When Marco Pierre White got his 3 Michelin Stars.
He's supposed to be the happiest guy on Earth at that very moment.
But he said he felt sad.
Because it's somehow the end.
There's no more Michelin Stars for him to achieve.

How true.
When we make our #1 dream come true, that will be the end.
We'll have nothing to look forward to.
Isn't that sad.
But to normal people like us, who are not Marco Pierre White, we will probably feel really super happy after achieving something we've been dreaming for years or so.

First thing first, will we have enough motivation and determination to ensure that we will actually achieve our dream, our goal?
As long as we've enough motivation and determination, even if we've no luck and the chance to make our dream come true, we'll achieve it in the end.

Let's all work towards our dream.
Motivate one another, push one another until we actually achieve it.
Good luck!

I just want to say how much I love my friends.
Especially my two Primary School Best Bitches, Alyssa Wee and Michelle Chang.
And those in Secondary School, Cheng Huihui, Jerevien Poon, Leonard Thio, Nurul Haziqah, Su Jialin, Supanan Mui, Verna Sukiat. (Alphabetical Order)
My 10 years friend, Janet Lau Shan Xiu!

You know what, those are just a few names.
I love every single one of you (:

I will never forget you guys when I go over to the US.
We better meet up more before I actually leave.
And take more photos.
I'll stick all of them on my wall when I'm there.
<3

I'm going to buy the Hula Hoop tomorrow.
It's a replacement for the other Hula Hoop.
I think Mommy want to start the diet tomorrow.
It's either tomorrow or Friday.

And I'm going to start exercising everyday.
I'll try to do so.
Instead of rotting every single day at home.
I'll go for Yoga at least 4 times a week.
And I'm going to skip! Grow taller... Kinda impossible, I know.

I'm going on a super diet thingy now.
Hehe. I'm doing cruntches before I sleep now.
It's torture! But I'll torture myself for 3 weeks now.

I can't believe Mommy allows me to go to M'sia! Hahaha.
I shall ask her about Taiwan tomorrow. (:
Bye!

I'm going to try this 7 Day Diet thing.
James's sister did the diet and lost 10 pounds in 1 week!
Hahahaha, woo!
My Mommy's with me on this. Hahaha.
Cool eh? :D





为你掉眼泪。

I'm eating healthily for dinner.
Yogurt + Cereal with Milk.
Plus 10 pieces of an unhealthy food, fries.
Just 10 though!

Mom just asked if I wanted anything from Newton.
So she's getting Duck Rice + Popiah + Watermelon Juice!
I'm going fatter by like 64982712Kg.

I can't eat hard stuff right after I take my retainers off.
Hahahaha. Okay, CSI! Bye.

I'm going to PCC for only ONE semester, and I'm going to transfer to SMC.
And I'm going to PCC alone.
Yes, alone.
No more Steph, because for some reason her application to PCC is super complicated.
She need to take some test to prove that her O level is up to the high school standard there or something.
What rubbish is that?
I didn't have such problem.
That is unacceptable!
And since she's accepted in SMC, she'll just go there.
It sucks that Steph and her friend is accepted in SMC, when I am older than them by months.
Why is that so?
It's so unfair.
Now I've to go PCC alone for 3 months.
A totally new environment, alone.
And I'm shy, that sucks. I'll have no friends.
I'm going to stay alone for that 3 months too I think.
Ah, how troublesome is that.
So many chores to do and all, okay, I don't really mind.
But still..
Oh my God. Save me.

I'm going to leave on July 5, ALONE.
Mommy will only go to the US after I'm done with all of my Orientation thingy.
Then we'll find a place to rent or something.
And I'll rot for another 1.5 months there.
Now you know how bad is it to be me.
Thanks.

Oh, on the bright side.
I can see Mitch when she comes back next month, and after her family trip!
She'll be here like 2 weeks or lesser than that actually, before I leave for Indonesia.
Finally, after like, NINE months (for now), since last August!
By next month, it'll be like 10 months after I last see her when I get the chance to actually see her!
I miss you bitch. ):

The things I hate in life right now.
#1, how fat I am.
#2, how lazy I am to go to the gym.
#3, how it sucks to have ALL of your friends in school.
#4, how I have to stay home and rot with nothing to do.
#5, how boring my life is.

I need some excitements.
Something different.
I need a spark.
Something to make me occupied.
I need the luck and the chance.
That is what I'm lacking.
I need my luck and chance to come now.
Now.

