保證,我一定會哭的。
那兩次我姐姐都去美國的時候,我也哭了。
這一次不是會更慘嗎?
這一次不是姐姐或是弟弟到美國去。
這一次,是我到美國的時候了。

我不敢面對現實,我選擇生活在屬於我自己的世界裡。
我不想離開。

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Jakarta (CGK) Singapore (SIN)
06:15 08:50

Singapore(SIN) Tokyo (NRT)
09:40 17:35

Tokyo(NRT) Los Angeles (LAX)
18:45 13:00

Kill me please.

Monday, June 29, 2009

我不敢相信我再三天后,就回到印尼。
我不敢相信我再五天后,就回到美國。
為什麼時間過得那麼快呢?
不到一個星期的時候,我就沒有機會跟我的朋友們去們之類的。
到了美國,我就是好像一位陌生人似的。
沒有好朋友們在那裡。
我感覺到我要崩潰了。
為什麼時間不能停止呢?

我不想走,可是我的另一半卻要趕快地離開新加坡。
我講話的好矛盾哦。

我先跟每一個讀我的博客說個再見。
雖然我不在新加坡,我們還要繼續聯絡哦。
<3