It's 552am now.

I'm poopooing :p

And I'm going to bathe and prepare to go to school.

This semester is going to be insane.

With class (hopefully) starting at 7am, or 8am otherwise..

& ending at 545pm everyday except Wednesday.

No Friday classes of course.

I'm excited for this term because they're a lot of new people :>

But somehow a lot of the new Indonesians are entering LMU straight.

LMU is getting crowded.

I figured it doesn't really matter to me if I get into USC or not..

Even though I really want to get in..

I'll leave it to the hands of God.

:>

It's 555am now.

Good morning all.

Or good night to those in Singapore.

Xoxo.

Why must it always be me starting the conversation?

If you think that I don't care just because I don't talk to you, you are wrong.

And does it occur to you that I'm feeling the same thing as you?

I feel that you don't care about me too, just because you have NEVER ever started a conversation with me.

Why can't it be you who starts the conversation?

WHY MUST IT ALWAYS BE ME?

How do you know if someone is himself or herself in front of you?

They may be acting in front of you.

Isn't this what acting is all about?

Being able to be someone that you're not and allowing people to believe that person when you're actually someone with a mask on your face?

That's something that requires talent, acting talent.

Doesn't it?

I believe, and I'm not ashamed to say that I do have a little of this talent I'm posting about.

Why?

Because I do this at times.

Especially when I'm not feeling too good inside.

I try to act like everything's fine.

And sometimes, people really do believe this.

Isn't this proof of what talent I have in me?

xx

I think I'm going back to my day dreaming.

Xoxo.

我什麼都不想想了。

A bad friend.

I am a bad friend.

At least that's what I feel inside.

:/

飛輪海 ♥

*SCREAMS*

:>

Too hooked to my 飛輪海's 太熱 song.

It's too awesome already.

They look damn hot in the MV can :O

Like Feiyun said: if only we were one of those girls.

HAHAHA.

:>

Eeek, how can Aaron be so cute -_-

Pardon the video taking over the space from my right sidebar.

Flying back to my lovely LA tomorrow.

Can't wait to be able to hang out with the few people.

Just packed my stuff and WOAH, it's like I'm moving all over again.

I have Indomie, Cap Jempol, Honey Stars and my magazines.

Shall not risk breaking my CDs, since the luggages are so filled.

:D

I'm having a slight headache now :/

Thinking if I should sleep or go eat roti prata and swirl art with my parents.

Hehe.

My parents are too cool.

I dyed my hair and chopped off my fringe.

Hm, you guys will see the outcome sooner or later.

I'm not going to sleep from SIN - NRT.

And I'll sleep from NRT - LAX.

Preventing myself from getting jetlag.

Geez.

My onboard luggage would be so heavy.

DSLR and Chanel bag is inside.

Laptop & 2 loose tops (just to protect my laptop).

And I'm bringing a carton of cigs for Mikey.

And I'm going to purchase more films in Tokyo.

Woopeedoo.

Hopefully there would be a nice gentleman dude sitting around my area.

:D

Okay, will definitely blog more when I reach LA :>

Goodbye!

See you in two days XD

I bet I'll be so lazy to blog...

Xoxo.

I wish I had my new bought journal with me right now.

Because I have so many things on my mind -_______-

Going back to Singapore tomorrow evening.

Praying in the morning first though..

I have to wake up in 8 hours wth.

It sucks to be leaving Indo and Sg in 2 days-ish.

Having to be alone by the end of this year doesn't make me feel any better.

& I'm not coming back for another year.

Eeeeek.

Okay, byebyebye!!

Cousins are staying over for my last night here in Jkt for the year 2010 XD

Xoxo.

Caught The Expendables today.

It's too cool already.

My current favorite actor: Jason Statham.

Not current actually.

Liked him for quite some time :p

He said this in the movie and damn, it got me hooked to that sentence until now.

"I know I'm not perfect, but you should have waited, because I'm worth it."

You know, something along that line.

Awesomecakes.

Meeting Jenny, Talisha and a few more people tomorrow night.

Hehe.

Early night tonight.

Getting swollen eye again.

This time it's my left eye, not my right one.

Eek.

Okiedokie.

Goodnight.

Xoxo.

I know I'm lacking a million and one updates from the time spent in Singapore and Bali.

I'll blog about them, plus my Jakarta trip, and my one last day in Singapore before I return to LA, when I return to LA.

(:

For pictures on Bali, you can simply go to Facebook and visit my profile, click on my pictures and see how fun Bali was.

Singapore photos, not a lot because I left my memory card in LA.

More polaroids taken :)

Okiedokie.

Time to sleep now.

No more time to feel emo.

This time it's nothing about my stuff and what I tweet.