See how time flies?
It's already May.
Two more months and it'll be July.
It seems like it was only yesterday that I'm in Las Vegas, getting ready for the countdown for the year 2009.
In a flash, it'll be the countdown for the year 2010.

Time should slow down.
It's moving too fast.

I saw Patricia Mok during dinner today.

I've been sweating a lot.
I dislike Singapore's weather.
I don't know how I could endure this for the past 10 years.
I'm shocked and proud of myself. Hahah.
Okay, it wasn't as bad last time.
Blame us.
Global warming.
The end of the world is nearing.
Say goodbye now.

Hahah, I'm not going to say goodbye until I fulfill my wishes and dreams.
Hehe, okay.
I'm going to take my medicine now.
I forgot about it.
And tomorrow will be the last day of taking medicines.
Means I can stop eating after tomorrow.
I feel so bad for eating these days because I've to take my medicines.
Hahaha, I shall go to the gym tomorrow afternoon before Piano.
Then I might go walk to Botanics in the evening, after Piano, with Mommy.
But it's not a confirmed thing, since Mommy's always being lazy to go.
Hahah, shall make her go by saying she's fat now.
But that's so mean.
Ah, okay, nevermind. To lose weight. Hahaha.

Piano Piano! Okay, bye!

Yes, I'm very sure.
I will make it happen.

My Mommy was telling me about how people who are suspected of having the Swine Flu are given this medicine called Tamiflu.
The doctor gave me Tamiflu as one of the 3 medicines he gave me the other day.
:/

Thank goodness I'm fine now.

I think I need to change my glasses soon.
Things seem a little blurry.
I can't wait until I'm 18.
Lasik!

Ah, I've so many things on my mind.
Ah, I need to lose weight. Hahaha.

I wanted to say something.
But I forgot..
Nevermind. Hahaha.
I'll most probably blog again anyway.
Okay, Ghost Whisperer's starting soon.
Bye!

Junlin actually knows how to type my Chinese name.
Hahah, that's surprising (:
I thought he'll type "Niao Niao" or something. Hahaha.

Okay, bye!

I'm fine now! I think.
I was like 36.3 in the afternoon.
My grandma said I'm having slight fever now though..

Haziqah and Verna surprised me at home, just to visit me.
Thank you so much hehe, love you guys (:

Ah, I don't want to leave ):
2 months. How quick will that day arrive?
In a blink of an eye? Or even faster?

Did I tell you I brushed my teeth like 5/6 times yesterday.
Hahaha. And like 3/4 times today?
Insanity.

I don't know if I can go Malaysia and Taiwan now.
Because of all the Swine Flu thing.
Ah, so sad ):
I want to go!
I hope Asia won't have any case of the Swine Flu thing.
Hope so..

My fever was as bad as 39.4 degrees.
I was okay at about midnight with only 37.5 degrees.
I went up at 6am until 38.5 degrees.
My grandparents compressed my forehead with ice.

Oh, when I was 39.4 degrees, it was like 830pm.
Clinics were closed.
So I went for the 24 hour clinic thing over at Gleneagles.
There were so many people in the clinic you know.
A lot of Indonesians :/

I've been resting so much, I feel like a pig.
Okay, bye!

Hello.
I was 37 degrees at 12pm plus or something, when I was sleeping.
(My brother took my temperature for me.)
And like half an hour ago, I felt myself burning up.
My temperature went up at 38.1 again.
Ah, but I didn't go to the doctor. I was sleeping.
I feel like a pig. Ate breakfast and medicine, called my Jap class to reschedule a make up lesson.
Then I went back to sleep.
Then I woke up for lunch and medicine.
But I haven't go back to sleep hehe.
I feel like a pig.

I haven't fall sick for damn long.
Like, Secondary 3 and 4, I never took an MC before.
And now, high fever. Tsktsk.

My Mommy must be having a headache right now.
Actually, my parents and grandparents should be having a headache right now.
Both my brother and I are sick.
Steph was like asking me to be careful because of the Swine Flu thing going on now.
So many people are falling sick! I know of 5 or something who are down with fever, cough and headache right now.

This is bad.

Okay, ciao!

Remember the other day, I was like.
I rather it be me who's sick.

Wish granted.

My brother's getting better, only down with cough now.
Temperature of 36 point something.

But.

I woke up at 7, freezing, normally I'll be sweating because grandma opens the door in the morning.
I wore socks. I was dizzy.
I went to take my temperature. 37.6, slight fever.
I went back to sleep, still freezing.
Woke up at 9 with a worse headache.
Went to take my temperature again, 38.6. High fever.

I'm going to the doctor if I'm not better by 2pm.

Okay, just took medicine.
Bye.

My teeth hurts. My upper set of teeth.
It hurts when I eat SUSHI.
Hahaha, must be because of the retainers.
My dentist made the upper one really tight.
Ha, okay.

Since 11+am, I've only had Tori Q at like 6pm.
Until now, sushi and pineapple.
Hahaha, okay.
Bye!

Say hello to my retainers! Hehehe.
I'm a happy girl.
And I'm already lazy to take it out since the dentist just now.
If I want to put it back after eating, I've to brush my teeth first.
So lazy okay. Hahaha.

Ah, guilty for spending almost a thousand on classes, doctors, brother's medication stuff and two hundred for the booking of the pool area thing.
At least it's not for shopping. Hahaha.

Okay, two classes of Yoga later.
Exciting.
I'm kinda busy today, hehe.
About 2 hours spent in Gleneagles.
Then an hour spent in Dentist.
Piano for a bit just now. Played it until my brother scolded me because he's watching Naruto on tv and it's annoying him.
Hahaha.
Going to continue later.

Ah, I'm going to change to shorts now because it's so hot.
I can't belive I'm wearing jeans.
I wore jeans twice in this week now.
Surprise Surprise!

Hahaha, Okay, I need to make new specs soon.
Scratches appeared out of the blue.
Oh, my eye's okay now. Hehehe. Still a little red but it's fine.

I feel like munching on snacks.
But retainers are stopping me from doing so.
This is good. Hahahaha.
Bye.

Brother's down with cough and fever.
It was really high.
Then it was better with a temperature of 38.
Now, it's back to high fever.

I rather it being me who's sick right now.
He's having his Mid Year Examinations soon.
How can he concentrate like that?
I mean, I've no school and examinations.
I can just lie down on the bed whole day being sick.
I want him to do well for his examinations.
It's his streaming year.
I worry for him.

I'm scared that it's dengue.
Those flies have been spotted around my condo area.
Going to the hospital tomorrow.
I don't trust clinics.

Signed up for Hip Hop classes already.
Started my Piano today. It was fun.
I think I play really badly on the Piano though.
I'll work hard, and continue when I go over to the US.
I'll go for those with grades examinations when I'm there.
I shall work hard. I will.

I just realised once again the importance of money.
And how fast do I spend the money that my Daddy have to work so hard for.
Today, I withdrew $500 at first. Almost all are spent on the two classes.
Piano and Hip Hop.
Then I remembered I've to book the Pool Area.
But I withdrew a $100, which was not enough. I'm so blur.
So, I have to wait until tomorrow.
I feel really bad for spending so much.
And still wanting to join so many classes..
But joining classes and spending the money in this sense is better than spending on clothes right? I feel so so so so so bad for spending this amount of money.
Even though Mommy allowed me to attend as many classes as I want.
But never have the price really crossed my mind.
I'm such a bad daughter.
I shouldn't spend so much money. I'm only 17 for God's sake.

I mean, what's the point on shopping everyday and spending money on clothes that you will not wear after some time?
Ah, I'm starting to resent shopping.
I haven't shop in weeks, or rather months.. I think. I can't remember the last time I shopped.
But but, I've to shop at Marina Square or Wisma Atria before I leave.
I have vouchers that I haven't spend at all.
Who's willing to be my shopping partner?
(This is your cue Alyssa!)

Back to topic.

Cheryl, Junlin and Weixing came over to my place.
Talked a lot. Missed them.
Laughed a lot too.
Played the piano, and sang a few Choir pieces too.
Gave them a lot of things for them to revise for the big Os.
They left at about 9+.
You're welcome for everything by the way guys.
It was not a problem. Hehe.
You guys should come more often.. Before I leave for the US.

I'm going to sleep early tonight.
To wake up early to go along with my gramps to bring my brother to Gleneagles.
I've to go back at 2pm again for my eye checkup.
Then I signed up for Bollywood Fusion and Hot Hour tomorrow.
I need to go Yoga more oftenly.
I'm still thinking of what other classes to join.

Retainers are not done yet.
But the receptionist said it'll be done by this week.
So I'm looking forward to that.

Oh, I've to go down to the US Embassy one day too.
To make my student Visa.
I kinda have a lot of things to decide on and to do this week.
This is exciting.
I want to have things to do everyday.
I don't even mind sacrificing my sleep.