It's about my LA life and how my sisters are going to leave me soon :(

By this year.

Both of them.

Okay, I'll elaborate more next time.

Be prepared to see a really long and wordy post when I go back to LA.

Xoxo.

I need to find a replacement to replace the first replacement that I had.

Porridge.

I love you.

Lol.

The pain that I feel within me..
Is just too overwhelming.

I need some sleep now.

Yam Cha with Mommy, Erjie and Cousin tomorrow.
Dentist to extract my lower left wisdom tooth after that.
And Mommy wants to bring me to a salon to cut my super long hair..

Headache's back.

Goodnight lovelies.
Xoxo.

how far would you go to stay as friends with the person who matters the most to you?

i think the best thing to do is to let go of the love that you feel towards them and start treating them like the best friend you wish to stay with for the rest of your life.

talk to them like they are friends who you would still talk about relationship with.

asking them if they have any girl that they are eyeing for.

well, that's what I do.

i'm going to treat you as no one but my best friend from now on.

and you know that it'll work.

because i'll be the great actress in me.

showing the rest of the world the opposite image that is in me.

just for the time being though.

give me a few days.. or weeks.

i'll be perfectly fine.

i'll be me again.

lovelove,

xoxo.

♥

the ♥ doesn't exist anymore.

pulling away.

Should I start distancing myself from you?

Or should I, like I said in my other post, act and pretend that nothing's wrong?

How can you love someone so much, and yet hate them at the same time?

I think it's better if I go on acting that I am fine.

Time to move on, Caroline.

Move on.

I don't wish to always be that emo on Twitter.

But you can't blame me for having so many things on my mind these days.

No one can ever understand the feeling that I am having.

There's no way that you guys can feel what I feel and to actually say that you understand, without having to lie about that.

The only person who can understand how I feel is... no one.

I guess I'm on my own on this.

Goodnight.

Xoxo.

Too many things went on in the past few days.

Too many things to blog about.

Will blog another day..

Sorry for the lack of updates lovelies.

Xoxo.

☹

Met up with Jared and Shuhui yesterday.

Aly and Bingy came to meet us.

Walked around Marina Square and decided to go Swirl Art to chill.

Bingy didn't come with us though.

We sat there for 3 hours.

Playing Monopoly Deal.

The card game for Monopoly.

And we split after the bus arrived at Orchard.

I went home with my cousin, Aly went to meet her mom at Paragon and the other 2 went to watch Salt.

Went home because I wasn't feeling very good.

Anyway.

I feel like I haven't seen Aly, Mualz, Va and Chuang forever!

When actually it's only last week where we were all still in LA.

I think I'm too used to hanging out with them that it feels so weird to be not hanging out yesterday.

:/

Yesterday..

Was filled with talks.

Well, let's just say..

You two clearly made my day by helping me sort out my thoughts.

Even though somewhere along the conversations that lasted for hours, I teared, I was sad and just thinking too much..

The two of you kept talking to me, kept helping me understand things.

♥♥

Gonna meet Jia in 1.5 hours :)

Quite excited!!

Haven't seen her since 1.5 years.

Other than the other day in Far East.

Man, it's been too long!

I'm going to shower and stuff now.

Xoxo.

It is what it is.

Sometimes I think I'm just too unbelievably gullible.

I'm already getting bored of Singapore.

I hate how I'm eating so much comparing to the amount of food that I eat in the US.

I dislike how I'm so used to texting and bbming a few people because I just can't really go on with my day if I am not talking to them.

I just want to stay with my family at home, chilling, watching tv and stuff.

I realized that my holiday is planned to meet people every single day.

I might want to squeeze two meets in one day.

So that I can spend time with my parents, siblings and cousins.

I miss them.

I miss hanging out with them.

I need to cherish this.

I will be alone in the US by the end of this year.

In 4 months plus.

I need these moments to make it up for my future lonely time.

I'm thinking.

I'm wishing.

I'm praying.

I'm hoping.

I'm glad.

I'm nervous.

I'm happy.

I'm scared.

I'm confused.

I'm worried.

I'm excited.

A whirlpool.

In my head.

In my heart.

My feelings.

Mixed.

I need to sleep soon.

Headache since afternoon.

Not feeling that good.

Caught Inception, finally.

With Aaron and Mitch.

Kept us wondering.

Well, it's pretty cool though.

Just had Macs for supper.

Yeah, had a meal, 2/3 of it.

Not upsized.

And I feel like a stupid bloated person right now.

I really need to change and sleep.

I feel like I'm going to spin and collapse any moment.

Will try to blog more.

I don't really blog that much when I'm on holiday.

As you can probably tell.

Goodnight..

Xoxo.