I don't want to leave Singapore in less than 10 weeks time.
That's just too fast.
It'll zoom past us in a blink of an eye.
Time passes so quickly that it seemed like only yesterday when we were all like saying how far away is Poly and stuff like that.
Now? One week of Poly have started.
The second work have begun.
The clock is ticking away and the date of me leaving for the US is nearing.

I can't bear to leave on July 1st, the day I go back to Indonesia.
Knowing that, that will be the day that you guys are going to send me off.
I'll be flying straight to the US from Indonesia, only transit-ing for less than 2 hours?
The feeling sucks.
I'm getting a headache right now.
My hair's dripping water onto my legs.
I'm sitting on the floor with my laptop on the bed.
I don't know why I'm in this position.

I feel super duper extremely overly obese recently.
I've been snacking, which is bad.
I'm going to not eat from tomorrow onwards.
Just fruits or vege.
That's it.
I'm not going to buy anymore snacks, since the trio who came today helped me finish most of the snack at home.
I'm happy.
I'm sad.
I want to lose weight.
Everyone's saying I'm fatter.
But no one believes I'm __kg.
Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
I don't know. But I'm going to lose until I'm happy with my weight.
I'm going to lose until I see a __kg on the weighing scale.
I will.
By June, latest July.

I have edit-ted this post, thrice now.
Oh wells. Goodnight.

Joining one class after another.
Finally came to a decision on when I'm leaving for Indonesia.

I asked Mommy if I was left with Reversing and Parking thing to learn.
And she said that I've to learn everything.
So I asked her, how long will it take?
She said it'll take very fast.
So I asked her again, how fast is very fast? One week? One day? Hahah.
And she went...

One hour. You are a fast learner, one hour is enough.

Aw, look at how sweet is Mommy. Hehe.
So I'm going back to Indonesia on July 1st.
I'm only going back for 4 days.
1 July, 2 July, 3 July, 4 July.
And morning flight on 5th July.

Oh, I'm wondering if I should have a farewell party thing.
It'll be so sad ):
But that'll be when I can actually meet up with all of my friends again, before I leave.
Hm, should I? Hehe. Comments please. Thank you very much.
Speaking of party, Tracy's going to hold her birthday party at my place on 15th May!
On the other hand, farewell party means all of my friends will be there.
And it'll be hard to communicate with all of them.
Should I just have small meet ups with different groups?
So, farewell party or group meet ups?
Which is better?
Help me out! Hehe.

Busy busy busy. Busy me.

Sigh, you guys won't be able to send me off on July 5th.
If I'm really taking that flight on July 5th..

Jakarta (CGK) 06:15 to Singapore (SIN) 08:50
Singapore(SIN) 09:40 to Tokyo (NRT) 17:35
Tokyo(NRT) 18:45 to Los Angeles (LAX) 13:00

If that's really the case. I need to transit straight away.
You guys can only send me off on the day I'm leaving to Indonesia.
Sigh, I'm still leaving to another island that doesn't have my friends for 4 days, before actually leaving to the piece of land that is a total stranger to me.

I can't bear to leave all of you. Really.

I find myself repeating what I've posted again and again and again.
Oh wells.

Checking in with school on the day I arrive itself, or on July 6, the day after I arrive.
I need to have all the registering things, placement tests, and everything going on.
They stated that every student must have like 2 hours talk or something with the counsellor, in order for us to go along with the teacher that we are most suited with?
Then I must choose my classes.
Then Orientation's starting on July 10.

After that, I'll have like 1.5 months of break.
School only starts on 31 August.

1.5 months. What am I going to do during that time.
Learn driving. Take the driving test.
Look for a place to rent?
And after that, I've nothing to do!
I rather rot in Singapore than in the US.
At least I've friends here who I can meet time to time with.

Oh wells.
I'm having flu.
My brother's having a fever and a cough.
We fell sick on the same day.
He's not going to school tomorrow.
I've no school tomorrow.
Hahaha.

Going to register for classes tomorrow.
And starting my piano lessons tomorrow.

Going back to the eye doctor on Tuesday.
Oh, I think I'll call up my dentist and go back on Tuesday if possible.
I can't wait for my retainers to get here.

Japanese lessons on Wednesday.
Meeting Pearls on Thursday.

I can't believe I actually planned everything out. Hahaha.
Okay, I actually changed to be those "I must plan beforehand" type of person already.
June holidays are not properly planned yet though.
Which sucks badly.

Okay, bye!